In my room am lying on my bed so bored , all am feeling is that , there's something undone . I don't feel like watching nor playing a game , which are the things I mostly do when I feel bored , not like I would ever allow myself to feel bored when I can go out and fool around . But I just came back and I don't feel like going out again.
I still have 3hours before time to bother people at dinner is due . When I try to sleep.. it don't work.
Fine..! I want to confess something but don't call me a looser . So apparently I liked how that idiot and I clicked , like not in a cheesy way but it really niced me by how we talked to each other like people who somehow know each other . The way we throw words at each other and also the way we find something to talk about even if we don't know each other.
Ugh.. I don't even know if am making any sense.. What I mean is that there's this feeling that make me wanna talk to him . Like an older brother or something..
Or maybe it's because of the fact that he didn't report me for hacking his details, that make him a good person , or maybe I wanted to be friends with him because he seems mature..
Ugh..! Man , this is driving me crazy !
Why am I trying to find good things about him , if I want to text him shouldn't I just go ahead and do it?!
Me: Fine..You win' (Sent)
Text me back idiot , I start counting minute by minute, is he working?! I know he must be really busy because I read in his bio that he is a CEO of three companies .
Incase he texts back I'll ask h.. "ngrrr ngrrr" I jump taking my phone so eagerly. And open his message.
Tenor: Am Fine thanks, What about you?"
So he do remember me.. well , I can't lie , this really make me feel good. But what's with the... 'am fine thanks what about you '.... I didn't greet him or something!
Me: What? (sent)
Tenor: Were you not taught that when you start a conversation it Should start with greetings.
Me: That's not something to be taught ,, that's something you should just know , but I decide who I greet and who not to greet, and you're on the list of those not to be greeted. (Sent)
Tenor: Rude.. but seriously, how are you? staying out of trouble??
Me: If you really wanted to know that, shouldn't you have texted me to ask?? Stop pretending like you give a damn. (Sent)
Tenor: Awww so you were waiting for my text that badly, but you told me not to text you again,,owhh man , girls are still dramatic as I remember , I mean , you say the opposite of what you want. Why are you people like that ?'
What the hell...am not a girl punk! Wait! am I behaving like a girl ?!?!
Tenor: Hey , still there??
Me: Yeah , and just so you know , I wasn't waiting for your text. And am not dramatic like a girl. (Sent)
Tenor: What do you mean like a girl and you're a girl.
Me: I mean , like other girls.
Tenor: Okay , don't make a fuse about it, brother won't be Happy if you're angry with him.
Brother?!? Now he regards me as his younger brother, I don't know but this just make me feel happy about it . suddenly I remember that he thinks he's talking to my sister which make me feel like never talking to him again .
Should I tell him the truth?? What if he thinks that am not a trustworthy person because I use other person's pictures ? I already lied to him??And the hacking thing too .
Tenor: By the way what have won? '
Me: Nothing, forget it. (Sent)
Tenor: Oh it was just your way to start a conversation.. I see . I need to go anyway , I have a meeting now , if I remember that you exist I'll text you. And that's if you want me to,,tell me if you want me to. Later... '
Me: Nice meeting, you don't have to if you're that busy, bye. '
I feel a little bit at ease now, am laying on my bed looking at the white cealing board, Wondering if am doing the right thing talking to Tenor, if one day he finds out that I've been fooling him , Making him think that he was talking to a girl and turns it's a man .
I know that if I had told him the truth at first that a boy he would have still talked to me , like an older brother but now I already lied to him.
What if my sister finds out that I've been talking to someone with her image , she won't forgive me this time. I can't tell either of them , I should just stop talking to Tenor and all this will be solved. That doesn't sound good . Why is talking to him so important anyway? I just knew him the other day, why am I being too fond of him ?!
Ughhrr this is driving me insane,, I ne...
"Dinner" Nanny's voice cut my thoughts.
"Am coming nanny just a minute, thanks"
At dinner, am a bit quieter than usual, especially when I look at Tayler and imagine her knowing that am using her image to talk to a stranger , and to make it worse , it's the guy who threatened us .
They ask if am okay and I keep saying am so sleepy.
"Tayler.. you said I can run an account for you, right?? I mean , it's okay if I talk to people on your behalf." I can't handle it anymore, and also I don't want to find myself in trouble with her again so I decide to confirm,,, I stopped updating in her account long ago , I don't pay attention to it anymore, the main reason am asking her this is because I want to know that I can talk to someone on her behalf and one problem will be solved.
Tayler , " wait a minute..the case with Hacking,, did it have something to do with that account you made for me?? I guess so , that's why you made me talk to that person instead of you talking to him yourself ??"
"Why are you bringing that up again?"
Tayler, "I think you should delete that account to avoid much drama , just use your account, and no, don't talk to people inform of me!" she says as she goes.
I also go back to my room,, I find a message from Tenor.
Tenor: You didn't answer my question '
Me: Am so sleepy , am going to bed. (Sent)
Trying to avoid him. I don't want trouble!
Tenor: Okay, sweet dreams.
Me: Likewise.