But she had thought her resolve was strong; yet, only three months had passed, and she could no longer restrain herself. Normally busy, she wouldn't notice, but when the night grew quiet, looking at the three children whose faces resembled his, the longing hidden in her soul felt as if it could erode everything she was. Uncontainable, it sprung forth like an unstoppable spring.
Such piercing pain, such unbearable yearning surrounded her, Han Dongchen's slyness, his indulgence, his cold expression, the smile at the corner of his mouth that he couldn't hide...
Su Xiaowan shakily opened the letter that had been soaked with her tears and read on...
To my dear wife Xiao Wan:
I know this decision I've made hurts you deeply and saddens you. I also know you worry about me; you fear losing me, fear that the children will lose their father, you fear losing your husband...
