Cleo's Pov
I woke up with a determination to do good in my placement. This maybe not be what I wanted but I damn well know I will pass even if it kills me.
I have to show them I can do this. What I'm made of.
So finally, I've started my thesis and it's harder than I thought. So far I've successfully provided information about mental health which includes our emotional, psychological, and social well-being. It affects how we think, feel, and act as we cope with life. It also helps determine how we handle stress, relate to others, and make choices within our daily lives.
I've realized not all mental health is treatable. Most are managed with daily medications and weekly, and monthly therapy. Routine is important for most of these disorders.
Learning about all the different spectrums within the subject itself is mind-blowing. I've chosen a seriously hard major and I start work at a new clinic soon volunteering for extra credit.
"Okay, so I'm out" I tell Lisa packing away my books and laptop and she grins at me.
"Oh my god! You're gonna be great, don't worry about anything babe. You got this!" She says and hugs me tightly and I smile hugging her back.
"Thanks babe. I'll see you tomorrow. Fingers crossed it goes well" I say and she crosses her fingers and grins.
"I'll be here if you need me. Love you hunny" she says and I blow her a kiss as I run out of the lecture hall.
Making my way back to my room, I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket and I grab it in a hurry seeing
Kane🥵❤️🔥 flashes on the screen. I smile happily and answer quickly.
"Hey baby" I say smiling entering my building.
"Are you busy angel?" he asks in a low, deep sexy tone. And god, his voice is so hot. I'm thinking I could have phone sex listening to him tell me how to touch myself. God, Cleo, calm down.
"I've just finished class. I have work after lunch.. What's up?" I ask him cheerily.
"I wanted to make sure you had a good day, I feel like I didn't see you this morning but later I have my surprise" he says happily.
"I wish I could see you now, and I remember, I can't wait!" I tell him feeling a type of way that he feels that way. I wish I could see him.
"I'll be seeing you soon angel" he says and I smile.
"I know baby, where are you?" I ask him feeling butterflies fluttering as I push through my door and lock it behind me. The things he does to me are insane. I never want it to stop.
"At Legends, why beautiful do you need something?" He asks and I hum dropping all the things to the little desk and in my chair before taking off my shoes and jacket. Food can wait.
"Tell me what you need" he says and I bite my lip feeling myself getting wet at the way he said them words.
"You" I say unfastening my pants and slipping my hand down and I can't help the moan as I touch my sensitive cookie.
"Fuck angel, you wanna do this here?" He asks and I moan again as I circle my clit letting him know it's happening now. I hear voices in the background then a door slams shut.
"I need you baby" I moan as I rub pressing down and he groans like he's touching himself and it excites me further.
"Spread my cookie babygirl, I know your dripping with that delicious sweetness.. taste it, tell me how good you are" he growls and I dip my fingers a little lower and moan feeling the pool of wetness and thinking fuck it and yanking my pants off completely, dropping the phone in the process and spreading my legs wider.
"You just took your pants off. Shit angel" he growls and I bite my lip as I circle my wet entrance and bring them to my lips like I've done a thousand times before and moan at the taste of myself clenching my core needing him inside me.
"So good, sweet tangy nectar" I moan as I rub my clit again and he groans.
"So perfect angel, rub faster, press harder. I wanna hear you cum" he says and I do as he says and moan louder as my slippery fingers rub over the sensitivite flesh hard and fast and I arch my back off the wall as I feel my orgasm building and he growls down the phone turning me on further.
"Keep going angel, I can't wait to see you do this. I wanna watch you rub that sexy pussy until you cum preferably over my face so I can taste that sweet pussy as you cum. Fuck! Cum. Now!" He growls and I scream out as I climax harder than ever doing so myself, as my body shakes and I pant heavily. Fuck!
"Oh, my god. I fucking love you" the words are out my mouth too fast and I freeze.. he says nothing.. quiet for once and I hang up.
"Shit!" I say and drop my phone and run straight for the bathroom. What the fuck did I do?
Arriving at the clinic in my uniform I sign in quickly and I wait for my supervisor to collect me and show me around. I haven't spoken to Kane and I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I've had a missed call from him but I can't bring myself to call him back. Coward.. I know.
"Hey Cleo, it's nice to see you again hun" Melissa says walking into me with a smile and nodding towards the doors.
"Come on. Let's get you started hunny" she says looking through the sign-in sheets I haven't even said hi myself yet.. I don't think I can do this.. right now. Feeling like this.
"Okay, so I want you to meet a young lady who has borderline personality disorder. That's just one of her main diagnoses" she says guiding me into an open lounge area and I'm unbelievably nervous. What if she hates me?
