I feel bad for running away like this. I see Qin Luo with a risen arm calling for me but soon after he becomes a blurry figure and disappear from my sight, along with his pitiful expression...
I don't head for a seat as I told him but run away from the camp, I need to be alone before anything dangerous happens. Whether it's me loosing control or some soldiers interfering, worst outcome would be if Dong Hu was to find me in this state.
I'm not sure if I should seek that man's help, but surely it's better to be beside him right now instead of anyone else. So I head for the usual meeting spot.
...
After a few steps I loose balance and reach out my hand to grab onto a tree branch, the other one coming to my spinning head -The heck is happening? For real... I'm starting to think I have been drugged, but why?- I murmur, allowing myself to slowly sit down on the ground. I pinch my nose bridge and try to focus my sight.
Everything is blurry and extremely saturated, the ground seems to be made of water -I need to reach...- I stand back up but fall to the ground -Dammit...!- I want to stand up again but my body gives up against my will. I manage to turn on my side, just in case to avoid any chocking if I faint, and can only stare at the neon green ground. Bit by bit my consciousness slips away, I feel weak and stiff.
Next thing I know is that it all turns black.
Silent.
Still.
Nothing...
This isn't normal!
No normal drug would do such a thing...!
I want to shout, I want to scream, I see my self trapped in my mind and hitting against am invisible door. No voice can be heard, not even the sound of my punches... I can only succumb to that nothingness, like still water deep in the ocean. Cold and dark.
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Time passes... I don't know how much, I just lay there unmoving.
...
A soothing sensation approaches me, like someone passing their hand through my hair in a gentle and slow motion. Almost caring in their movements... My body begins to burn, that still black water reflects a feeble light and a gold thread falls from above. Gently resting on the surface, I manage to move a finger and touch it, it stings me a bit but not in a painful way... It's full of energy.
A silver one appears too... One more gold, one silver... I can move my whole hand and grab them, feeling less confined than before.
"Again, more?" I think looking up "More and more...!" They fall almost like rain and bury me beneath that buzzing energy. I dig my nails in the ground and drag my body with just one arm, I try to turn around on my abdomen... The still water drenching my clothes. I manage to bend one knee, even if just slightly, but still can't make it to hiss myself up. Not even with all of this energy in me
-More... I need more...- I grab those threads, made of pure energy. The more I touch the more control I regain on my body inside this black mind prison. I push one leg up, still bent on the other knee... It hurts, my joints seems to be breaking apart and my tendons burn. It's like I was holding a mountain on my back. I take those threads and tie them to all of my limbs, like powerful bandages.
Screaming I stand back up, going for that invisible wall that represents my consciousness. I hit it with all my force but it still doesn't break nor cracks -Come on, aren't I strong enough?- I call for some fire and hit again, the wall still remain still and the water doesn't ripples either. I call forth a lighting and shoot it against it yet it is meaningless...
-I didn't come all this way just to be stopped again!- I growl calling forth more power. The light of the hit makes everything appears white, giving me hope, but as it fades away I notice still no change -Dammit, Damn, curses!- I kick that wall and turn around for the force of my hit.
-I don't have time to lose now! Why can't anything work?!- I growl, being completely furious at how calm everything appears even after fighting it so breathlessly.
Looking down, lost in thoughts, a red light starts shining and reflects on the water... I look at my mirrored self, reaching one hand over my heart -A red thread? It's not the first time this happens... But why is it inside me?- upon touching it, it explodes and gets absorbed by my whole body. The sensation it leaves is intense, more powerful than anything else and chaotic... My body could very much be energy itself for how it buzzes, burning my veins -This is... Overwhelming- I fall on one knee, it's too strong for me to handle. My body is still too weak for such a strong essence...
It's painful to an extent I haven't yet experienced, liquid scorching hot metal travelling in my veins... Consuming and burning me from within. It's clearly something not meant for the flesh nor the soul of a human being.
-Buy... Maybe...- I turn my head to looks at that wall, I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Ready to try one last risky thing, I push myself to the limit of my limits... Trying to tame that galloping energy, wanting to use it even if it might destroy me. I stand up and turn around in pain, this feeling is surely the same as being burned alive, I hit that invisible wall and gets send flying many meters away.
I hit my back against the ground and spit blood out, the arm used for the punch is probably broken too -It's not like I'm gonna let it put me out now, tz haha- I clean my chin with the back of my hand and stand back up, unsteadily walking back to that wall. Holding my injured arm with one arm -Whoever did this... Will definitely pay- I say with a clenched jaw.
The wall has a big crack on it now, I sigh in relief -Well then, let's get ready for worst pain now, shall we?- I murmur looking at my arm.
Rising it once more and hitting the wall.
It crushes completely and diamond like pieces falls all over the place as I feel myself getting finally back into my physical body, ready for revenge.