ROUGH MONSTER SHOWING OFF _
I sat gently at the terrace mourning and drowning myself im wine...
" My queen... please you need to stop..!" The maids urge me but I was in no mood to be told what to do..
" Get out...!!?!" Scaring them off was easy, I remembered it never worked on violet even if it works a bit on Ivory... Life isn't fair, I lost my daughters completely and Zuma dare to bring his bastards and recognized them. He had always been a coward whi couldn't fight his own battle but use innocent people to survive...
Is the man I fell heels for or a prefect replacement all these years..have I been dreaming too much of a perfect life with Zuma...? What a shame!!
I continue to drink thinking of ways I can redeem myself in front of my only daughter..my last hope of living...she has a lot of jinx in her future...what can I do to at least help her...? If had seen this coming I would have tried something..
' Only if Cedric knows that I kept his child...she would be the daughter of the mighty god of war...' this though jerked me back to life..he is my only hope...
" Drinking your sorrows away... don't bother! Your sorrows is just few metres away from you..." That voice irritates me...he is indeed my only sorrow..the only person who made me happy and took the happiness form me harshly..
I wasn't ready to talk to him yet.. I stood up to leave.. but he grabbed my arms
" Let's me go...!!!" Yelling wasn't an option since I had no strength left,he carried me to the room and pushed me on the bed..
" Don't you dare touch me... Zuma I forbid you ti touch me... you cheater..!!" He didn't listen to my taunts..he forcefully kissed me and ripped my clothes off...
I woke up with a spring headache and my body all over.. I can't count how many times he did it rather forcefully..my body covered in bites..he is still addicted to biting... what a dog..!!
" Bastard...!" I muttered thinking he had left the room
" I heard that Vera...!"
" So what...? You raped me!!" That was the only thing I can throw at him
" Not really.. I just had my way! Besides aren't you my wife..uhn..? " He smirked ate rubbing my naked shoulders, I smacked him off but he pulled me closer..
" You are to fulfill your duties to me as my wife! You wouldn't want me to go out and do it would you...?" He licked my earlobe... I shivered...
" Would it matter..? After all you've got yourself bastards in the palace out of doing it outside when you used me till I can't even move...what a joke I have become...!!" I rolled my eyes which attracted a forceful kiss.
I lost my breath for a while looking into his eyes filled with lust and some other emotions I can't fathom I realized that I can't bring myself to continue like this... loving Zuma had been dangerous right from the beginning.
He pulled me closer and his face buried in my neck..
" I didn't really have feeling for anyone aside form you... I just needed an heir Vera.. don't you understand my frustration? Besides I had made up my mind that if you have a male child for me I won't ever considered these children my children and I'll definitely forget about Violet's identity as a bastard...."
His words pierced my heart... it's looks I have suffered form deep illusion for a long time. So all these years of coaxing him to love me and give me the chance to have his child again it seems like he had already made up his mind...
I pushed him aside and got dressed..his angry look made me realize that I have ruined the so called ' moments '
" You cheated and I protected you.. can't you do the same and support me? You are so selfish Vera.... raising another man's child really hurts than ever...it really hurt...!! Why don't you ever seem to care..? All you talk about is Violet this... Violet that.
....take her with you.. protect her...!! Is that my business...?????"
He pinned me to the wall without any chance to speak and kissed me " As for this wifely duties, I'll advice you to take it seriously because things is going to get rough "
He took me again several times...if it were back in the day I would have loved it and called out to him..but now it's like a self inflicted pain but that won't change my next course of action..
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I have had enough of violet's little space in the palace,her silence annoys me and am sure she's cooking up a plan to hurt my sons..
" Where is the queen...?" I have begin to miss Vera's presence even though a lot had changed...she is still fine not that bastard..."
" In her chambers sir..!" The guards informed and I nod out in search of my price... I got into our room and saw no one there
" I thought you said she's in here" for some reason I couldn't fathom anger and impatience rose up within me.
" Find her immediately" the order was clear enough..i became worried for her.
Zainrald and Zealot approached me with a skeptical look on their faces
" Father... what's wrong? Why are there so many guards?"
" I can't find the queen anywhere...am worries"
" Father..do you know what day it is today?" Zainrald questioned me with a worried look on his face
" No" I replied casually but truth be told I was indeed clueless. Zainrald looked very angry..he scoffed and left " what's today about?" I had to ask
" It's mother's remembrance day.." Zealot said with his head down, obviously thinking how shameful it is not to remember this day
" Am sorry son, I didn't remember it at all."
" It's okay father.. I'll talk to my brother.. he'll cool off later on. Please overlook his behaviors and teach him your ways" Zealot is more sensible... maybe I should give the crown to him. He is always reserved and doesn't show off emotions.. it's hard to read him.