Tears began to form in my eyes when I finished reading my runaway lover's letter. My lover Mo Liang went abroad without telling me or rather left me. In his letter, he said that he couldn't take this unwanted relationship between males. The burden of being criticized by rich people was heavier to him than the love from mine. Ten years of our love was useless to him in front of his ambition. I walked toward our bedroom with the painful memories, my heartache was too much to make me cry like a madman. Never thought that one day he would leave me for his social status. Is my love so shameful that he was ashamed of me being his lover? was my love too sinful for his heart? I know that my question will never be answered by my lover who broke me completely. "Oh, my Mo! I hope you will find happiness after this ", I wished my lover with a broken heart.
2 years later...
It has been two years since our break up, and he never called me after that nor replied my any messages that I have been sending for the last eight months. Finally, I gave up on my hope of finding the reason for leaving me, my weight was losing drastically after Mo Ling's absence and my few friends were very worried about me. They felt both sorry and angry about Mo Ling's betrayal. My body started to get weaker as I stopped eating properly, I was getting thinner day by day. Nothing was the same as before as my happy life was shattered by my own love. My mind was blank and my emotions were starting to fade with my wounded heart. One day I collapsed in my office from the news I saw on the TV, I saw him getting married to a rich businessman's daughter. He was giving his beautiful smile to his new wife and that broke me completely as my body stopped working.
Right now I am in a hospital lying down in a bed where I can hear my friends crying, the reason? of course, I am suffering from blood cancer and was in the final stage already late for hospitalizing. That news didn't get me cause I was already dead inside, without my lover I was an empty shell who was about to die. I refused to go to a hospital and started to get ready for my death. I had only six months to live and I wanted to die without anyone knowing. I left the country moon giving farewell to my friends who supported me in my sad time. I opened the door of my new home in the new country sun where I will be living my last months. Here I am going to die peacefully with a painful memory, Liang will be happy forever and I hope my absence won't affect anyone.
6 months later at Mo Hospital...
Doctor" Do you have any last word for your friends?" he checked my pulse and asked me pitifully. Doctor Ting was the one who took my case and observed me in his care. He has never seen any relatives or friends in these past six months to check on me. "I have no one Doctor Ting" I smiled as tears fell slowly from my eyes. My time of living has come to an end and I know that tonight I won't survive, I was grateful to Doctor Ting who looked after me. The doctor gave me a sad look "I wished that you could survive but this makes me sad." My body weight was already lost and the hair on my head was fully gone,I was no longer a healthy and handsome guy who my lover used to praise me. "I have my only regret is that we could have been best friends forever" After saying that my eyes lid started to get heavier and heavier as my eyes got closed forever...
'If I got a second chance I would not love you again"