After a week of constantly trying to comprehend and understand what had happened to me, I finally understood. It turned out that I had an accident, in which I died in the process. My skull had split in two halves and my brain matter spilled allover the ground. But for some strange reason I recovered.
The car that hit me, was owned by a family who came to our town to visit their relative. On their way returning to the main road, they didn't realize we were about to cross path, when, we collided with each other. The car's paint was scratched bad, but, my case was worse. Immediately I was rushed to the hospital for treatment, but, the doctor said I was already dead, and that there was no way of treating a case as sevier as mine. After a while of finding ways to help my dead body, suddenly, the meter that was placed on my chest to check my heartbeat began beeping, showing signs of life. As impossible as it was, I had come back to life. My hair had changed color and my skin had turned pale due to excessive blood loss and a disorder in my system, the doctor called it the BCG syndrome. I can't believe I'm still alive.
Kazumi are you going to work today? Aunty said. No aunty, the car that hit me the other day, gave me a good amount of money to take care of our lives, so for these few weeks we don't need to work. We have enough to give us a good life, I said as I gave a smile on my face.
After eating breakfast, I took a bike which I bought newly from the money being funded to me and rode down to the main street to relax myself. As I rode along the road I thought to myself, wow finally after 20 years of suffering, I had made a breakthrough. Honestly, why I'm still alive, I don't know. But I'm grateful I'm alive to witness a day like this. I could eat, drink, and buy anything we wanted. I thought these things as I gave a happy smile. Wait a minute, I can't enjoy this money alone, aunty syneria has also suffered with me, so, it is fair if she joins in the fun. In fact, we should spend a lot of fun throughout today. A few hours later, I arrived home and quickly informed aunty about the idea I was having. She grew happy and decided to follow me on my bike. A few minutes later, we set off to explore and enjoy ourselves.
We went out to places we've always wished to visit, we went shopping, we bought some new clothes, played plenty of games, plus I could have sworn I saw a man trying to ask aunty out on a date. That would be nice, aunty had been alone almost all through her life, after her incident with her ex-husband, she hasn't had the courage to start a new relationship with someone.
Well, to be honest, although my life is the worst thing anyone could wish for, I still wish aunty could have someone that would care for her, but, since a man like that doesn't exist in this world, I will try my best to make sure she keeps on smiling for ever and ever.
What does it mean to be alive? A question I keep on asking myself day after day, but, today I may have an answer. My aunty is the best thing that ever happened to me. Although she doesn't have anything , she means everything to me. She's helped me althrough my days on earth, she's been like my sister, my mother, and even once pretended to be my girlfriend because some girls had insulted me and called me a lonely ugly freak of nature because I asked them out, which made me sad. I would give the world and even lay down my life for my aunty no matter what.
Uhm kazumi?, Yes aunty I replied. Today seems like a perfect day, yes it do I replied. The sky is blue and peaceful, it's like a perfect day to die. Well, I guess so, but, don't worry aunty, I wount kill myself anymore, as long as you and I are together, I'll keep on living for you, okay, I said. She looked at me with a smile on her face and said, this is the very first time I'm seeing you smile, today must be my lucky day as well.
Something was wrong, I couldn't tell what was wrong, but, I could feel it. Aunty looked at the window with a gloomy look on her face then she said, kazumi can you promise me that regardless of whatever happens, you would keep on living, FOR ME. umm why are you saying that kind of thing at a time like this, I said with a smile on my face? I'm not going to kill myself any more aunty, for the first time I know what happiness feels like, and I don't want it to end. I like the type of person you are kazumi, aunty said. You are a brave and joyful soul, especially when you are happy, suddenly aunty stood up and stretched are arms in the air and yawned, then she said, keep up with that attitude, so I can be the happiest person on earth. Immediately she said those words, her hair shown bright and moved with the wind, Her face gave a smile that could make your heart want to kiss and keep her forever and her posture gave the figure of a gentle soul which made her seem at that exact moment like a beautiful goddess. Then she turned to face the direction of the house, then said with a sad tone in her voice, death, and life are the fun part of living, if you can't die you can't live, I'm not perfect, but, I hope one-day you will find true happiness and be the best and happiest version of yourself. Why are you talking like that aunty? I said in a sad tone. Nothing, my dear kazu, I'm just excited about seeing you smile for the first time, she replied in a happy and cheerful mood. Anyway , I will be going home now, ok, I want to quickly send some text to some of my friends . Alright, aunty I'll be home with you soon. Then she left . A moment later, I was preparing to leave the café when we had lunch, when the thought of what she said came across my mind. Hmm! aunty was talking very weird. Maybe the gentleman I saw with her earlier asked her out, and she's too shy to tell me, I thought within me. But wait a minute, it's not like her to go home on a joyful occasion and talk about me dying, that's very odd. I looked out the window and saw a lady and a man enter their vehicle, preparing to leave. But maybe she might have followed the gentleman out on a date, I said, then I smiled. I came out, about to ride my bike home when it happened. The call I've always wished to hear had arrived. However it was the same call that never came for me, instead it came for someone else. Immediately I picked the call, I froze. My arms began to tremble, then the pupils of my eyes grew tiny rapidly. My face fell as my thought became blank, I became empty with only the sound of my heart beat pounding faster than regular. My eyes grew wide and filled with veins and my mouth grew tiny, giving the expression like I just saw the ghost of the devil.
What is happening? Immediately, I took to my heels. Running as fast as I could and with ever breath, I had in my body. I ran on the road, street, through alleys and through anyone who stood in my way. I ran non-stop like someone being chased by demons. Do you know the feeling someone gets when he discovers he made a grave mistake that would scare him for life? That was the way I was feeling as I kept on running towards one location ."HOME".