Lilaac's POV
Right now I'm racking my brains thinking of an excuse to avoid going to college. It sucks having a strict mom. I get it , she's just looking out for me with all the struggle she had . She's preparing me for the world and all that . But sometimes it just gets a little... I don't know.Okay back to topic. I need to find a excuse. Should I say my class are off today? Then she'd call the college. Should I pretend to be sick ? She'll probably take me to the hospital and call my bluff . What other excuses do I have ? Maybe I should just pretend to go and skip it . Yeah I know it sounds awful but I really don't want to go and face all those people. You might be wondering why I am trying so hard to stay at home .
Well after the not so cool incident yesterday, I just wanted to run home and forget about it all. But I saw many people watching the drama unfold. I figured that people will probably gossip and stare at me at least. I hate unnecessary attention. Like I don't really hate attention all the time . I want it sometimes. But I wanted to be noticed for good things. Like known for being so preety and smart. I want that kind of attention. But I don't want to be known as the girl that get cheat on or something like the girl who start a drama or something along those lines . That's so not cool.
So I figured out a solution. I'm gonna disappear from public eyes for some time . Atleast until those people forget about the whole damn drama . After that I'll make a great entrance and win all hearts. Just kidding, it's not that easy . Like I totally want to do that but I'm just not capable. Like I'm pretty and smart but not that preety or that smart . People like me tend to disappear in the crowd, the average girl . As much I hate admitting it , it's the truth . The thing is there are people that girl from earlier, Diane . They are so damn prefect. It's like God decided to give them all the charm from everyone. It's because of them that I disappear in the crowd . Those god's favourite child . Diane is the kind of girl that every guy want to date . Even though I hate Hector's cheating ass, I gotta admit that he got great taste .
But he's kinda delusional thinking she'll agree to date him. After yesterday I did my research on her . I'm the best at online stalking anyway. So turns out , she has a whole damn harem of both boys and girls. Practically everyone worship her in her high school years . She's like some kind of idol there . It's not really surprising. I mean she is prefect from head to toe . But it's not only her beauty that's extraordinary. She's the top of her major and she plays like 3 instruments. She also came from a crazy rich family and she's already starting her own fashion company. God what does this girl even lack? She has literally everything anyone could ask for . Is she even human? I'm burning with jealousy just thinking about it. It's not fair God . How could you give her everything I've wanted? You didn't think to give me a share ? Did she save the world in her past life ? I recalled what she said yesterday.
" Don't you think I could be a better boyfriend?"
Was she hitting on me ? She's probably just teasing me . Truthfully speaking she's totally my type . If I were a guy I'd fall for her too.
If only my family isn't against LGBT and if only she's not playing with everybody, I'd probably date her.
Yes yes , I like girls too. Actually I like girls more than boys not that I'll ever admit it to the world. My family is very traditional. My parents are immigrants from China. And they want me to date a Chinese guy, get married and raise a kid . And even though I think that's ridiculous, I still obeyed them all my life because hey ! They're my parents. They have problems with me even dating a different race . I won't even imagine how they'll react if I told them I'm gay . And it's not like I am not attracted to boys at all . So I'm playing safe .