The first thing I see when I open my eyes is an empty white chair. The first thing
I hear a steady beeping sound, I can't feel anything and I can't smell anything. I feel like I should be worried but I'm not. everything is calm wait no calm isn't the right word more like numb. I try to sit up to get a better view of the room but a hand gently pushes me back down.
"You shouldn't get up yet," a voice said from somewhere in the room. I should have been surprised or scared but I just felt numb. "Where am I? And who are you?" I ask the shadow, not even a little scared that it could hurt me at any moment. "I'm doctor heart," the shadow says, stepping out into the dim light so I can see her better. She had jet black hair, and light brown eyes and looked like she was very tired "You are at the red asylum, do you remember anything about what happened Ava?" Red asylum? The hospital for crazy people? why would ever be in a place for crazy people, I'm not crazy, am I? "What are you talking about?" she stares at me for a while then moves to sit down in the white chair next to me "You don't know why you're here do you?"
I give her a confused look because I don't know why I'm here, I don't know why I can't remember things, it's like someone reached into my mind and took parts of memories, I don't know why I can't feel my emotions like there is a wall blocking me from getting to them, I don't know anything. "No," I say looking down at my hands "What's the last thing you remember Ava?" the doctor 's heart asked, leaning back in the chair.
An image flashes through my mind of a house that was torn down and I was standing next to someone I can't see their face. It's all very blurry. I opened my mouth to answer the doctor's question but something in my mind was screaming at me not to trust her so I told her the last clear thing I remember was "I remember my mom." miss heart wrote something down.
"What was she doing in this memory," she asked not looking up from her paper
"cooking dinner?" I said it sounded more like a question though
"do you remember what you were eating that night,"
"Why is it important?"
"every detail of what you remember is important I'm just trying to help you ava"
I don't know if she's trying to help me or not. My gut is telling me I shouldn't trust her but she looks like she wants to help me "Where is my mom?" I said finally realizing that I hadn't thought about my family at all up until this point "She's at home we will let her know that you're awake as soon as you answer my questions" "Why am I here, I'm not crazy I shouldn't be here" I said finally asking the question that's been bugging me since she told me I was in a mental hospital.
The doctor's heart stares at me for a moment. "I can't tell you that until you answer my questions Ava'' now it was my turn to stare at her. What the hell was going on? Why can't I feel anything, why can't I remember anything? This is all so confusing. I must have been quiet too long because after a while she calls my name "Ava?"
I turned my head back to the room, not looking at her "Yes" I said "Are you alright?" she asked her voice turning into what sounded like concern "If you are tired you can answer my questions another time" I wasn't even a little bit tired but i wanted to be alone and think and she wasn't going to answer my questions anyway "i think i do need to rest a little bit more" I said, doctor heart started to get up from the chair and walk to the door "ok I'll come back tomorrow then to see if you feel any better….goodnight ava" i sit there listing for a while just to make sure she's gone before I sit back up, I was trying to stand up when I saw it a shadow with black eyes staring at me and for the first time since I woke up, I felt fear run through my body, but instead of screaming or calling for help, I rub my eyes to make sure I wasn't seeing things, and sure enough I wasn't
It was a shadow with eyes so sad, worried, and familiar like I'd seen them somewhere before they felt like a distant memory that was just out of arm's reach.
I stood there for what felt like forever before I said something "Are you real?" I cussed myself out mentally, of course it's not real I mean it can't be no way there is a dark figure just standing in my room. I have to take in the fact that I am in a mental hospital for crazy people.
The strange creature doesn't say anything, it just keeps staring at me with a blank expression and a faraway look in its eyes, I wondered what the creature was thinking about. As time passed The fear that I originally felt is gone and I'm back to feeling numb and so I do the most stupid thing in my life and take a step towards it hoping to cling on to that feeling of fear again.
The faraway look starts to fade from its eyes as it starts to track my movement. When it doesn't do anything I take two more steps. I move closer to it until I can see it better and the creature never takes its eyes off me.
It looked like a tall boy with beautiful blazing black eyes and jet black hair in the moonlight, if it wasn't for the black eyes it would have been easy to mistake for a human. It was only when I took another step closer that I noticed the wings that came from out of his back, they were big with a mixture of black and gray feathers. I stared wide eyes at the creature, I wondered what would happen if I touched it, maybe that would prove that it was real. This is stupid of course this isn't real it's just my imagination. I mean i am in a crazy house with no memory of how i got here but as stupid as it was i still wanted to touch it…something in me was just screaming to touch it.
After several minutes of thinking about it, I finally decided to move towards the creature until we're inches apart. I started to reach my hand up to its face then hesitated thinking again whether or not i should do this but this could also be a hallucination and none of this is actually real just as that thought popped into my head the creature started to fade into clouds.