O Madhusudhana!
What do I do?
I'm stuck inside this empty vessel
Surrounded by desires and troubles
These are causing me great hassle
These are causing me to think only about them
But I want You to be my world!
When will I stop focusing on them?
When will I think about You all the time?
Please kill these demons from my heart
That torture me through evil designs.
O Madhusudhana!
I feel like a helpless ant in a sea
Trying to swim my way out!
Sharks and fishes that are attacking me!
And You're the only shelter I know of!
There I seek out to You,
I tried fighting it off
But now I know only You're the killer of demons
I'm just a small spark of Your Lotus Feet!
I give up trying
I know I cannot defeat them
But You can, maybe You want me to take shelter of You
Maybe that's why You're still watching!
But now I don't know what to do
For everything I tried,
Such demons make my mind disturbed
But it is me who invited them,
It is me who made them wild!
For I have take shelter of Your lotus Feet!
I wish I could really do this though,
I simply say these words,
I never work in practicals.
O Madhusudhana!
I seek out to You!
For I don't know how to do it,
For I cannot even breath without taking Your help;
How can I overcome these demons inside me?
Maybe I'm not attached to You
Maybe I'm not in love with You
Maybe I'm not even eligible to be Your servant
Maybe I only love my past and future
Maybe that's why I don't focus on You at present.