The communal area is spacious and there are so many different activities happening as we walk through and over to a young girl. I wouldn't say she's older than eighteen.
"Stephanie hunny, this is Cleo, she's going to be working with us today" Melissa tells her smiling.
"Hi Stephanie, it's nice to meet you" I say politely and she looks at me and rolls her eyes.
Okay, it's gonna be a long shift..
After a long four hours, I finally make it out of the clinic exhausted and my emotions a wreck..
From ignoring Kane to Stephanie being an absolute bitch because shit that's exactly what she was, for no fucking reason. I was nothing but nice to her as well.
I run my hand through my hair and take in the fresh air and my eyes meet with Kane's. Fuck!
He's parked up waiting for me, standing by the passenger door like always and I feel the butterflies swarming. I've missed my baby and I go running towards him and wrap my arms around him.
"Angel, how was your first day?" He asks smiling until I pull back and he sees my face and it's like the phone call never happened. Like I continuously ignored him and now he doesn't care.
"What's wrong baby?" He asks wrapping me up tighter and I shake my head as the tears fall.
"I hate it.. All of it, I can't do it Kane. I'm sorry" I cry feeling even more stupid as my tears keep falling and I'm willing them to stop. Why am I even crying he probably thinks I'm pathetic. Fuck sake this is all he needs. A jobless woman living off him. I don't even know how it happened.
"Why do you even wanna work with me? To go back to your perfect life and talk about me. Judge me and my shit! Fuck off will ya. You're all the same. Scum. Thinking you can look down on me. I hate you!" Stephanie says and I furrow my brows ready to tell her it ain't like that but Melissa suddenly pulls me away.
"She was mean and beyond cruel to me. I can't deal with that all day, every day. I already deal with my parents. Melissa was nice about it. She told me the jobs were not for everyone, but now what? Do I just drop out of uni? Switch to something else next semester. My parents are going to hate me even more. I have no idea what I'm going to do" I say sniffling into his chest he lifts my chin wipes away my tears and kisses me gently.
"Angel, you can do anything you put your mind to, you don't need to apologise to me. I know you've worked so hard but if it's not for you then it's not for you. You can do something you love instead. Isn't that what you tell me" He says smiling down at me I nod slowly but sigh feeling defeated. I've worked so fucking hard and on day one I'm quitting. Mental health or not knowing one needs to be that rude. Period.
He opens the car door and helps me up into the Range and I fasten my seatbelt while he gets in and offers me a smile before starting the car and pulling off.
"Do you still want to go out for your surprise angel or would you prefer to stay in?" He asks me glancing over now and then as he rubs my thigh soothingly.
"We can still go out if that's what you want to?" I ask with a smile. He's actually still being him.. even after how I was. Maybe we should talk about it..
But.. I don't need to be a baby about my degree, I can just drop out and get a job. Right?
We arrived back home and I showered quickly ready for my surprise.
I stand in the closet with my towel wrapped around myself as I rummage through all my clothes and decide on a white bodycon dress that comes to just below my knees, with red stilettos and a red clutch I never gave Lisa back.. oops.
I straightened my long black hair and applied a little mascara with some highlighter to my cheeks then added a smudge-free red lipstick.
I look myself over in the mirror as I add silver drop earrings and the bracelet Kane gave me to my wrist. I add a ring to my right ring finger and spritz myself with fruity perfume and turn back into the mirror looking at myself. Feeling good again.
I grab my red leather jacket and turn seeing Kane look me over. I hold my hands out wanting his opinion and he licks his lips.
"Beautiful, you're my angel with a hint of devil. I see you" he says walking over and wrapping me in his arms as he leans down and kisses me before looking me over again.
"Fuck!" he groans grabbing his crotch and I clench my thighs thinking about earlier.
Smirking at him, I kiss him before slowly backing away towards the bathroom and checking I grab my lipstick and mini perfume while Kane finishes dressing.
I walk out and watch as he finishes and looks at me as he stands there in black jeans, a black long-sleeved top and black boots with his black leather jacket to match me and I think I'm gonna have a heart attack at how hot he is. How is he mine?
"You look so hot" I say biting my lip and he smirks knowing full well he is damn delicious and takes my hand.
"My beautiful angel" he says spinning me into his arms.
"With a hint of bad" He grabs my ass and kisses me softly on the lips. I wrap my arms around his neck and let him take control of the kiss before we're pulling apart and I feel how hard he is against my stomach. I can't help but look down between us. He shrugs his shoulder and smiles down at me.
