"I can't...." i mumbled, "I can't..." I repeated myself, I shook my head saying it again.
"I can't do this to you..." I whisper, my voice cracking as I looked at him, "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to ruin it...."
"Wh-why? Jungkookie I thought you- I thought you loved me!" Jimin got onto the floor with me and held my arms as I tried to get away from him. I'd like to revoke my previous statement about being stronger then him, right now I'm useless.
"I do.... I love you so much but i- I really can't...." I held onto the side of his shirt, my eyes wouldn't stop making more and more tears.
"Why not... why can't you- what did I do?..." Jimin's eyes started watering along with mine, I didnt even answer him. I just had my head fall onto his shoulder burying my face there sobbing and gripping his waist tightly.
"I'm so sorry...." I look back up at him, "It's okey... i-i understand, you can be with him... I won't try to stop you because he is a really, really good person and I know he wouldn't hurt you.."
"No! No no no, I'm not in love with Taehyung, we were just having sex- you thought we were dating behind your back?!" Jimin seemed confused at first but then started to understand, I look up at him, sniffling, "You're not in love with him?... I didn't ruin your relationship?.." I ask.
He shakes his head no, "We were both lonely, and deprived so we started having sex, that doesn't mean I love him. And he doesn't love me in that way either, it's completely physical."
"B-but...you didnt love me.... why now?" I ask, instinctively pulling him closer to my body by his waist, Jimin gave me a warm smile. "I didn't understand my feelings, if I'm being honest I still don't, but I know that I love you. More then anything," Jimin wrapped his arms around me, gently kissing my cheek, "you didn't ruin anything...."
I let out a small sigh of relief, hugging him back and taking in his scent, "H-he didn't m-mark you... right?" I ask, my face buried in his shoulder once again.
I felt Jimin shake his head no, "I never let him.." his words just made me want to hold him tighter, I'm so relieved. I've always wanted to be the first person to mark my baby, and now I might have the chance.
I very slowly looked up again, my eyes are still teary as I stared into his beautiful brown eyes. Without saying anything I kissed him softly, his lips feel so good on mine. It feels right.
(Jimin's POV)
(During the fight)
"Jungkook stop! Stop it!" I beg, if he keeps this up he'll seriously injure Taehyungie, "I wanted him to do it!!" I yell at him, scared to get too close since he already attacked seokjinie.
He seemed to have freezed, he didn't move at all. Eventually he fell to his knees, hugging Taehyung's waist tightly which shocked everyone.
"Why did you choose him?.... what does he have that I don't?... what the fuck is wrong with me?..." Jungkookie mumbled, it pained my heart to see him like this, but why was he clinging onto Taehyungie?
He buried his face into taehyungie's stomach and started sobbing, I didn't even know what to do anymore.
Taehyung very softly started hugging Jungkook back while he cried, Namjoonie, seokjinie and Yoongi said that they should probably leave so they went to find the first aid kit.
Once they left I very gently put my hand on Jungkooks shoulder, but the moment my skin touched his he turned to me, "I wish you were dead." He glared at me, then got up and straight up ran away.
I let out a soft sob, "This is why- THIS IS EXACTLY WHY WE NEVER SHOULDVE EVEN KISSED ON THAT DAMNED NIGHT!!!" I yell at Taehyung, "I FUCKING HATE YOU, YOU KNOW THAT?!??!? ITS ALL YOUR FAULT WHY- JUST TELL ME WHY YOU FELT THE NEED TO HURT HIM THIS BADLY?!!???" I keep screaming and screaming until he grabbed me and held me tightly to try and calm me down but I just started hitting him to get him away from me, continuing to yell at him.
"ITS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT!!! WHY CANT YOU JUST JUMP OFF A FUCKING CLIFF?!?! YOURE FUCKING USELESS!!!!" I yell at him, then realized I'm doing the same thing Jungkook did to me....
"Shhhh-its okey... he didnt mean it..."
