I can't believe how fast days are passing by, what are they running for? ...Oh right , Christmas Eve.. It's already been a week since Lexy and I started dating. We've been going out , hangout out most of the time, texting, calls.. but all she's been doing is complain, yesterday she said that I've never taken the initiative to kiss her unless she does, thinking about it now,, it's true, I wasn't even remembering that am supposed to do that.
She's been also complaining about late replies and clearly am online, my phone being off sometimes, missed calls.. Sometimes I don't pick her calls because she'll be taking a lot of time talking to me which means less time to text with Tenor.
Why don't she blame that 'punk' called Tenor , he's the one causing all these . I put off my phone for him to work otherwise he won't work all day .
I wonder if Tayler and I are going to last at all. I don't know why am like this, I really liked her and every single day I just wanted her to be my girlfriend but now that we're dating I don't feel that pull anymore.
Lately Tenor and I have flirting so intensely and we're just on the verge of saying ' let's date' but unfortunately none of us is willing to do that, why doesn't he just drop his ego and say it , he's obviously into this, ugh.. I hate people with egos. ' do I though?!? He's a person with ego but I like h..,,' I stop that thought before it goes too far.
Should I just ask him to date?? What if he says no,, because the way I've known him he'll refuse, but I know for sure he likes me too, wait.. is it me he likes or Tayler?! This is crazy.
And what if he agrees to date , then what?! Do I actually want to date him??
But what we're doing now is like we're dating already, we haven't just said it out loud,,, why am I insisting on dating him anyway,, I have a girlfriend for crying out loud.. I almost even forgot that.
But If I ask Tenor out that won't count as cheating, right? I mean, am not gay,, I just want to know how it feels like to date a guy.
Am sure this thing with Tenor won't go far,, it'll just end soon , so I've made up my mind , am gonna ask him to date,, period,,
I've decided to let myself do what it feels like with Tenor, I don't want to understand what this is anymore, am just letting my saul do what it makes it happy.
We're so familiar with each other now ,, we've talked about many different things, I've told him about my family,,how I have a twin brother when I myself am that brother am talking about.
But I don't know why he doesn't want to talk about his family, every time I mention something to do with it he would change the topic and I could literally feel that his mood has changed,, I wonder what happened.
I wish I could find out, I stopped saying anything to do with family since I realized the effect it has on him.
" Tyler you'll die in that room, I left you in there when I went to work and coming back you're still in there , what on Earth has managed to keep you indoors like that?! Come out of that room this minute." I hear dad shouting from downstairs .
"I stay indoors you complain, I go out you complain,, what do you want me to do my dear sweet parents."
Mom, " We're just fearing that , what is keeping you in that room like that is something so sneaky."
I get out of the room going where they are in the living room, "Agh.. am so tired, I hope that event ends early tomorrow so that I can rest," I hear mom saying and dad supporting her words.
I don't pay attention to that, I've never been interested in anything to do with there work anyways.
They see me and they turn their attention to me , looking at me like am a person they've never seen. "What?! You dyed your hair!? When did you do that??" Mom asks.
"Today morning."
Dad, "I've never imagined this but Brown looks so good on you buddy, you even look more handsome,, hun.. you must agree with me , am I lying?" he asks mom.
" Nope , unexpectedly you look more charming, Mister."
" Thanks, I thought you were going to make a scene about it mom."
"Seriously? Am I that unsupportive mother?"
"No, I didn't mean it like that, come on mom , you know you're the best."
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TENOR POV,
Where we've reached now am pretty sure that she feels something for me too , even if it's just a little bit , that's okay because once I get there I'll add the dose so that, that little bit becomes full love bloom.
Yesterday we talked the whole night because she told me she couldn't sleep, that everytime she closes her eyes she just sees me, 'the picture I sent to her' and the sleep can't seem to go her way. And I told her 'same here' , haa.. what a feeling.