"You do crazy things to me. Let's go angel" he says and I bite my lip running my hand down his body and nod eagerly making him chuckle.
"Where are we going" I ask excitedly because he knows just being with him is fine by me.
He takes my hand again leading me out and down the stairs straight to the front door and opens it for me.
"You'll have to wait and see angel" he says as we walk out and I head over to his car where he does the same as always; opens my door and I get in and fasten my seatbelt while I wait for him. I fuss with the music wanting to listen to something better as he gets in.
"Help yourself" he teases smirking at my boldness.
"You love it.. Soo?" I ask not liking the wait as I tap my foot and look at him. He laughs at me and I pout.
"I did just say.. but fine needy.. we're going on a date. If you'd like that?" He asks me taking my hand, and smiling at me and I nod happily, grinning.
"Oh my god yes.. Yes, of course, I'd love that Kane. Better late than never" I beam at him with happiness winking.
My heart beats rapidly for him.. He's perfect for me in every way.
He comes to a stop and looks at me with a smile.
"I've been planning this angel. I hope you like it" he says and shuts the engine off after what felt like forever being sat and I look around as he climbs out the car and opens my door while I gather my purse. He holds out his hand like the gentleman he is deep down and escorts me to a dimly lit secluded.. boat. It's covered in twinkling lights and candles are scattered around everywhere and I can hear faint relaxing music in the background. He really went all out for us.. our date. I look up at him as we get closer smiling amazed.
"This is beautiful Kane!" I tell him watching the candle lights flicker across the water.
"You're beautiful. This is all for my angel" he says as we enter the boat there's a picnic basket and a bottle of champagne sitting in the middle of the table with a bunch of pink roses wrapped up beautifully, my heart is pounding right now. I've never received flowers in my life.
"For you my love" he says handing them to me and I smile, biting my lip as I accept them.
"They're gorgeous. You're the only person who's ever given me flowers" I say blushing a little. How cringe was that..
"You'll get plenty from me angel" he says beckoning me over with his finger.
I put the flowers back on the table and slowly make my way over to him. I sit on his lap he pats for me and wrap my arms around his neck taking in his heavenly scent that surrounds me making me feel like I'm in a bubble of him.
"I'll set the food out handsome" I tell him moving to start setting things up, but he grabs my hips rooting me in place.
"Stay here angel" he says in a soft voice I haven't heard before. But he's looking at me a lot.. More than usual. Is he thinking about what happened earlier?
Either way, I stay seated on him as I start emptying the basket and see that he's brought all sorts of goodies.
I eye the strawberries and whip cream deliciously wondering if I could have some fun with that.. but scrap that idea for today. I think I need to know what he thinking.
"Did you really make all this yourself?" I ask him pointing to the basket surprised as he hums and nods his head.
"I did angel, Florence helped with the location but it was all me" he says and kisses my temple as I take out the little cut-up sandwiches he's made pick up a tuna cucumber triangle and begin eating.
We're both quiet for a while as we eat and watch each other but I need to say it so I am.
"I'm sorry I ignored you earlier. I freaked out and didn't know what to say. I don't want to go overboard but I can't help the way I feel. You're the only person in my twenty years that's done so much and it's overwhelming and I love it and I love you" I stop and look away about to stand up when he stops me but doesn't say anything. He clearly doesn't feel the same and I feel my stomach twist in embarrassment.. at my dumb, stupidity. I shouldn't..
"I love you too angel" he suddenly says and my heart beats rapidly not being able to handle his words.
"What?" I say quietly and he turns my face to look at him and presses his lips to mine affectionately.
"I love you angel and you mean everything to me. I can't lose you so don't push me away now" he says and I turn on him straddling his hips wrapping my arms around his neck and hugging him to me feeling like he's healing my tatted heart. I pull back and hold his face resting my forehead on him and smiling overly happy Kane is the only good thing in my life right now.. along with Lisa but I have nothing else. I hate my degree and my so-called parents. Wait, why did he say don't push him away..
"Kane, why would I push you away?" I ask him and he kisses me and shakes his head.
"I did something" he says and I hum unsure where he's going with this.
"Let's take a walk angel" he suddenly says lifting me to my feet and taking my hand escorting me out of the boat and onto the river bank.
We walk along quietly with our fingers linked, and the butterflies are going crazy. I have no idea what this is about. Or what he's done. Because he's obviously had to, too think I'm gonna freak and push him away. I look up to see him looking down at me.
"You're staring at me" I say and turn away from his piercing green intense stare.
