Tenor had just finished a staff meeting and was about to go back to his office ,he takes his phone with the intention of telling his boyfriend that he's done with the meeting and now they can video call, but he sees a message from unknown that arrests his attention.
He freezes on the spot as he reads the long message send to him, word after word makes him almost lose balance and forget even to breath , he's reading this and every word convinces him that it might be the truth but his heart argues that it's not.
The workers in the company are wondering what is going on because he's been standing on the same spot for like one hour.
He's been repeating the same message as if he doesn't understand it but he has understood it so clearly, as if he thinks it's a scum but those words seem so real , as if it's just a nightmare but it doesn't seem like it.
He might say he trusts Tyler ofwhich he does but one thing had ever refused to get out of his head that people you know very well can turn out to be strangers to you as well.
His heart is fighting with his mind, his heart says that Tyler would never do such a thing to him but his thoughts and conscience says otherwise ,, 'a voice comes in his head whispering annoyingly,,do you remember when your dad was happy and thought he was loved and when your mom made seem like she really loved him?'
He decides to get another prove instead of jumping to conclusions at this stage so he types with his shaking fingers, he keeps repeating same words to himself ' he would never do that to me. '
Tenor : pictures and flights or whatever..
He doesn't even know if what he has typed make sense at all, within few minutes he sees photos coming with another one message , his heart is racing even more before he sees them, his heart telling him not to look but his conscience says he's been through the worst so this is nothing, I mean , even if it's true , it wouldn't hurt like the family's, that he should know the truth, that he's stronger and won't even cry for such a stupid matter , but what he didn't know is that he's already crying.
He reads the message first and thinking that the person he treasures would call him pathetic it just breaks his heart into a thousand pieces.
He opens the images with still shaking hands and what his eyes meet doesn't have any questions to ask , even if you're the stupidest person on the planet. You'll know what those pictures means.
He checks that it's really true that she was in New York on Wednesday , the night he said he'll call him once he gets home but when he called there was no answer .
After Tyler had returned from meeting Lexy, he went straight to dinner and after that he was with his sister discussing the Matter about Andy , hours until almost midnight. He texted Tenor later at night just saying goodnight , he didn't wanna bother him so late.
Now Tenor drawing these patterns ,he really sees alot of sence in these words.
The next thing he realizes is that he has smashed his phone on the wall and it doesn't look like a phone anymore and that's why those hackers couldn't reach him.
His eyes have turned bloodshot , Everyone is clinging on another person with fear , he walks aimlessly and weakly like a drunk person into the evetor .
Reaching out he passes his car and goes straight to the gate , during times like this he always wants to be alone , away from anyone , he wants to hide from everything , he wants to go to his closet.
He doesn't even remember that he has a car , he goes on feet , he almost gets accidents three times , his acting bodyguards had followed him but not at a closer distance.
They knew something was wrong and they couldn't just let him go like that , they also dare not go near him.
They can't stop Wondering what had happened and if there boss has gone insane, he finally reaches home and opens the gate and lock it again, opens the door and locks it, he goes straight to his room and locks it too.
" Okay calmed down, you're safe now , you're safe." He assures himself breathlessly , he sits still and thinking about the whole situation he becomes numb suddenly , the pain has become too much that it makes him numb and can't feel anything , but once Tyler crosses his mind the numbness goes away and the pain come back attacking him "I .. I can't live on, I .. need to find my dad .. he's the only person.. I have now But finding him I'll have to die first.."
He opens the drawer looking for the medicines that he had, alot of them , he takes them all out, they are uncountable and of different types. He's ready to throw them in the mouth without even water , he just wants to chew them and swallow, but something else stops him.
His heart doesn't allow him even if he wants to ," you stupid innocent thing , didn't you see that ? That was so true and am just a pathetic thing to him! How can you keep defending him? You are so innocent !! Why do people keep taking advantage of me , am I that easy to take advantage of? Why do I find myself in their traps all the time, am not that weak and I won't let anyone think that they've made it to destroy me , I'll come back to myself and show them that am not as weak as they think , I'll embarrass them , I'll make them look so stupid for thinking they could hold me down. But until then, I need a serious distraction , this pain is more than before." He talks to himself.
He keeps Wondering what could make the pain ease ,, then alcohol pops in his mind , but he doesn't have a phone to order , he remembers he has an office phone in his office so he holds himself on the wall untill he's there, he oders so many bottles , " but until they arrive I need something else to distract the pain !! what now ?" ,, he draggs himself to the living room finding a speaker that he listens to music when he's bored , he puts it on with the loudest volume , it's so loud that the house is almost shaking , " now I won't hear the pain ,,,,,, but it didn't work.
He goes back to the office to tell them to hurry but he finds his phone ringing, they say they are at the gate so he goes to pick them.
"Aaah thanks but I forgot to order something else , can you bring to me?" He says absent mindedly, he seems to be totally crazy right now.
Delivery person ," what's that?"
"Painkillers for a heartache."
Delivery person," what? "
" Forget it , you don't get it."
He locks the gate and goes back inside, he starts drinking immediately, he passes out and when he wakes up he Still feels that pain then drinks again, passes out again , and it goes on and on like that.