Time had felt short, it felt like time was just wasting away. I didn't know what was happening, so I got off the floor as Sophia was standing there in her P.E. uniform, doing an akimbo… Sophia was standing upright pointing at him in a buoyant way, or even had a grin on her face while looking down at him.
"Heh, It seems like we have found the person of the rumors around the school…" She said in a tone of an open and optimistic person, "This is the person we're gonna meet today, I know this was quick and all but this is him, Andrew."
She looked at me while I was barely on my right knee…
"What do you mean by that? Was we here because of him?"
"Yes, he's the club president… Of what I was talking about in the hallway. So have some humor, and say hello to Tristan Hutton, he is the founder of the TMC club and the one everyone hates at the school, but honestly, I had thought he wasn't a person who talks to others. But Tristan is just a self-respectful, communicational, and own-self person."
Sophia had a smile on her face of just an introduction to the person who is the one we are supposed to meet. It can't be believed that this is the guy, we are looking for, or am I just dizzy when I fall?
"Oh wow, this isn't anything new, huh?" I turned my eyes slightly toward Tristan, "Your name is Tristan, correct? My name is Andrew Aemilius, and it's nice to meet you."
I won't do this, but wasn't trying to be disrespectful in a manner.
"Shall, you give my hand a formal handshake?"
"..."
He was looking skeptical at me, even though I knew why—he was looking at me like this. Because I was putting on a fake smile. I didn't want to be here but with the love inside me, I had to come here for her not myself.
Such smooth and sweet love…of in my mind space!
"Andrew? …Eh? Did you make him insecure?"
"Uh, No, I'll never do that! I have no understanding of doing all that… So I don't know why he isn't shaking my hand. Probably because of himself or me. "
I started to feel rattled, it made me do settled movements as I was by; Tristan trying to shake his hand.
"Why shall I shake your hand?" Tristan said while closing the book he was reading. "Anyways, you should be taking lessons with me, you seem to have a self-meaning within yourself. Or should be saying you disrespectful to me…"
"..."
"..."
Me and Sophia were dumbfounded to the core, we didn't expect him to say that to us. Even though it was our first meeting and especially my first time talking to him. I felt like I was already being to be in his hypnosis.
Not as of controlling my mind, but by understanding of me in a full view.
Suddenly…
"Eh? Someone calling me?"
Sophia's phone started to ring, and I was in a stunned-ness expression.
She was starting to talk to an older woman on the phone and began to have a conversation about why is she late to track, and also needed to be there ASAP. I was starting to sweat about how I going to be left here by myself alone with his man(person).
"Sophia! Do you have to go?"
"Yes, I'd need to be there… It's an important track practice for us girls to win the next Female Track Race!"
Oh no.
I have a deep feeling that I'll finally be with Tristan, alone without Sophia by my side, and within the fact that I'm gonna to have to learn something new, again.
Sophia started to walk to the club room door with a careless look. I was quite stiff and didn't understand what was happening at this point. But as the way she was walking, I couldn't say anything then just stare at the heavenly beauty.
"Andrew, I'll be going to P.E. now and want you to talk to Tristan. I don't want to mess up his time, as I already made a plan to meet him today. It will be great to talk to people as you have no friends, I can't be more harsh but this is for your good. So take care my honey-pookie-bear, and have a good talk to Tristan Hutton, for you can understand the disrespect of others you have towards him."
The disrespect of others you have towards him.
What does that mean, had she known my actions already?
"...Haha, isn't you a funny one, Sophia Hope" Tristan said while getting up. "But of Andrew… He is a contemptible person as I but not as you. If you know what I'm saying."
…Heh?
Sophia looked at him with a smile, "Heh, funny…I'll be back sooner than, and no he isn't like that. It is just an ego; when someone feels like the world is against him. He's just a severe type—of—person and probably needs the feeling of revenge, for who had done him wrong. But as of that Andrew is not like them at all… If he can take the bullying and start to love the person who caused it, and the thing I feel is respect from him for leaving stuff in the past. So, he isn't a contemptible person—he is just human. who is expressing his emotions."