"Because you're beyond beautiful angel" he tells me and I bite my lip trying not to smile so much. He's always with the compliments. I do love it though.
"Let me change your life Cleo, let me show you that you can be anything. You could be everything you desire" he says stopping me and taking both of my hands in his and I smile up at him.
I take a breath not knowing where this is still going and back away looking out onto the river. This is too much sometimes. He takes a seat on the bank overlooking the water and I hear him sigh as I run my hand through my hair and go sit next to him.
"What made you think of this place as our first" I ask looking up at the pretty sky as I watch the sunset.
"I wanted it to be a first for both of us, I thought outside the box. Something we'd both always remember" he says and I look over at him looking at the sky.
"What did you do?" I ask him and he sighs running his hand down his face before turning and looking at me.
"I did something when I first met you but I didn't look into it until literally today. After what you told me.. it's been on my mind a lot and I needed to know angel. I won't apologise for wanting the truth and the best for you" he says and I furrow my brows still confused.
"You needed to know what? Just spit it out Kane" I tell him raising my brow and he sighs and reaches for me and sits me between his legs and wraps his arms around me and it's kinda freaking me out.
"You're not adopted angel. Kristen and Jackson are your biological parents.. they're on your birth certificate and there is no record to say you were adopted. Hospital records say she is your birth mother baby" he tells me quietly and my body freezes not knowing what to do. She's my mum.. that.. that, man's my dad? No!
"No Kane. NO! This can't be happening" I say my body finally kicked back in and I go to get up but he stops me and holds me close to him as I try to fight him, I wanna get out but can't. Like I could fucking do that!
"Why? Why would you say that!?" I scream at him and he shakes his head against me still holding me to him whispering how sorry he is and how much he loves me and nothing will change.
After thrashing to get up, my fight slowly starts to die and I slump against him as he holds me tighter my tears finally fall and I turn to curl up into him and cry my fucking heart out. My parents did all that to me.
Treated me like I was nothing. Gave me the bare minimum. Constantly reminded me that I was unwanted and unloved from the age of five. I never received a birthday or Christmas card let alone a damn gift. I was the freak child at school. They made my life miserable from the very beginning and still continue to, to this day and I'm twenty. Why would they do that to me? I don't understand. If they didn't want me then why didn't they actually give me up for adoption? Anything would have been better than what I got!
"I'm so sorry beautiful but you needed to know the truth" he says as he rubs along my hair and down my back soothingly I begin to slowly stop my crying and I sniffle as he wipes my eyes and he kisses my forehead.
"You don't need them angel. You never have and you never will" he says and I nod slowly because I know he's right but why does this hurt so much more? They really are my mum and dad. Fuck!
My feelings haven't changed. I hate them with a passion and if anything it's heightened. I never want to see or hear from them again. I don't care anymore. Fuck them and they can shove their stupid fucking degree up their arses!
"Thank you for telling me Kane. I appreciate your honesty" I tell him stroking his cheek and kissing his lips.
"I love you so much angel. This doesn't change anything" he tells me and I frown.
"This changes everything Kane" I tell him and he looks at me with confusion.
"Not us. Just my life. I refuse to continue this stupid degree that's fucking with my own mental health. I can't do it. I need out. Now" I tell him and suddenly stand needing to breathe the fresh air into my lungs better and he's standing next to me.
"So you're not mad at me?" He asks and it makes me smile. He's adorable.
I turn to him and smile taking his hand.
"Never. I love you too Kane" I tell him and he breathes out and smiles wide.
"This here.. so much more than I expected. Thank you baby" I tell him smiling as I tiptoe up and kiss him gently and he kisses me back.
Desire always floods me when his hands are on my body. The way he's kissing me. It's more than anything I've experienced before but he's pulling away looking down at me raising his brow.
"I know it's only been a little while but the thought of you doing any of this with someone else makes me want to kill them.. happily angel" he says possessively pulling me flush to his body by my waist but it all seems to make me smile. I feel the same way.
"I have something else for you" he says and I bite my lip excitedly.
"It's at home though" he says and I nod eagerly and he chuckles taking my hand and making our way back to the boat just taking in what just happened. He told me he loved me too. My parents are in fact my biological parents but shit.. my baby.. Kane Cross loves me.. me! OH MY GOD!
I collect my belongings with the flowers and Kane leaves the basket, locking up the door and heading back to the car quickly trying to keep up.
I climb into the car and he follows suit.
I try to gather my thoughts from the whole day. The failed clinic. I just can't. But Kane.. he's amazing and understanding. I don't want or need anyone like I do Kane. This is my life now.