"Ok. So once Brad was done with his pathetic show of fucking Jessica, he banished me from the pack. Of course, no one objected. In fact, some cheered and said they were tired of me not contributing. I flipped everyone off, told them all 'Fuck You' and I became a rogue. I drifted from town to town, never really staying in one place for long, never making friends or getting close to anyone. I knew I was just too different and that I would never be accepted by any pack. It's been five years since then and I was just tired of always moving, never settling down. I just wanted a home for once. I found Silver Falls and I was only supposed to be passing through, but I fell in love with the town. I rented an apartment with what little money I had and found a job with the catering company.
I knew the town was owned by shifters, and I had heard all about you guys from my old Alpha. He told us about how ruthless and cold hearted you were and how if we were ever caught on your lands we'd be killed, no questions asked. All because we were Dark Moon. Silver Moon, and specifically you three, became our boogie man. But I desperately wanted to stay in the town, and I knew that if I tried to ask permission to live here, I'd be killed instead. So, I hid who I was, tried to hide what I was. I found some herbs that would help mask my shifter scent. Since I didn't have a wolf, I didn't have to worry about shifting unexpectedly. For once my curse turned into a blessing. And I almost managed it. I don't think you would have ever found out about me if we hadn't had a girl go home tonight. It meant we needed another person on the floor to be a server. Unfortunately, it bought me into view."
I closed my eyes for a minute and just breathed. With a small sigh and a resigned look, I gazed at them with empty eyes. I knew what was coming and I knew there was no way I was escaping it.
"I've loved being here and your town is so magical, so peaceful to live in. You've really made something special here. All of you turned out to be so different from what I'd been told. You're warm and protective of the people in your territory, even if they are just humans. And you have a kindness in each of you and people are so happy living here. I want to thank you for everything you've given me tonight. From the bandages to the food, even though the bandages will ultimately go to waste."
I looked at Deacon.
"And I want to thank you for giving me my first kiss. It's something I'll treasure for the rest of my life, even though I know that's not going to be much longer."
I gave a small sad smile at the shocked looks on all their faces.
"Yeah… when you're the pack outcast, no one wants to touch you or be your first anything unless it's first in line to hurt you. Unless it's to rape you. And once I was on my own, I spent too much time trying to avoid other shifters and moving around, that I didn't get to know anyone well enough to get up to anything.
I know my time is up. All my life I've known I was on borrowed time and honestly, I got more time than I thought I would have. I wish I could've known love in my life, but I guess it's not meant to be for someone like me. Love is for someone that can give something back in return. There's something about me that makes me just… unlovable."
I shook my head and closed my eyes again.
"I know the penalty for trespassing is death. It's that way in every pack I've been to. You've been so kind to me tonight and I hope that I can ask for a favor. Can you make my death quick and painless? Please? I've had enough pain to last several lifetimes. I just want to feel at peace for once."
I looked at each man in turn, ending with Asher.
"I know I have no right to ask for anything since I've trespassed on your lands. But please grant me this, Alpha. Please."
I knew it was a long shot. But I'd laid all my cards on the table, and I was all in. I was pretty sure this was something they were discussing in their bond, so all I could do was sit and wait for their decision. How much it was gonna hurt when I died all depended on this one answer.