As I walked down the mountain the familiar sights filled my open eyes, it was like looking back at where you came from in awe. The nostalgia I felt was almost overwhelming, my moms chatter was easily tuned out as a feeling crept up from the shadows below me.
We kept on walking and the chatter soon fell to silence, the world was slowly passing us by as we walked down this mountain, after about an hour we arrived at my mom and dads small rural house on the outskirts of the city.
That feeling hits me again
I choose to ignore it
[The thing hasn't changed in years, I remember bringing my friends back to this house a couple of years ago, it was broken down ruined because of the war but boy did we all have a night]
"Leelee your dad will be home tonight do stay for dinner please"
"Yes mom I wouldn't want to miss dads silly story of the store today"
[I missed my dads little cooking shop in the city, it was humble but certainly had the best food]
A couple hours past and a familiar dusk rained over the once bright sky like a shadow creeping up a sidewalk on a sunny day. Mom and me chatted like everything was normal but as time went on this feeling I kept feeling pushing away crept back up.
Again I ignored it
"Knock Knock'
I heard a familiar deep Scottish accent
"DAD!!!"
I screamed at the top of my lungs, as i slipped trying to rush up and meet him at the door.
"Lily EY what brings you down the mount' today'"
My dad came into view, he was a hurly but cuddly big guy, around 6'1 with a stoic white beard. He was wearing his apron, it was a silly little bear faced one that my mom bought for him to tease him, he wore it out of spite for the joke but we both knew he always loved feeling cute.
[Dads chubbier then I remember]
I let out a little chuckle
"I'm going into the city tonight to pick up somethings and meet with someone"
The feeling was lurking in the shadows of my gut
"Ay you shoulda' let a fella like me know so i coulda' cooked you er favourite meal"
[I will always miss you guys, even though we share this moment its not my reality, I miss you guys even though both of you are standing in front of me]
"Dad before you go I need to have a talk with you privately away from mom"
"ey... lets folla me Lil"
He said before walking out the door into the field behind the house.
[I got to get something straight before I go, dad why you kept this a secret from my will forever be something I don't get so lets... finally get my answer]
The feeling is creeping up more
I meet my dad outside and he stands facing away from me.
"out with it then Lily"
"why would you keep such a secret from me. FROM MOM??!"
I felt tears coming out but I didn't care anymore
[I just missed my dad]
"WHY WOULD YOU NOT TELL US YOU WERE A WARRIOR, YOU COULD HAVE DONE SO MANY THINGS DIFFERENT"
[who cares if i tell him the future anymore I DONT CARE]
"YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A GENERAL FOR THE WAR, YOU COULD HAVE TRAINED SOLIDERS, MAYBE ID BEEN STRONG ENOUGH TO BEAT PLUTO AND I WOULDNT HAVE DIED, EVERYTHINGS A MESS AND ITS ALL... its all"
my dad just stood there looking at me, not saying anything will his body still turned away.
"SAY SOMETHING YOU USELESS FUCKING WARRIOR, WHATS YOUR REAL NAME AGAIN OH RIGHT RONAN THE VAST"
I was out of breath and all my emotions of everything that had been happening to me
"ey Lily"
[Thats all hes going to say to me? are you fucking kidding what did I expect]
"Dad, you cause me a lot of pain in the future, and I get that probably makes no fucking sense to you but I just don't care anymore, I've died twice now dad, felt the entire thing... but as if you'd ever believe me, you never trust me in the future, you stay dormant and then come out and do something stupid, that I could just never forgive you for. I love you so much dad, but I'm leaving now. Tell mom I'm sorry for not staying for dinner but I can't stand to look at your face anymore"
He looked at me finally turning his body to me.
"ey Lily... Swing your sword on me"
[What?]
"Huh?"
[Dont give me this stoic shit dad]
"SWING YOUR SWORD LILY"
His accent was thick and powerful with each individual word
"fine"
[FINE ill show you Ill SHOW YOU HOW STRONG I AM NOW, PROVE THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE LISTENED TO ME BACK THEN]
I draw my sword from my sheathe and petals fill the surrounding area, my Yol channeled throughout my body and sword like a flowing river. My dad stood still, but I was one with the petals. It was like a beautiful pink snowfall that in-captures just about anyone even if just for a split second, and that second is when I always attacked, I watched his eyes carefully,
His eyes snapped at one of the petals very quickly
[NOW]
I flowed along the petals and let my body be one with my sword, flowing right behind him and swinging at his legs.
CLANG
Sparks flew in front of my face, the petals fizzled out of the sky
I opened my eyes wider to see that my dads greatsword had appeared and he was blocking my sword
"ey Lily you've changed a lot, your body can't keep up with this technique. You're. Slow"
[Me slow? ME SLOW? YOU JUST GOT LUCKY]
I swung, and swung and swung my sword in a fury of rage, frustration and longing.
But alas every single blow was blocked with ease.
My body went limp after a couple more minutes of swinging and tears just flowed out of my eyes.
"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE DAD, YOU DID IT BEFORE DO IT AGAIN"
"Lily, you fought Pluto eh?"
"why does it even matter Ronan"
"ey well' lil' hes the god a' time and it seem you a' changed a little, that being yer eye and that beautiful pocket watch"
"just leave dad, let me walk away"
"sure lil? but you cant change yer future, this hell hes keeping you in will be yers alone. but yer dad is here, even if I hurta you in yers future, things dont gotta repeat ers self, yer sword technique lacks any emotion, think strong about yerself and who yer want to become. Yer a warrior Lil, named after me pops"
[I dont even wanna listen to the bullshit hes spouting, like he knows anything about my life. Hes not been present]
"goodbye Dad"
I walked off and he didn't stop me, I walked and walked until I arrived at the tavern that was just outside the city
"Yo barkeep, give me one of whatever your strongest ale is"
A well kept half-elf girl, in a vat black suit with two long black braids falling on her back brining attention to her bright coloured piercings in her ears.
[You always knew how to dress eh Lyra]
Lyra nodded and poured the drink in front of me, she gently placed it down and went to tend to the one other guy in the tavern. A strong looking dwarf guy I'd never seen before but he looked decently dressed, and he had a beautiful full black beard, and a giant axe on his back.
I took a sip of my beer and that feeling that I had held back even throughout all the crying finally bared its ugly teeth.
[How did I even fucking get here]