"Since, at this point, the matter has become irretrievable, why not choose to let myself go?"
This was a difficult-to-describe, intense emotion.
The Alchemist suddenly, at this moment, faced with what he saw, became utterly despondent.
However, while harboring such thoughts, he was also clearly aware that he could not let Violet know he was considering this.
Thus, when facing what was before his eyes, he felt profoundly distressed.
Then, what would be an appropriate way to think about the problem, a way to prepare?
The Alchemist, it was as if he was hesitating within his heart, pondering deeply.
When faced with such a situation, he was likely about to reach a very specific conclusion.
Yet at this moment, he seemed to have developed a slight fear of the situation, which he shouldn't have.
Having such thoughts was not at all impulsive.
