Now I wouldn't lie looking at Griffith shirtless and kneeling on the floor ready for me to take him awakened something in me. I mean I loved sex and since Griffith was actually my type of guy... a small part of me entertained the thought. Kara was said to be rough and liked pulling the hair of her husbands and grabbing them by the neck. I was tempted to do so myself right now. How it would feel to pull back those long golden locks of his and look into those deep blue eyes of his. I typically preferred men with dark hair but Griffith was hot regardless.
However, even though I liked sex, intimacy was always best if it was consensual, and Griffith obviously hated me. So I would just have to hold myself back. That and I had to figure out how I could get him on my side so we could work together. Seeing the hatred in his eyes that he had for Kara I knew that wasn't going to be easy.
"I'm not feeling well, my neck is still in pain so you're dismissed for the night," I simply answered him.
He looked at me quietly for a second before a quick flash of relief appeared in his eyes but just as quickly went back to that neutral expression he tried to keep.
I could tell he was keeping in all his pain. He tried to appear neutral and indifferent but deep down he was holding in the pain and anger he truly felt. It touched me to see him like that. It was unfortunate he had to suffer like this.
And to think I had entertained the thought of sleeping with him. I should be ashamed of myself.
However, despite the look of relief, there was a look of confusion that then appeared on his face. I wondered why.
Was he confused as to why I was letting him off for the night or it was something else? For some reason, I found it interesting.
"Very well Your Highness," he said lifting up his discarded shirt from the floor and standing up. "Good night," He said politely before turning around and exiting the room.
He was so polite I thought to myself as I watched him leave. I know he didn't have a choice but still, it took a lot to appear this calm and polite when you were internally fuming.
Once he was gone I let out a sigh then went to my bed and got into the sheets.
I looked up at the ceiling for a moment as I began to contemplate. What an eventful day this had been. I had survived my first full day here in this world. Would I survive the next day? It was crazy what was happening to me. I still couldn't believe this was my new reality.
I closed my eyes and slowly tried to find sleep.
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I heard someone sobbing beside me. It sounded like a woman's sobs. Concerned I tried to open my eyes to see what was happening but struggled to. I tried to move my arms and legs but they refused to respond. That's when I started to panic. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't wake myself up. It felt like I was experiencing sleep paralysis.
"Courtney...I'm sorry..." I heard the person say. Their voice sounded familiar. It took a moment for me to recognize it but it was...my mother's voice. She was saying other things to me as well but I couldn't hear properly. I felt her squeeze my hand as she continued to speak.
I tried to squeeze her hand back but couldn't do so. I wanted to comfort her and let her know everything was going to be alright. Hearing her sobs only distressed me more. I wanted to know why she was crying. I fought with every fiber in my being to wake up but my body continued to refuse to respond.
My mother seemed so close but so far away. Ultimately there was nothing I could do to help her in her distress. What's worse, the nightmare didn't seem to end. The sobbing just seemed to go on and on and I just continued to struggle to wake up.
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I woke up in tears the following morning. Instead of waking up to my mother I sadly found myself alone in the grande palace bedroom letting me know I was still in this nightmare story world.
Then I began to think of my family from my world. What had happened after my accident? I could only imagine the devastation and horror they must have felt after hearing what happened to me.
There were four members of my family. My father, mother, and younger brother (by 5 years). They were such a loving and kind family and we had such a close relationship. I was in regular contact with them but it had been nearly a month since I last saw them. Unfortunately, I didn't live in the same city as them. I moved away to another city to work so I didn't get to see them as much. I was super close with my mother she was like my best friend. I called her nearly every day. The thought that I would never see my family again hit hard. I began to cry even more.
I didn't even properly get to say goodbye to them. I didn't want to be in this world I really didn't want to be in this world.
I got up from the bed and went to look at myself in the mirror. My dark curly hair, brown feline-shaped eyes, tan skin, and high cheekbones. Was this who I was now? I thought to myself. Kara was beautiful. She had a fit, slim frame, and lovely curves to compliment her body. My lips curled into a frown and tears continued to stream down my cheeks as I couldn't accept the fact that I was no longer Courtney.
Later in the morning, servants entered my room to get me ready. Once I was washed and dressed one of the servants turned to me.
"Your Highness, you will be having breakfast with His Majesty in the gardens," the servant informed me.
"Very well," I replied, I then looked at Lucy and remembered everything she'd told me the day before about how I typically acted hopefully what I knew would be enough.