How the hell am I stuck in traffic on a weekend?. I'm pretty sure not everyone is going to the grocery store as I currently am. Shouldn't they like be in bed?.
"Hey move it!!".
A yelling behind me caught my attention followed by the continuous blaring of a horn.
Realizing I had gotten lost in thought, I looked forward to notice the cars in front of me had moved out and I was now the one creating the traffic.
"Shit!" I muttered stepping on the gas.
The grocery was not so packed and I thanked God for that. Last thing I needed was a difficult time moving around. That and the fact I don't do too well with large crowds.
I busied myself with what I needed at home. Throwing them inside the shopping basket I had picked up by the entrance.
The ringing of my phone stopped my actions as I picked it up using my shoulder to hold it up to my ear while I resumed shopping.
"Riele! Are you up for clubbing tonight?".
"Hello to you too Vanny". I rolled my eyes even though I knew she couldn't see me.
"Yeah yeah whatever" she replied and repeated her earlier question.
I could stay here and argue with her on how to begin a call or I could just accept it. Choosing the latter, because I'd only be giving myself a headache if I started an argument with her.
I was a little skeptical of her question but I couldn't hide out in my house forever reading books and getting lost in thoughts.
'of him'.
I shut my eyes tightly at the comment from my subconscious. Definitely going to be needing this outing.
"Alright" I replied.
"Okay!. We'll all meet up at the location I'm sending right now to you with the time. Bye!"
I was about to say something when I smacked right into something hard.
My phone fell down along with the basket I was holding and I made a quick move to pick it up.
A pair of hands made it down the same time mine did and I finally looked up at the something or rather someone I had ran into.
"Hi" he smiled charmingly and I stared shamelessly at his beauty and perfect dentition.
Bad bad Riele, look away now!.
The voice in my head cautioning me didn't work till I heard him clear his throat.
I quickly looked down, picking up my stuff and hoping my red hair would cover the blush I knew was making its way to my cheeks.
Well That was embarrassing.
"Here you go" He stretched out his hand to me. Looking at it I saw it was a box of sanitary pad and I suddenly wished there was a hole to throw myself in.
"Uh th…thank you". Why was this man so beautiful?. I never stuttered.
"You're welcome" , his pearly whites still on display and I wondered for a moment if his mouth didn't hurt from smiling so much.
"I'm Tyler" he stretched out a hand and I shook it nodding.
He kept looking at me expectantly and I raised a brow questioningly.
"You are?".
Oh my name!.
"I'm Riele. Bye now"
I tried stepping around him to leave but he caught a hold of my hand.
I looked at his hands and back up at him. He immediately let go apologizing.
"Sorry I uh" he scratched the back of his neck and all I could think of was CUTE.
"I just wanted to ask if you wanted to hang out sometime?" He looked nervous now and I felt better that he did. Gone were minutes ago when I was the nervous one.
"It's just that I have been watching you since you came into the mall and I just felt I should uh…."
He paused probably not knowing the words to use. Enjoying this whole exchange way too much I encouraged with a nod of my head for him to continue.
"I was wondering if we could just sit at some place and you tell me a little about_____"
"About myself?" I interrupted before he could complete that statement cause damn I freaking hated that line. He looked taken aback by my sharp tone.
That statement of his was all it took to snap me back to my senses.
What was I doing in the first place standing here and talking to him like I was interested in what he wanted to serve?
"Look, I wouldn't want someone wasting my time so I'll do the same for you". I released a breath and continued. This is something I always do, so it shouldn't be that hard but with Tyler I actually felt some kind of guilt ?. He seemed like a nice guy
'don't they all?'.
Agreeing with my subconscious I faced the matter at hand.
"We both know where this conversation is headed and I might sound rude but truth is I don't have time for all this and I'm really sorry but I have to leave" he looked hurt after my statement but I really didn't give a fuck about it .
"Wow" he seemed confused. "I didn't mean to upset you, I just wanted to get to know you but...." I didn't let him finish his statement before holding up a hand to silence him.
"I really don't wanna know" I left him there looking completely dumbfounded
I know it might seem like I got some personality disorder right now. One minute I'm gawking at his pretty face and the next I'm being a bitch. Don't get me wrong he's cute and all but I don't need things like that in my life right now. Couldn't he have just helped pick up my groceries and leave?. I wasn't Interested in whatever he was offering. I was never going to allow myself to fall for that shit. Never again.
I made my way to the counter and paid for the stuff I bought leaving the mall in a rush.
Thoughts of the past had begun to flood my head and I couldn't help but wonder if it would ever stop. It was becoming too much and I never liked the way it made me feel.
I hit the accelerator picking up an unusual speed that I knew could be dangerous if I didn't control it well.
It was just who I was. Once I feel a little panick or my anxiety kicks in, my sense of reasoning just tends to fly out the window.
Now more than ever I was glad to be going to the club tonight. I needed to clear my head and rid my thoughts of HIM. Well as much thoughts as I could clear.