Chapter 358 - "W H I T E J O K E R"

Even as she stared at Neun-san and I, there wasn't a trace of impatience

in Dr. Vier's expression.

From the way she looked at us, I could sense that she was determined

and that "her answer wouldn't change".

Such a Dr. Vier alternated looked between at me and Neun-san when

she spoke with a gentle smile on her face.

[…That's quite the nostalgic look you have, Hikari. Unnn, as I thought,

Hikari looks better with short hair.]

[Thank you. I also agree that this hairstyle feels nostalgic… Facing you

like this reminds of the time we first met.]

[Unnn. I guess so… What are you going to do now though? Should we

fight just like in the past?]

[No, sorry, but I'm not here to defeat you as the "Hero". I'm here to

persuade you as your "friend".]

It seemed like they were having a calm conversation. However, both

Neun and Dr. Vier never averted their gazes from each other as they

continued to speak with serious expressions on their faces.

It may have had a different form and meaning from when the Hero and

the Demon Lord once faced each other… I had a feeling that the battle

between them had already begun.

I continued to watch that scene without interrupting them. This wasn't

something that I could interfere with.

They were conversing with each other now as both of them were

people involved in the matters of the past, and if I, an outsider, joined in,

I'd only disrupt the conversation… If Neun could convince Dr. Vier

herself, that would certainly be the best outcome.

However, if it doesn't happen… If Neun-san couldn't convince her

because they're both related to that matter and because she knows her

suffering… I'm going to have to join the conversation.

That's why I continued to stare at the two of them so as not to overlook

anything in their personal conversation.

[…I'm glad to hear that. I also think of Hikari as a very important friend

of mine… But what exactly are you trying to convince me of?]

[I'll get straight to the point. Please go meet Kuromu-sama.]

[In that case, I'll also give you a concise answer. I can't do that.]

[However, you yourself want to meet Kuromu-sama. Isn't that right?]

[You're not wrong… I'm not going to hide it. I want to meet Kuromusama. I want to talk to her again… but that's something I can't do.]

It's not that "she doesn't want to meet her", it's that "she can't meet

her"…Naturally, Neun-san knew that Dr. Vier would answer like this and

continued speaking to her without being shaken at all.

[…Vier, how long are you going to keep suffering like this? That's

enough already… I painfully understand how long you've already been

suffering in this millennium… and how long you've tried to atone for it

for.]

[......]

[You've saved the lives of many people, and when dangerous monsters

arose, you would find the time to exterminate them in secret. You've

even been donating most of the money you earned as a doctor. You

were actively involved in the development of new treatments for

diseases that had been thought of as incurable, and generously spread

them through the doctors you knew. You don't accept being praised,

and keep on blaming yourself… How long are you going to keep on

doing this to yourself?]

[…There wouldn't be any end to what I'm doing. My atonement is just

for my self-satisfaction… It would never end.]

[…You've done enough… You should be forgiven by now. For what are

you even doing this for? Even when you were called the Demon Lord,

you didn't harm those without the power to fight, nor did you ever kill

anyone, not even those who fought you.]

[......]

I'm sure that's what Neun-san had been thinking all along.

Dr. Vier didn't kill anyone. However, that isn't the case for the Demons

that she had under her command.

As Alice said, Dr. Vier must have been responsible for not being able to

control the situation. However, as Neun-san claimed… She certainly

wasn't a cold-blooded Demon Lord.

But even if that's so, for Dr. Vier… She's definitely the most horrible

being in the world.

[…So, why do you think you haven't been forgiven yet? Why can't you

just happily smile…]

[…That's obvious. Even if others have forgiven me…"I just can't forgive

myself"…so I mustn't be forgiven. This me who has foolishly sinned and

hurt the person so dear to me…"I don't deserve to be happy".]

Dr. Vier replied to Neun-san with words filled with sadness but… I

wonder why? I'm somehow getting slightly angry.

[Why are you saying that… You also have the right to fulfill your desires!

You want to meet Kuromu-sama… Then, shouldn't you just meet her!!!?]

[I said I can't meet her! I can't look at Kuromu-sama's face anymore…

I'm not qualified to do so!]

[You wouldn't know bef———- [ Stop messing around ! ] ———–Ehh?

K- Kaito-san?]

[…Miyama-kun?]

Before I noticed it, I reflexively shouted at her.

I had no intention of joining the conversation. I thought it would be best

for the related parties to talk to each other, so I stayed on the sidelines…

But when Kuro's name was mentioned, I couldn't suppress the feeling

of "anger" in my heart.

