I lived my whole life in distraction
Stress? Smoked myself to death
Depressed? Acted loudly
Lonely? Forced myself to believe that I liked it that way
Anxious? Blasted music
I just distracted myself all the time
Always tried to find the right thing in wrong places
I don't blame anyone
Since I settled for the bare minimum
Why?
Because I know how hard it can be for some people to even provide that
But, now that I think about it
It's all in ones mind
If they wanted to they would
But the most important thing?
I need to change
Change my attitude towards life
Change my mindset
Change myself to become better
So, I can proudly say that
I provided the best for myself
I was there for myself
I did it all on my own
I patiently waited for my turn
To be able to smile proudly while looking at the dark days I've been through