She continued smiling as she went out the door without any trouble. I was confused on the spot, with nothing to say or nothing to do in this place of time.
But if I can understand what's going on, I can notice that I'm being disrespectful to someone… Or feel like being myself, but I'll digress, I still need to be kind to others but not a full view of disrespect, I can't let it slide within me? Thus I'll be in a tight spot of this person who I soon forgotten before.
My self-image is losing me… Even I felt lost in my own words…
"That woman, she is the only one I can't understand." I felt like he was staring into my soul, "But as for you Andrew you can understand. So shall I start? Why do you feel like that towards me? Like; I barely know him and now I'm being disrespectful to him? How can I?"
He smirked while saying that, trying to seem like I was like that!
"Oh brother, you think I'll go down that path. But as I say; I wasn't like that towards you, I was just, you know, trying to see how you are."
"...Haha! I see, I see, and to know and think it would be quite funny, ha! …I'll say that acting differently from our mind or brain isn't the same as the fake or opposite, of your performance. Even if my words don't even make sense, you know their way don't you? All questions that I have can be answered within yourself!" Tristan was walking to me with a grin, "Now, we will see that if you all talk then act! If you can find out why you feel this way towards me, you will not feel the disrespect that you feel within yourself!"
Act or show, I started to move back in a quick motion is quite understanding as Tristan had a butterknife, and doing tricks with it as he seemed to attack me.
"...Ha…ah!"
Stumbling back on my steps was something, I was so far from not even knowing what was happening. As in a slight chance or no reason, I'd put my arms in front of me to seem like to block the attack.
A slash from a killer.
From right or wrong, taker and taken. Life or no life.
The self-respect of self than others… It will make someone else different…
But doesn't that mean that we are still different than now? Even though I don't even know a single thing about him!
I had to move out of the way to not get hit, and as I saw his face, I saw Tristan Hutton—the killer I have noticed as of now.
"Why are you running away? Don't you have self-respect?"
The question was short and quick, but I didn't realize the act of still getting attacked, and not like I wasn't trying to run but I didn't want to harm him.
"Hey! I don't want to do this, and as the matter of the fact, why are you doing this?"
"...? Then why were you disrespectful with that smile?" As he was flipping and rotating the knife quickly. "You even introduce yourself to me like a normal person, showing quite a friendly manner that you will have to the one you love within your heart. As soon as you even have a thought to bring your ideals of being respectful to others will have an opposite effect when you make an effort to be disrespectful."
"..."
Walking back and having to dodge a knife wasn't easy at all, I couldn't believe this was happening to me. Still, the knife was a real one, even with the light shining off of it, and also shouldn't be so very obvious.
"Eugh… Uh? I wouldn't do that on propose, and didn't think I would have met you as of now this is quite quick of this."
"Even if so… Isn't it very DISRESPECTFUL?!" He took a swing with the knife to my chest.
"Agghh!"
The sudden pain was new, I never felt this feeling in a long time, I couldn't be untelling of the fact that he was very right. It is very respectful to show yourself in a pure and bland, calm, normal manner, but not when you put on a fake presence to introduce yourself.
A stain of blood or I was bleeding was on my left sleeve, it wasn't deep but it was deep enough to do any deadly harm to myself.
"Even if I can't try to be kind to you it was so sudden of your view from other people," I was bleeding hard, as wasn't bleeding so hard that my breathe was leaving me, but so… "Yes, the view of you, the understanding of you isn't normal to other people… But that isn't a bad thing, and you shouldn't take every word for granted!"
"As so I still felt disrespected and your self-respect was blowing like a flower…" Almost getting knocked down by Tristan's attacks with this calm demeanor still bright, "Now! You need to change yourself for the understanding of respect!"
Change me?
Leave my disrespect behind? Wasn't he using my words of my own?
Now, what is this about myself? I thought I knew respect. I respected Sophia's love for me and also respected the bullies for apologizing to me as well, I still don't get it.
"What do you mean?"