I glared at Dr. Vier, who turned to me in surprise.

[…What the heck is this… Why are you saying such incomprehensible

things like "those who have sinned in the past shouldn't be happy"!?]

[Eh? W- What are you…]

[I'm not going to say anything about you atoning for your past sins, Dr.

Vier. You can make all the amendments you want until you're satisfied.

I'm not related to any of that, and I'm not interested in interfering in

that… However! "The you today" doesn't need any qualification to be

happy!]

[M- Miyama-kun… Like I said, I am…]

[…You're just freaking "afraid to meet Kuro"…]

[Wha!?]

I was feeling so agitated that I lost my respectful tone, and Dr. Vier, for

the first time today, clearly looked shaken.

[What if Kuro still doesn't forgive you after you met her again… That's

what you're so afraid of. You're just running away with the excuse that

you can't face Kuro!]

[…T- That's not it, I was…]

[…If you really care about Kuro and think that you've caused trouble for

her… Then why don't you just apologize in person?]

[ ! ? ]

From what I've heard so far, Dr. Vier left Kuro's home without meeting

Kuro.

She's saying that she can't allow herself to be forgiven by Kuro… but I

think the real reason is something else.

What Kuro sadly muttered is that… she wants to see Dr. Vier, but Dr.

Vier might not want to see her… and I'm sure Dr. Vier feels the same

way.

[Kuro might be loathing you. That was what you were thinking, and you

ended up not being able to see her until the end, didn't you?]

[That… is…]

[You said that… you love Kuro like a child does to her mother… Aren't

you using it as an excuse just so you can escape?]

[...…]

Apparently, my thoughts weren't far off the mark.Dr. Vier looked

extremely shaken as she backed away.

I guess I hit the mark… She wants to meet Kuro. On one hand, she

wanted to apologize to Kuro and ask for her forgiveness, but on the

other hand, she's afraid to take the step forward, afraid of what would

happen if she was rejected.

If she wasn't at least somewhat aware of it, she wouldn't have been so

upset.

[…As I thought, that is the case, right? It's not that you can't see Kuro…

You're just afraid to meet her. But at the same time, you wanted to meet

Kuro and ask her forgiveness, right?]

[…T- That's not it… You're wrong… I'm not…]

Dr. Vier shook her head in denial, but her voice was very weak.

I'm glad… It's not that Dr. Vier doesn't want to be happy or doesn't want

to be saved.

She was just like I used to be, wanting to be saved, wishing for a helping

hand, but rejecting that hand all the while.

[…Dr. Vier. Please meet Kuro.]

[No… No! I will not… meet Kuromu-sama!]

[…Vier.]

[No! I don't want to meet her… Because, if Kuromu-sama rejects me… I

won't know what to do anymore…]

Dr. Vier's composure, which had been firm just a moment ago,

completely collapsed, and she just shook her head like a spoiled child

when Neun-san and I called out to her.

I guess it's just a matter of willpower at this point. She wants to meet

her, but she also doesn't want to meet her…

[…Unfortunately, Dr. Vier, I've already made up my mind. I won't choose

the means anymore. I don't care about what you're saying anymore. I

won't mind if you hate me. It's fine for me even if you despise me… Even

if I have to "use force", I'm going to take you in front of Kuro.]

[I- I'm not going! I am…]

Dr. Vier screamed that she didn't want to see Kuro, but it no longer

matters to me.

Kuro said that "she wants to see Dr. Vier"…Then, I'll grant Kuro's wish.

No, that may have just been another excuse, I, myself, want to make

them meet.

[H- However, what are you going to do, Kaito-san? With her like that, we

won't be able to easily make her move. And even if you say by force…

Vier is actually quite strong, you know? If she seriously resists…]

[Neun-san, it is just as I said… I won't choose the means anymore… I

will use my "trump card".]

[…What in the world is that trump card… that "feather"…]

Quietly answering Neun-san's words, I took out a pure white feather

from my pocket.

[…I want Dr. Vier and Kuro to be reunited. To fulfill Kuro's wish… No, I

also couldn't assent to the current situation myself. Yes, this is just my

selfishness… So, to make it happen…]

Muttering to myself, I tossed the feather in my hand.

Staring at the feather fluttering down as it was pulled by gravity, I spoke

the keywords.

[Please lend me your strength, "Eden-san"!]

Instantly, silvery-white wind blew inside the church, and ten pairs of

wings appeared in the shape of a giant sphere.

Then, one by one, the wings unfurled, and the God from another world

descended, radiating overwhelming magic power.

[…Details, Acknowledged.]