SEX DREAMS
7
'I am so fucked I whispered while shutting my ears with the base of my palm.' Antonio ,what was I to tell him. Regardless we had always been good at communicating so without having a story I called him hoping he would listen. The phone went straight to voice mail. I didn't want to leave a voice mail. I needed to talk to him directly. But then the home line rang snapping me out of my depression that built up every micro second. Hurriedly I rushed out and held the line after two deep breaths. "Hello , Am I talking to Estrella ". A man's voice inquired . It wasnt a voice I had heard before ,so I figured it was one of dad's friends.
They usually called to tell me his location where he had passed out which was allover the streets of Milan. But this time it was different. "Estrella ,your father has been taken by a black van and they told me to call you , he owes them 150 000 dollars in debt money. "As he said this a sharp ring developed in my head , sooner or kater i expectedthis to happen . Yet i was still awe filled. Yes he was now an addict with one or five addictions :betting ,alcohol and God knows what other shenanigans he involed himself in." The have said they'll call you after two weeks for the drop off location of the money in exchange for your father and if you don't have it then he will be killed." All these words were sinking in. Why did this have to he me. "Estrella are you there ," the man inquired . "Yes sir," I answered wiping my face with my palm and grabbing my mouth with it. "These kind of people are dangerous if you dont do what they say. You will be killed too".
"Sir who are you ,can I please know your name atleast," I made a desperate plea but by the time I did be had hangup the line. "No fuck no", tears were streaming down my face what was I to do. I didn't have 150000 dollars laying around God knows my life wasn't even worth that much. I grabbed a bottle of four cousins that was left over from the past night by my dad . It was still half way full though. Hoping I would find my saving at the bottom of the cheap tasting bottle. Yet by the time I reached the bottom it was dry. I stumbled over the stairs finding support on rails and tripping a few too many times. That night I didn't want to sleep in my bed . I missed my father , he hadn't always been like this . And fuck I couldn't judge him why had he ignored my existence after the death of mum. He used to drive me to school ,take me to malls for shopping but since then. I had to be my own grownup. And now I had to be his too. The irony of when we get old we become kids again ,here I was about to clean up my father's mess . I didn't know how but all I knew is I couldn't let my first true love die. I woke up with a splitting headache in my father's bed. It felt like someone had got a sea saw and was drilling it rhythmically into my head. My eyes hurt too. God how did anyone willingly put themselves into such agony on their own will every morning. I grabbed my dad's pair of black glasses from the dressing table and threw them on .
I made my way down stairs which was like free diving from a 10 floor flat into a frozen swimming pool . I drugged my heavy feet to the kitchen to make myself a cup of hot coffee . It always seemed to help dad. Wait was I becoming my father. No way. I couldn't let myself slip. The mere thought fueled my spirit to go take a shower and go to work atleast I would think better there. Before I could go up stairs I heard a knock ,first I ignored it figuring since I was seeing things I could have much made that up in my head ,but then I heard another one. Hurriedly I sprung from where I was with my hair looking like I was an electrocuted anime character . I had black or neveablue eye bugs . My hands shook alittle from the hangover making my grip unstable. I didn't know who it was but I was anticipating my father had gotten a way out. When the door swung right open ,I was relieved .
It was Isabella finally someone I could talk to. "Hey you have no idea how glad I am to see you." I said with a welcoming smile. She wasn't her usual self though . She only gave me a death stare . I came in for a hug but she remained still, her hands folded on her chest. Then I saw him ,Antonio was right there beside her . Now it made sense he uad told her about Stephan . "Izzy I can explain ,I didn't mean to . " I tried to pursued her to listen. "So something happened, Estrella I trusted you poor self and your drunk of a further ," there she was the Isabella I knew .This part of her came out when she didn't get what she wanted. I had seen it before when Stephan had canceled their engagement. She had said something about her being the only girl that deserved her and the rest of us looked like beggars.
Yes her direct words ,"I am the most beautiful girl and Stephan's love belongs to me .Not the rest of you who look like beggars." I had ignored it then but just because she was rich doesn't mean she could clean me up with shit. "OK then leave this beggar's front porch and go," I was trying not to say anything I will regret. It was stupid fighting over a man anyway , yet for some reason if we fought for Stephan I didn't want to lose the fight. So just when I felt like my morning could not go anyworse it had gone every witch way. "You ungrateful piece of trash," Isabella concluded spitting infront of my face. Through the corner of my goggles I saw Antonio in shock whatever he thought was to happen when he told Isabella he found Stephan coming from my house with a hickey on my neck wasn't what was happening.
The she turned God she was soo beautiful but then I had had enough of people who considered me charity. After taking about 3 steps away she called Antonio to come. And yes he left with her. She even grabbed his ass as he entered the car and then gave me the sluttiest look. She wanted to bang him for revenge , "yeah your loss ,his not even good in bed." He had always been too gentle for my taste. But yesterday when I got a taste of Stephan I could not get enough.