In order to survive, she even did things that trampled on her own dignity. When people reach their most desperate moments, they learn what they're truly capable of doing—at that time, she understood.
It really was a complete loss of dignity.
"You might not know what kind of person I am," she said, closing her eyes and smiling faintly. "I might seem to have no self-respect, but deep down, I'm actually extremely proud. Doing such a despicable thing, I truly felt that death would have been better."
"But still, I clung to life." She opened her eyes and looked at Lyric Willow, "Living is always better than dying, isn't it?"
"…But this time, you did try to kill yourself," Lyric Willow gazed at her directly. "Like you said, living is always better than dying, right?"
"…" Amanda Smith gave a faint smile, her gaze dropping to her wrists wrapped in gauze as she spoke softly, "I could endure it once, but I couldn't bear it a second time."
