How did things come to this l thought l had finally found peace joy and happiness but it all went out the window . How could I ever think that God was repaying me after all that l had been through the pain the night club the rape the slaps the insults straving and watching a good friend l had learned to love dying to save me.
I thought it all ended until I found out that all the pains l suffered came from the one l loved and trusted most what should l do forget it all run away or kill myself .
But it's all pointless because he will will still find me no matter where l go to . What did l do to deserve this .
I fall to my knees and she'd every year within my system until l feel a headache . My life was all planned all the lies my kids what should I do .
Past
I love you Charles so much don't ever forget that ok . I hug him so tight not wanting to let go if it wasn't for you l would be dead you because I tried to kill myself so many times but you were there in my hardest times .
I hear him sniff and l know in my heart his crying so l get off from his chest . When he sees me turn to look at him he looks away .
Hi why are you crying about l touch his face to make him look at him he pulls me and hugs me so tight that l think l might pass out .
Charles you wanna kill me your holding me so tight you know. He lets go abit and every time l tell him l love him he just cries and does not say it back.
Present
Those days l always thought he was overwhelmed by so many emotions and that he loved me so much but no it was his guilt taking over him he knew all the pain l went through was because of him and he lied to me every time he made up my life l was leaving in his planned world l thought the heavens had shown me mercy but no the same person who hurt me most was the one writing my fate but no l refuse to surrender to fate l refuse to be a puppet of my enemy l will not let him hurt me anymore l have to hurt him back just as he did to me .
Are you sure you won't regret it liv . I hear Warren ask me after you guys have had a history together you know what l mean you even have kids together what about them are you going to hurt them too.
Well l walk closer to Warren with a dead look in my eyes . Why shouldn't I didn't he do the same am just paying him back for what he did to me
You think he has a right to do what he did to me l just can't believe that he had no conscious after what he did to me coming into my life and pretending to like me and help me and yet my life was all a mess because of him . I sit on the floor feeling really dizzy and the fact that l over cried l feel choked by my tears .
Why didn't it have to be some one else.
What you think you are special just because Charles married you hmm . So you are the one who kidnapped me l know you never got over your break up but girl move on .
Listen live you always wanted to know why Charles prevents you from meeting me what you think because am jealous if you no honey it's because he's đ lying to you all along .
What do you mean Trisha l know your lying. She moves very close to my fave and holds my chin very hard that l feel my muscles almost breaking . Turns my face side ways and then leans forward that l feel her breath on my face and then she says
Don't be pathetic you don't even compare to my dog . That doesn't hurt me because l have heard worse now let's go over where all this started if you think your husband is the best in the world
She throws pictures at me from the time my parents died to the time l married him all potraying a story that Charles knew me before all this am just so confused to the accident l heard recently three years back but how is any of this related to him .
What do these pics means . I ask Trisha then swallow the lump in my throat why do I feel l won't like where all this is going . Why do l feel that this is gonna be the end of our happy life .
I come out of the room feeling weak in the knees that where l found out all the story of my life it's like l was a character in some one 's movie and all l did was to play the role according to someone's play l was a fool l should have know everything was to good to be true
In the middle of my sorrow l see Warren walking up to me this time l don't overact and ask why he's here or how he found me . The question that comes out of my mouth is that
You knew all along didn't you or were you also part of it all . I just feel so betrayed but then l remember him telling me to stay away and refused so that was it .He knew everyone knew apart from me .
So everyone has been using me from the beginning to the end but why what did l do to deserve this . Who did l wrong . I force myself to stand up walk past Warren because l know it has come to an end all the truth l seeked is now right in my face