Lonliness is a sickness and I hate every feeling I feel. Alone again after years of having lots of people who love me stayed beside me. But now,the feeling seems to be neutral,
It seems we almost spent half of the day discussing about Alison and that train accident . How can one accident affect a person's life so much this way? It's not that the person was the one who planned everything,or was behind the killing,no but the person never knew she was the main victim until everyone on the train was dead and she was the only one left with lots of people on mask. Worst of all,she was fooled thinking that her best friend sits by her through out the trip. She didn't know he was dead even before the trip started.
Oh ! Loneliness is really a sickness.
I was laying on my bed after the long discussion with the man on mask. What ever we discussed there is something I don't doubt again but something tells me that I won't like to hear the remaining truth.
All this long I couldn't walk, Alison was behind it,he knew I was getting better as time goes on but he turned against me, why?
I just didn't take the drug for a day and I can walk?
If I knew this early,I would have save olivia From dying but I don't , what has been done has been done it can't be reversed all I can do now is to release my self from all this,move on with my life, maybe find true love like mom always wanted and then have my own kids.
Life is too short to waste it on things that's doesn't matter. Alison had his life it's time I have mine.
I remember when he found me at the desert,when I was broken and ready to die. It would have been better for him to leave me there to die than for him to pretend,fake those emotions and put me in this mess.
But have you ever bothered why all this is happening to me?
Not that I'm hiding a treasure or I store lots of money in a hidden place,or I killed someone but everyone was after my life,after my success, killing everyone I love, keeping me in one place and trying to render me hopeless and helpless so that I can be tortured. Lots of people has been killed because of me, why don't they come after me and stop going through people to get to me. What ever is the case of all this nonsense,it must stop.
Just yesterday the feeling of happiness to see my daughter got ruined,she got kill...kill.....kill...ed killed ... ? wait something is wrong, something is not right at all.
Think about this,if olivia was killed, strangled to death or anything,there should be evidence, marks that shows what happened, but her body was just ....oh! how foolish was for me to think she was alive when her body was white and cold.
I put my hands in my eyes as tears rushes down,it's that accident that I regretted,that shows that I wasn't been a protective mom,I didn't train my child. It's one painful experience of losing my daughter because she said the truth.
This same truth that has been hidden from me was used against my daughter. This truth that wasn't the truth at all. What ever the truth was,I will make sure I'm not only affected by it but everyone will get affected too.