Chapter 864 - Chapter 128 The Terror Beyond Death

"At the beginning, my first reaction was to seal them away and not touch them anymore," Philarx sighed, "but those weren't mechanisms or matter; they were knowledge, deeply entrenched in my mind, not something you can simply set aside if you wish. I could control myself not to use them, but every minute, every second, even in my dreams, my mind was filled with these knowns and unknowns. New thoughts would emerge from my mind every day. You can't imagine the pain of giving up on a subject as a Mage scholar, especially one that has already overcome the most critical barrier and is on the cusp of the final breakthrough, all because of various reasons. It is the most terrible torment that originates from the depths of the soul."