One thing he knew was that this heartbreak wouldn't go away but neither was his feelings for Serenity. He still felt the need to get closer to her even though he knew that there was no more hope for him.
Maybe he was a masochist but it was his first and he didn't really have any idea on what love and heartbreaks are or how one should handle them. It gave him a headache for days before he finally could get an answer.
So, Malkiel with all of his power decided to ignore both feelings and live at the moment to focus on his music.
"Okay, that's a wrap"
"Oohh Malkiel didn't do any improvisation today"
"Well, he better not do it at the gig tomorrow"
Malkiel laughed it off and gazed at Serenity. She was now jotting down at the music sheet that she had.