Tyler POV,
I enter my room ,lock the door and lean on it , my breath is still not stable and my hands and legs are also slightly weaker and shaking .
I dragg myself to the bed.
Did he realize that?! I really wish not, I couldn't help it , I wasn't in control of my body, the moment we looked at each other I was so lost and my eye unconsciously lowered to his lips, pink and a little plump , so soft,, I imagined.. what if I kiss them right now, what will he do to me ? Hit me ?
God.. everything about him is so perfect, what if he just held me in those arms of his, and I lay my head on that broad chest, I would fit so perfectly, if I stand side by side with him I know for sure I'll reach him just above his shoulder.
I really like him , no, I love him and I want him . Why did my sister have to fall especially for him? There are thousands of men who want her, if she wouldn't have fallen for him I would have found a way to pursue him,, I can't blame anyone but myself for lying to him , I should have just told him the truth and maybe we would still have fallen for each other as we talked on.
Didn't I say I would let them be happy,, that I'll let my sister be Happy for once with someone, that I won't feel jealous anymore , why am I being like this now? ... But am trying.
How on Earth did I fall for a guy ,, haven't I always been into girls,, I have never in my life thought that a guy is attractive to me, so why now?? Am I gay now??! No maybe only for him , am gay for him Only.
Another thing I don't understand is how it happened so fast, I don't even remember when I fell for him . Did I just sleep and wake up and find that I love Tenor?!
My goodness,, am going craz...
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"TYler are you up,, breakfast is ready, we're waiting just for you." I hear nanny's voice.
Wait What?!? It's morning already ?? I didn't even sleep a blink!! Am I in hell now?? Maybe am dead and in hell because am in torment now.
"Just a minute." I realize that my voice sounds horse , as if I've been crying.
I get off the bed and go in the washroom to wash my face and brush my teeth,, I look myself in the mirror,, holy crap!! My eyes are swollen with dark lines under them , I can't go down there like this , they all are gonna throw there attention at me and be like " are you okay ??!" When they literally see that am not , am in hell, how can someone in hell be okay.
I go back in my room thinking of what to do, if I say I don't want to eat there, dad will think am being disrespectful again ,, ahh.. this will do , I put on the black glasses that were on my stand then confirm myself in the mirror, yeah.. perfect, I even look more handsome, I can't believe that idiot doesn't see this cuteness right here.
Ugh!! Not now Tenor please, am not thinking about you anymore!!
I open the door and head down stairs, once am near the dining I force myself into cheerful nature of mine, " aah good morning fam.., it's really great to see you these new beautiful day."
I go and peck my mom's cheek , nanny's and Tayler's of which she doesn't push me away as always, back then she would push me away when I try to peck her cheek but not like I would give up, I used to bother her until I do it.
I punch my dad's back "hey dad " he hits me back " always last to wake.."
Ugh! Shit! I shouldn't have done those things to them at all, what am i gonna to do with this idiot that is remaining, I can't just assume him , he'll think that am still holding a grudge, but he fuckin' kept me awake all night! I can as well leave him like that, " Hey Tenor , it's really nice to see you awake and healthy this morning." I say tapping his shoulder.
" You too Tyler." awhh man, his voice and how he says my name.. Ugh!! Stop it Tyler, stop it. I tell myself as I sit in my chair.
"What's with the glasses this early." mom asks.
" Mom, when I bought them there was no instructions on when to wear them." I hear others laughing while Tenor smiles ,,jeez he's smile.. even more perfect when he smiles, my eyes roam on his face until they stop on his lips again,, damn!!!
My mom says something and my attention turns to her, " You're bragging for buying them ,whose money did you use?!"
"Mine, from the savings."
" And those savings where did they come from?"
"I worked for them."
" You worked in did."
"Hey, you, why are you always in black from head to toe , I must say you have a very bad taste in clothes."
" I know,, right?? But I can't help it, it's just me."
" But I was just kidding, they suit you just perfect." I regret that immediately after saying it.
" Am just trying to get to know you, I mean , it feels good to have you around because you are now like my big brother ." Just stop talking you idiot, you'll say something so stupid just now, besides, what you're saying makes no sense.. I scold myself.
" You flatter me, by the way, Tayler had offered to walk me around, do you wanna come??"
" Why would I wanna go??" I ask.
Tenor , " I mean, why not , we can get to know each other better , didn't you say you're trying to know me better?? I wanna know you better too, so that we can get along well, younger brother."
Younger brother my foot! I look at Tayler and her eyes are begging me to say no. Even mom's.
"Maybe next time, am meeting my girlfriend this morning."
" You have a girlfriend??" He ask looking surprised.
" Yeah, why are you surprised, don't I look like someone who can have a girlfriend?"
" Ah that's not it"
"Cool,, I'll ask her to join us for dinner tonight then I can introduce her to you." I say as trying to make him feel jealous.... you think I don't have someone to love me?? I'll show you that I don't give a damn about you.
I wasn't even gonna meet Lexy today , it's my friends, I just said that for him to know that I have a girlfriend and I don't give a damn about him,, as if he cares about that.