"HOW COULD YOU HAVE DONE THAT!?"
I was definitely surprised hearing such a high pitched squeaky voice to ring in my ears. I open my eyes trying to look for its source. My eyes opened to a void of darkness and out of nowhere a golden butterfly twirls around me.
I curiously try to touch it and it instantly escapes from my hands, fluttering further away from me. It paused for a second to see that I wasn't following, it waited.
Does it want me to follow?
I take a step forward and once again it flutters further in front. I keep following it until I see a bright opening in my view. It kept fluttering towards the exit and so naturally I followed, taking a step out.
This has to be a lucid dream.
I was in awe staring at the scenery around me. Hundreds of golden butterflies fluttered around me and I seemed to be in some sort of forest. The sun was shining high in the sky but it wasn't painful, it was warm, the type you would like to have a nice long nap in. I could only stare at the beautiful view.
Even now I just want to have a nap under this sky, I never thought I was such a lazy person. One of the butterflies approached me and after a blinding shine, it turned into a human baby.
Of Course I still hadn't seen that, as I had shut my eyes. When I opened my eyes, my gorgeous baby was fluttering in the air with small wings behind her back. CUTE. She wasn't as translucent as before, and my hands straight away tried to grab her. She smacked my hand away and flew further up, looking furious.
What has upset her now?
"ME!? You tell me why!?"
She screeched and I wanted ear plugs.
"OH, I WILL GIVE YOU, FRIENDS, MY DEAR MUM WANTS EAR PLUGSSSS"
All the nice butterflies flew towards me with the dandelions.
No way, no way!
That nasty kid!
I turned around running as fast as I could, I have an allergy to them!!!! For the first time I was feeling fear! I don't get rashes but I get a horrid sneezing fit, it irritates me to no end.
She knows it and she is taking advantage of that. Let me get my hands on you, you ugly goblin of a child! I will make sure to beat that nastiness out of you!
I was huffing and puffing while running past trees and branches, how can somebody get tired in a dream!? I finally gave up raising both of my hands in surrender.
"Okay, okay, dammit!!"
"Oh really?"
"Yes you KOBALOI!!"
"Oh I am way too pretty for that"
"Well, duh, I birthed you"
"So, are you saying you're ugly?"
I can never win with this kid! I sigh heavily and look back at her looking amused.
"True! But now tell me what could have upset me?"
Ugh! I try to change the topic, hoping to distract her.
"Is this a dream?"
"Well, yes, where else would you see a fairy!? Isn't this place pretty-I see what you're doing, you better tell me or I am ready to shower you with dandelions"
Damn! I love her to bits sometimes and other times I wish to throw her in lava knowing that I would jump in it later.
"Hehe!! Luv ya too"
"You!? Hah! Is it because of the accident?"
"ACCIDENT!!?? Don't freaking lie!! You did it on purpose!!!"
This time once more her voice raised to an enraged scream. Truly her temperament changes as a fast chameleon changing its colour.
"I didn't, it was an accident"
"Even if it was, you never fought against it. You just let yourself go"
"What else was I supposed to do? I was drowning and I couldn't swim"
"You mean you couldn't even flap one of your hands"
"I- you know I can't swim"
"I do, but I believe you had the strength to at least move your hands just like you had done when I appeared"
"So it was you, huh?"
"Yes it was me"
"It was an accident"
"You promised you wouldn't"
"I never did"
"So you're admitting that you did try to die"
"I-"
"Yeah?"
"...."
I was speechless, this cunning girl, she knows how to twist words and play mind games at such a young age. I keep forgetting just how special my child was. But I was stubborn as well.
"It was just an accident, don't make a big deal out of it"
"Who the hell do you think you're lying to!?"
"Mind your words, Nuria"
"My words… do you realise just how much you can hurt me sometimes. I hate that you throw away your life as easily as throwing candy, you don't break your sanity but does that mean I can do the same?"
Now I truly felt terrible. Tears formed in her eyes as they flowed down like a waterfall. I wanted to comfort her but she was still high in the sky, sniffling.
"Just how many more times-hic"
"Nuria come down please, let mom apologise to you. I am sorry"
"You don't mean it"
"I do honey"
"Do you promise you wouldn't do that again?"
I hesitated when she said that. I had already made up my mind about that. What am I supposed to say? One white lie wouldn't hurt, would it?
"YES IT WOULD!!"
Ah, I keep on forgetting that she can see my thoughts. I really hate that.
"No I didn't mean that, please, listen to me. I will try my best, how does this sound?"
"Umm.. ok but I am still way too upset for you to pacify me"
"Nuria"