The next few pages detailed his involvement with the Eclipse—his vile acts, and the guilt he initially felt. At first, the weight of what he had done burdened him, but the longer he stayed with the Eclipse, the more his mind unraveled. Eventually, the guilt stopped holding him back.
"I committed a grave sin. I kidnapped a woman and killed her as an offering. Her blood, still warm, stained my hands, yet... I felt nothing. It was the most repulsive thing I'd ever done. But somehow, the guilt didn't come. Was it gone for good? Maybe it was the cult leader's relentless brainwashing, twisting my mind. I couldn't run anymore. If I did, they'd blow my head apart. I saw what happened to others who tried to escape. I would be next. I wanted to go back to Grace, even though I fucked up by cheating on her. But what choice did I have now? I don't deserve to even face her, not after the things I've done."