"What I mean, of what I said of yourself?" Tristan remarked while he was ready to do an upper right motion, "I'm just saying that you have no self-respect at all, in everything I had said! Your words were getting confused, you were scared as if I took candy away from you. You will need to have respect for yourself, also not just love or confront the people who did you wrong—but the way you need to understand that you can deny things."
I quickly dodged his upper right attack, "Deny what!".
"As in your feelings, you should be mad at the woman that you hate… But I'll digress in that matter, still, you will need to force yourself to be… Like why are you letting me attack you with ease? Attack back to live…not just because you don't want to harm people but you think you're too strong don't you!"
"Eh!?"
The slash was visible in the air, it wasn't so fast or slow.
"Come on! Tell me, I'm not trying to harm you! You know the answer!"
"I don't understand?!"
If time had stopped and I was about to get stabbed in the neck, I felt my body go cold, even in the wrong time and place, should I protect myself? Haven't I done that though, I been done with all my problems as of late; my school bullies are done with me and Sophia has stopped being a yandere(or should I say a Kitikudere and Sadoere), so should I think I had my understanding of myself?
My self-respect is pure, right? I hadn't done anything to turn myself off how I didn't respect myself.
Pressure from the bent air from the attack that had cut my glasses into two, they simply fell off—fell onto the ground with a slanted thud. I thought I wasn't ready, the vision I just had disappeared in a single second.
"...Tch!"
"...Ha!"
I see, I see, but not clearly… I'm still acting or I'm still a victim, even if I'm in love with Sophia and the gang she was having stop attacking me I would be able to stop all of this with simple ease.
It isn't a crisis but I noticed that I was able to stop everything, even in the beginning. I was able to slightly dodge the leg or ankle kick, and I was able to stand the pain as well. And even while fighting Sophia in that classroom I was able to push her very far away and even talk back to her like she did to me.
…So can I even solve this?
To fully be respectful to myself?
Or even be disrespectful and fully respect or accept my conditions?
"...?"
As this was me being me or even thinking I knew anything about respect and disrespect…
I need to respect my actions and go on with my life.
"I do my own thing now," I change the whole expression on my face of one of those semi-serious, and briefly so emotionless person.
"What?"
In the quick motion he was holding the knife with a firm grasp, and his arms were getting ready to do an upper left motion with his right arm to attack me on my chest, I guess, and didn't think I had enough time to attack, dodge, or even parry.
Flip it!
"..."
I was quite serious in this reverse attack on him, and as I did this with an un-resigned mind, I instantly got hold of both of his arms and knee him in the stomach, and I got a simple easy combo on him with ease and punish him with a multi—combo with my hands' legs and has a finish hard punch to his chest to send him to the end of the classroom.
"...Argh!" Tristian grasps air in pain.
The idea of the fact of being me is still me… I'll need to respect myself and others.
To find my true self.
"Hah hah, hah haaa…. I understand now," I had a snarled glare with my hands up like a boxer.
"Haha… I now believe you understand it now, I guess."
"?"
"With morals, not everything makes sense to us people, and the way you can come up with your answer was maybe confusing," Tristan remarks as he gets up from the ground. "I have shown you your true colors, to the matter of a fact that you accept yourself, and let you be in more control of your self-being. Still being respectful is great and all is a good thing but knowing your true self is better than all."
He flips the knife in his hand.
I made a sharp look towards his body movements, making sure no way I wasn't able to block this…
And in a quick motion, he dashes at me… I couldn't see anything because I didn't have my glasses on to see so I started to plan on countering his attack.
The door beside me started to open and a loud thud came with it as well.
"...Eh?"
"...Huh?"
"...What?" a sudden female voice snapped.
But as I can remember what even happened everything started to become black, so I didn't know very much. But I'll digress and just say that it was probably Sophia.
Speaking of which, I was finalizing the things that had happened to me in this month or so at the beginning of this freshman year.
I could respect the way things had come out of it.
It was only reasoning from life and the reason of oneself.
And to the way that the heart is connected to faith and respect, can be where heaven and earth can collide with ease, and so for me to understand nature or so-called human beings, but still…heh heh.
I'll find myself with respect.