"He did..." I start sobbing into taehyungie's chest, "He did mean it Taehyung.... I ruined everything..." I cried, I ruined everything.... "Why do I keep hurting him like this?... did I push it too far with this?..."
I eventually I calmed down, I helped Taehyungie clean himself up and treat the wounds Jungkookie caused then locked myself in a random room. Taehyungie of course had to barge in and remove everything I could use to hurt myself, I honestly don't even know why he still think I'd do that anymore.
A about half an hour went by and I was trying to sleep, but just before I was about to fall asleep I heard a loud banging on the door.
"Jimin, Jimin let me in! Please I need to talk to you." I could hear Jungkooks voice from behind the door, I wasn't ready to talk to him yet so I kept quiet hoping he'd leave, "Jimin!" He yelled, I flinched but kept my voice down, but couldn't manage not to yelp in surprise when he suddenly yelled loudly, "JIMIN OPEN THE DAMN DOOR."
I reluctantly got up and walked over to the door, slowly unlocking it and opening it with trembling hands.
He for some reason thought I was **in love** with taehyungie? I've never been in love with him, sure I was confused about my feelings but that was towards Jungkook. Not Taehyungie, why would he even think that?
After some explaining Jungkookie finally understood, and he let me kiss him again. It felt amazing, absolutely amazing but.... there was something missing...
"Hyung I love you so much...." Jungkookie broke the kiss momentarily to whisper those words... those damned words that made my heart ache.
I couldn't manage to say it back, I just couldn't. It was too much for me at that moment.
(Jungkooks POV)
"Hyung I love you so much...." I whispered Jimin, then immediately kissed him again, not even giving him the chance to speak. I was so happy, I couldn't even feel my body. I was numb. I was out of my mind.
I gripped onto Jimin's waist harder, refusing to let him go. We where both still sitting on the floor, literally just making out.
I wish I could've done this sooner, it feels so fucking good to finally have him in my arms like this. Without any thought in my mind I grabbed his throat squeezing slightly as I pushed him onto his back and onto the cold wooden floors.
I heard an adorable little moan escape my babies throat as I continued making out with him, my left hand groping his beautiful body and my right still gripping at his throat.
I slowly went down to his face and onto his neck, kissing and biting at his skin as if I was about to devour his body into peaces. **I was desperate**
"P-please hyung, I love you so much." I said in a begging voice, I don't expect him to say it back, but I literally couldn't stand hearing his silence. Every so often I could hear him gasp and whimper but he kept his voice low.
I've had enough at some point, I moved my hand that was holding his throat up and grabbed his jaw forcing it open, no longer allowing him to hide his voice while I bit at the skin above his Addams apple.
Jimin moaned finally, his voice is angelic, the most beautiful thing I've ever heard in my life and probably my past life and all the life's I've ever lived. **It was addicting**
But there was something to it, so beautiful yet... almost- it almost sounded sad...
I look up at his face, that exact face that I fell in love with. That face was making the most unholy expressions, I had to have it. I -somewhat- slowly dragged my tongue up his neck and to his jaw. Once I reached his mouth and roughly pressed my lips against his.
My voice involuntary growling at the sweet taste of his swollen pink lips, i buried my tongue into his mouth, our salivas mixing at every momvement. My mouth probably tasted like blood from earlier, but I really couldn't care less. I have my baby in my arms. I have him all to myself. Why would something as futile as a little blood stop me?
I removed my hand from his jaw, replacing it down by his waist to hoist him up into my arms and onto my lap, his legs wrapping around my hips as my hands gripped onto his thighs.
I groaned loudly as he bit onto my lower lip, I opened my eyes briefly then closed them again. But opened them immediately as I saw the beautiful sight.
My baby
He's so close to me
And he's mine now
I stared at him while still kissing him, the thought that I'm the only one that can have his beautiful face so close, it excited me so fucking much.
My brows furrowed as I got more desperate for him, the feeling of Jimin's tiny hands gripping onto my hair and pulling at them with every little move he made turned me on so much more.
"You're fucking amazing, Jimin."