Tenor POV,
It's been a month since I left the hospital and now am doing absolutely fine, they've been taking good care of me since the day I left the hospital, especially Tyler, I could see how worried he's been about me.
I've been going for check ups all the time they asked me to go and the last one was two days ago. They would join me time to time, and sometimes Tyler would skip his classes just to make sure am fine even when I assure him that am perfectly fine,
He's been skipping classes secretly careful not his mom to find out because she's been like a fire these past days.
It's not like she treats me bad or differently from before but I know the way she used to feel about me has changed, even if it's not hating me, maybe she thinks I played with her daughter's feelings and left her and now I've turned her son to gay, and maybe I'll leave him just like I left her daughter.
I understand her worries and I don't blame her at all , they've been nice to me all that time I've been here, They saved my life, they gave me a family these past month but what I give in return is all terrible.
I've ruined the happy family that I found here, Tyler has been fighting with his mom Everytime they lay eyes on each other and the reason is me.
Tayler hasn't been talking much to Tyler, even if they used to fight it was always playful fights but now it's like they have become strangers and the reason is me.
Alexa and Joe don't joke much and talk as much as before because one day I had them fighting about me, Joe telling his wife not to give me a cold shoulder because of what I've been through since a young age , that she should let me be family and be with Tyler because we obviously love each other but Alexa wouldn't agree with him so they've been fighting and the reason is me.
Tayler doesn't talk to her dad and nanny much because they are on Tyler's and my side.
Damn!! What a mess I've made!
The companies resumed weeks ago, Joe has been going to work and trying to make everything go smoothly , I bet he's doing this for me because he doesn't want me to go through rough time like before.
Alexa quit the job at the company saying that she has been planning to open her own mall but I know for sure what the reason is , and that just shows how serious she's taking this matter.
Tyler and I haven't really had a chance to talk about "us" and that's because I've been trying with all I have to turn down that topic the moment I always see it approaching, but about the lying to me pretending to be Tayler we already talked about it and I told him we're good about that.
From since then I've been literally avoiding him most of the time or avoid the topics to do with ' us' .
Not like I stopped loving him or am still mad at him, it's because of these mess I've made in this family , I don't wanna make more trouble and I don't even know how to fix them.
I know this is depressing him but I have no idea what to do..
He hasn't gone to the therapist that his mom has been insisting him to go but he refuses .
I talked to Tayler telling her how sorry I am for how things turned out and she said she's okay with that but I know she isn't , otherwise she wouldn't be still mad at Tyler.
°°°We're at the table for dinner where everyone is gloomy unlike one month ago when we used to eat in cheerful moods.
" Did you go see Dr. Olivia today?" Alexa is at it again.
" Mom please, don't start , and my answer hasn't changed, I don't have a problem that needs a therapist." Tyler answers.
" TYler, why don't you just go , I mean , your mom is just trying to do what's best for you and you know that ." I try to put my nose in their business , they've been fighting for so long about this . I didn't expect that Tyler will give in just for few words I've said .
" Okay fine , I'll go see her tomorrow and she'll tell you for sure I don't have a problem." She tells his mother.
Alexa, " Oh.. I see , so you're just gonna listen to him alone? Hah..! This is surprising I must say.. remember in the hospital when you had refused to go for a check up but the moment Tenor just breathed a word you went running, and now this!?"
" Can we please eat in peace.. as long as he's going to do what you wanted him to do." Joe decides to rescue the situation.
Maybe this is the reason Alex doesn't like me now, her son listens to me more than he listens to her now .
°°°After dinner I decide to announce what I've been meaning to from yesterday.
"So uh.. I want to thank each one of you for the support you've given me and for saving my life, I'll never be greatful enough to you,
I would also like to apologize for the mess I've made around here and if there was any way to solve it I'll do whatever it is but I have no idea what to do.
And lastly, I've been meaning to tell you this since yesterday but everyone seemed so busy , now is when I've gotten the chance to say " They're all so attentive, "uh.. I have a morning flight tomorrow morning, I need to go back to check on the company, I just le.."
My words are cut by Tyler's reaction , he was eating an apple that he was just about to have another bite but it drops on the ground the moment he heard ' flight tomorrow morning'.
He stands up and walk towards the front door , I can tell that he is mad at the same time pissed , I stand and follow him before he opens it, "Tyler wait!"
He doesn't listen and keep walking, I near him and hold his hand but he throws it away in the air , he's crying already, "Don't touch me.. !" He says angrily.
Why are things so complicating, how am I gonna fix this now?! I didn't even think about it but I knew for sure the reaction wouldn't be good at all.
" Hey calm down, let's talk about it.." I try my luck.
" Oh, now you wanna talk about it ?! You think I didn't realize how you've been blowing me off all this time?! But I didn't want to pressure you because you were sick, And turns out this is what you've been planning all this time?! If you're still holding a grudge against me just say it. 'Tommorow morning flight?' You didn't even bother to tell me earlier! Hah! Now am just realizing how unimportant person I am to you , useless person to you..And you claim to love me? Why can't I see that love anywhere??! Where is it?" He says as he goes around as if looking for something, and speculating me too.
" You know damn well that's not true." I argue.
" What's not true, that you don't love me at all?"
" Everything you've said is not true, Tyler , am ruining your family and I have no idea what to do about it!" I say In a lower tone but he shouts it out.
"You're ruining my family? And so ? You decide to run? Oh right , that's what you do best , isn't it? Running when you can't hold it anymore.. Can't you face a situation like a man?"
" I don't know how to fix this, alright? Your mom doesn't like me around anymore and it seems like I just worsen the situation everytime so I decide to give it a break."
" So you made the decision just thinking about my mom? What about me? Did you give even a slightest thought about me? about how I would feel about this? Have you even tried talking to her and try explaining to her how you actually feel about 'us'? No.. all you thought about was running,
alright Tenor, if that's what you thought and made up your mind , cool, Have a safe flight."
He says walking away but I hold his hand ,he turns and shouts at me " Am warning you , do not touch me again!"
" I..I wasn't thinking.. am sorry." I say not wanting him to leave , I really wanna fix this but I have no idea how.
" Whatever.." he says brushing me off.
" I love you and you know it's true, I just don't know what to do with the situation right now." I say honestly.
" So you decide to leave me die with depression? Maybe mom is right, I should see the therapist, because this...? I can't handle it myself."
" Am sorry"
" Stop apologizing , alright? You've done nothing wrong, let go."
" Let's start over Tyler" I don't know where that has come from but I said it .
" There's nothing to start over , you do not give a Damn about me; how I would feel about your decisions , you do not love me, you run leaving me to suffer , I can't be with someone like you Tenor."
' I do not love him?' well you don't have even a slightest idea how I feel about you and what you do to me .
He doesn't look like he's gonna listen to me , my body acts on its own and I find myself pinning him on the wall and my lips on his, he's still struggling but After some time he gives in into the kiss and kisses me back viciously and still crying.
We part breathlessly and there's just a small gap between us ," Do not say that again, please, my love for you drives me crazy,,how can you say I don't love you?" I whisper to him.
" Then act like you really do, please.." he whispers back to me.
"Okay, I'll do from this minute... What now..?"
" Let's try talking to my mom together."
" Am really afraid of her."
" You have me here, nothing to be afraid of." He says.
" Don't lash at her like you always do nowadays, otherwise she won't listen."
" But she forces me herself to do that."
We go in the living room together side by side as if we didn't just fight few seconds ago.
There's only Joe and nanny alone remaining.