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This is a process of exploration.
Meaning itself has no meaning.
Of course, if there are results, then there is meaning.
But so far, she has not found any results.
If she had lost the ability to walk from the beginning, she might not have been so downcast; on the contrary, she might have been more willing to embrace hope than most people.
But it was the fall from having to having not.
A sickness at the age of nine left her legs paralyzed, robbing her of the ability to walk.
When previously reading I and the Earth Altar, she merely felt sympathy for the protagonist, but thought with a loving mother, she should buck up and not be so disheartened.
But looking back now...
She didn't dare to read that essay anymore.
This proves that other people's opinions actually don't help oneself at all.
All the principles, from the viewpoint of God, seem so clear and understandable, taken for granted.
