I shouldn't be doing this and I know it's so wrong to do it but I can't stop myself from doing it. Every time I slip my hands in my panties and rub all the tiredness away from running after the kids in the school feels euphoric. It feels like a dirty deed but it feels good too.
"Zora! Are you in there?" I removed my hand from my panties and covered myself like I'm going to get caught despite knowing the door is locked. My heart started beating fast and I think I got a mini heart attack in a second.
My older sister has an odd time to call me, I have eaten my dinner and done the dishes but still, she wants something from me and disturbed a minute of heaven.
" Coming, Tara!" I yelled out frustratingly, groaning and cursing at my life for being single for 24 years old and not having a boyfriend to take care of me. It's not like I am a virgin but I hadn't felt a male's touch in a long time, since I joined primary school which took most of my time and it's already been two years.
I opened the door to my sister who is opposite to me in everything. I have blue eyes with brown hair and she has green eyes with blonde hair. She is petite and I have curves, she looks like our dad and me as my mother.
Our parents died when we were little and our grandparents raised us but now it's just me and my sister against the world. Losing everyone in the family is so sad but we can't stop the death.
" What happened, Tara?" I asked, she entered my room and sat on my bed with an anxious face. She never feels anxious as she is the coolest and calmest person I know and between us, I am the anxious and clumsy one.
" I don't know how to tell you this Zo! But please understand that I haven't said yes yet." she started babbling nervously like she had done something wrong.
" What is it, Tara? You are scaring me!" I sat beside her on the bed and turned her body towards mine taking my hands in her hands. Tears gathered in her eyes and she was holding herself back from crying.
" Justin proposed last night." A squeal left my mouth and I pounced on her, tackling her in a hug. Justin and Tara have been dating for five years and they were pretty serious in their relationship. I always envied them because they look at each other like they are their worlds and I wanted someone to look at me like that.
" I am so excited about the wedding! Did you guys pick the date?" my hands were on her shoulders and I'm shaking her with my unstoppable excitement.
" I am so sorry, Zo! I don't know….." she started crying, mumbling that she had left the restaurant without giving any answer to Justin when he proposed.
" What the hell are you talking about, Tara? You always wanted a wedding and you always knew that Justin was the one." I glared at her, she always told me how she is waiting for Justin to ask the question to marry him and how she will agree the second the question lefts his mouth but now she is telling me that she fled from him.
" Yes, I want to marry him but at the same time, I don't want to leave you alone, Zora!" I don't know what to say about this. I know we will go our separate ways and start our new lives but I never thought that it will happen soon Tara and Justin will move to another city as he got transferred recently.
" Tara!" I pulled her towards me hugging her tightly so she can understand that I'm happy she is going to get married to her sweetheart.
" I am happy for you and I am a 24-year-old woman and I can take care of myself so please don't stop because of me. I'd hate myself if you stay with me rather than marry Justin and live your dream life." We both sob softly knowing that my sister always cared for me and still is caring and she is relieved that I am happy for her because I am genuinely happy for her.
I tossed and turned the entire night with the thoughts of the things I need to do for Tara's wedding and how lonely I am going to feel once she leaves me but I need to be strong for herself and me.
I woke up at the exact time as every morning and got ready to leave for school. My dress code consists of a skirt and a blouse which looks so modest and totally opposite to my thoughts.
If someone sees me then they will never guess what kind of naughty thoughts swirl in my head and how I want to act them out with someone like me! But it's just a wishful thought. I look so innocent and goody two shoes, looks, and appearances can deceit anyone.
" Good Morning, Tara!" She has this big smile on her face that tells me she has already talked with Justin and they sorted it out.
" Seeing your shit-eating grin I assume you talked with Justin." I sat on the dining table to stuff my tummy which is grumbling so loud. I love food and I don't hesitate to stuff my mouth with food other than the things I want to stuff. There we go again thinking about the things which will make me squirm in my seat all day. I should cleanse my head with holy water.
" Talk! He came over and he proposed again and this time I said yes, Look!" She moved her hand to me which has a ring on her ring finger shining so brightly like my sister's face.
"Wow! Tara! It's so beautiful, it suits you." I took her hand in mine and admired the ring which looked so beautiful on her hand.
" Thanks, Zora!" I know she is just not thanking me for the ring but also for allowing her to get married but she doesn't have to thank me as I don't own her and she doesn't owe me anything.
" You don't have to, Tara! Now I need to move to not get late for school. Bye! See you in the evening!" I stood up from the chair, hugged her, and left our small cozy house.
When I parked my car in the parking lot of the school there is no one in the space but I know I have some time for myself to start the day when the kids start coming in.
Checking myself one last time in the mirror, I left the car and went inside the school and to my office. I need to take care of some things before I start the day. I was so involved in the papers I am sorting out that I didn't hear someone knocking on my door.
"Miss.Aldin!" My head whipped to the door hearing my name, I always get startled as I have the habit of forgetting about my surroundings when I work.
" Yes!" I called out waiting for the person to come. The assistant to the principal poked her head and gave me a warm smile which I mirrored.
" Good Morning, Miss.Aldin! How are you doing today?" she asked, sitting opposite me with some papers in her hands.
" Good Morning, Mrs. Clinton! My day hasn't started yet so I can't say how I am today." We both laughed at that as it will become so hard to handle the kids throughout the day.
" As you know we are having our school's anniversary tomorrow. I came to give you your part of the job." She handed me the folder she was holding.
I opened the folder and there are the contents of the opening speech and the other things a present would do.
" Umm, Why are you giving this folder to me?" I asked, confused as to why she is giving me this.
" I am giving this to you because you are going to handle the stage tomorrow." what? I have never done this before and I am very bad at holding social events I will be a nervous wreck throughout the ceremony and mess up everything.
" I can't do this Mrs.Clinton! I am not very good at handling this. I am sure someone else will happily accept this job but me, I can't, sorry!" I pushed the folder towards her but she has the same stubborn smile on her face like she is going to make me do this by hook or crook.
" It's the direct order from the principal Miss. Aldin! I hope you consider this and Mr.Blackwood is going to be there too so we don't want to disappoint him as he is our biggest donor." I tuned out most of her words due to the nerves dancing in my body and the thoughts running in my head as to how I will be a laughing stock with my nervousness.
" You know Mr.Blackwood right?" She asked, gaining my attention I gave her a small smile nodding my head.
Who doesn't know Mr.Blackwood, he is the richest man and the biggest donor to our school. Mr.Hardin Blackwood is the billionaire bachelor and he donates and provides everything to our school but I have never seen him and know nothing about him other than his name and what he does for our school.
" Yes, Mrs.Clinton! I know Mr.Blackwood." she clapped her hands as I answered in the quiz.
" Okay, then please research him some more so we don't embarrass ourselves when you talk about his achievement and all before we call him onto the stage." I nodded my head with a tight-lipped smile and she left my office.
Wow! I don't know how to feel about this opportunity, I feel so grateful to get this minus my sarcasm. I should start looking at Mr.Blackwood before I have to get to the class.
I hurriedly typed his name and many images filled my screen. A gasp left my mouth and I clenched my thighs together with the throb between them, even from the images he is having the power to arouse me.
His gray eyes bore into my soul through my laptop screen like he wants to unravel me. I have never seen someone so beautiful and innocent at the same time regal and powerful. I am getting turned on just by his pictures, how am I going to handle him being in person in front of everyone?
He feels like a forbidden fruit, I can look at him but I can't have him. No one ever had the power to turn me on like he is doing right now and I know he is capable
of doing everything and more. I need to be as far as from him to not embarrass myself.