Long periods of thought and observation had made her waver!
She suddenly felt that the way she had lived in the past was too tiresome, too opportunistic, too deceitful, and too despicable. She hadn't lived as her true self, but was hiding behind a deceptive mask every day, operating as a slave to interest.
She tried to change.
However...she would never have imagined that when she expressed her inner doubts and planned to change herself, her parents didn't understand at all.
Yes, they didn't understand at all!!