I can't stop reading reading that message again and again, It just makes my insides warm up and jump in excitement.. I haven't concentrated on work well lately, sometimes she would even put her phone off so that I can work but that doesn't do me any good , I wouldn't even concentrate until she puts her phone on again.
Everytime I talk to her, I almost can't control myself, I just want tell her how much I love her and how she affects me.
But I stop myself because I want to do that face to face , she'll see in my eyes, that am so serious about us.
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Today is the day that we're breaking for holiday 22nd and 23rd am supposed to be in America, so guess what?! I have a flight tonight,, it's finally happening!! Right now am definitely looking and bahaving like a person who has never been in an aeroplane and is so excited about it , but that's not the reason of my excitement.
After the meeting, everyone is leaving but my assistant and other two men who were my bodyguards some time back before I started being on my own are staying behind to make sure I get at the airport well before they go back.
"Sir, you said you don't know yet when you're coming back?" Alina ask.
"That's right." she's looking at me with that face and eyes again and I know that am smiling , so I adjust my face to a serious one,,damn!
Within few minutes we're here and am sitting in a first class flight just waiting for the time to depart.
We're all supposed to break for the holiday today , all of us I mean, all the three companies , but that one in America decided on tommorow because they wanted me to be there, in the event that they'll held tommorow to celebrate for being chosen to be the planners and in charge of the president's daughter wedding , it's such an achievement . Also there's retirement of Mr.Brastorn my CEO rep.
He has become old so fast , and now he says he can't work effectively anymore.. I've been really stressed about it because I don't know where else to find someone so trustworthy and hard-working like him ,, he's been like a dad to me even if I never showed that closeness to him.
No matter how much I don't want him to go , there's nothing I can do but to just let him go and rest, I'll just have to trust his choice that he has made of the person who will replace him, am sure he trusts that person.
This company is the Only one that has the wedding planner department, my dad decided to open that department the time that it was doing so well and he didn't know what to do with the money so he decided to open it.
°°I know they've planned everything for me, where I will stay, how I'll get to the company from the airport , all I have to do is sit and wait to meet Tayler.
I don't even have a plan , I said that I'll cross the bridge when I get there ,
Let me think of something,, uuh.. I'll probably stay in that same hotel that I always stay everytime I visit here, tomorrow after that event I'll go rest because am sure I'll be as tired as shit.. Then I'll tell Tayler at night that am here and ask if she can meet me the following day.
Am so nervous of what she'll say, especially when it comes to meeting , I don't know why I feel like she won't agree that easily, ugh am probably overthinking, let me hope everything will go as planned.
What if she says she doesn't want to date ?what am I going to do with all this feelings inside of me ?
Oh my goodness! This is exactly why I've been avoiding relationships , it takes so much of your ener... " Ngrrr ngrrr" wait is that her ,,
... her message.
*Tayler*: Let's date.
Me: What?!?!
That's the first thing my fingers could type,,
Is she serious ..I was the one going to say that first...I..cant..ha.. she actually asked...ha I can't believe this...she..fee....
I raise my head unexpectedly and realize everyone is staring at me , was I shouting or what,,my goodness am literally crazy for that human being.
"Am so sorry uh.. I didn't know I was saying that Loud." Most of them are smiling at me and am wondering why.
"Congratulations man." I hear one guy say.
"Uuh...Thanks" I say smiling back.It seems the rest of my life I'll just be smiling idiotically.
*Tayler*: I know you are stubborn and you'll probably say no , Tenor.. don't tell me you don't feel this pull between us, like some kind of attraction,, so before you say no can you at least think about it first? I think I like you.
Me: For me I don't like you, I really love you , am in love with you, I wish I could tell you this in person.,,Why would I say no to being with you, you're literally the first person to break the ice that was covering my heart.
Me: Yes, let's date, I wanna be your boyfriend.
I can't tell her that am going to new York yet , I'll surprise her tomorrow, am literally in cloud nine right now, I can't describe my feelings right now. Ask me later.