ROXIE
I watched as Lex walked away from me.
Bex was panting hard in my head after he made me come in my pants. I was shocked at how good he was. I have to admit; my insides were having a feel day when his hands were on me.
I knew this was going to be complicated.
I know what I suggested to him would make him question everything, but I needed to do it.
I needed to prove myself, and after everything that happened on the training grounds, I needed it more than ever.
I needed him to know what I was capable of; that's why I suggested that he could take me on a date if he won. I knew it would get his attention, as he would never have turned down a challenge. But I also knew it would never have happened if it was in front of other people, so I suggested my place.
If we had done it on the training grounds, everyone would have changed their plans, and knowing the people who had caused the whole situation in the first place; I needed it to be a fair sparring fight.
I knew the trainer had it in for me when Naomi whispered whatever it was to him. And not forgetting what that blonde bimbo was doing. I didn't know if he enjoyed it, but I knew I needed to find out for myself.
"He didn't enjoy it," says Bex, as Alexander was now out of our sight. "He wanted to get close to us; I could sense his wolf."
I didn't say anything to her.
She looks at me and sighs. "I know why you are truly doing this," she says. "It's because of what happened when you were in school, with all those girls that tormented you and caused harm," she says.
I couldn't help but growl, which stopped her from talking. Her eyes went wide, "Did you just growl at me?" she asked.
I sighed and started to walk away; I needed to get home.
"Rox, everything is not meant to be a challenge, not with mate," she says as she looks through my eyes. I didn't say anything to her as I made my way back home.
I could feel Bex's eyes on me, but I stopped before I got to the clearing of my house. "Bex, I need to do this. It's not just because of what happened all those years ago, something Alpha Frank said to me. I am to be Alexander's Luna, and I need him to believe I'm strong and worthy of being his Luna, mainly to show him I'm not the little girl he sent away," I said to her.
Bex looks at me. "I know, and I will help you in everything, including this sparring fight with mate tomorrow," she says.
I look at her, "I need to do it, like when I had my first human fight," I tell her.
She nods but doesn't say anything to me.
I walked towards the house and headed inside.
As I walked into the house, I heard some murmurs coming from the kitchen.
I quietly closed the door, not letting anyone know I was home.
But I listened in on the conversation.
It was between Jason, Sofia, Uncle Keith, and my father.
"I can't believe the nerve of that bitch," says Sofia. "She had her hands all over Lex."
I hear a growl. "That bastard needed to act like an alpha and put her in her place. He should have told her that Roxie was his mate. Why didn't he?" asks my father.
"Dad, Lex wants to make sure Rox accepts him first. He has a long way to go with her; he hurt her feelings all those years ago," Jason says. I could hear someone scraping a chair along the floor. "I know it was my fault that he sent her away."
What the hell?
I listened in more. What the hell was Jason talking about?
"What do you mean?" asked Uncle Keith.
Jason was quiet for a moment, but he sighed. "I found her diary, the pink one, under her bed. I read through it, and I read that she had feelings for him. I didn't know at the time she was his mate, and I wanted to embarrass her," he says. "Well, I went to Lex and showed him the diary, making Blaze act weirder. Lex told me that Rox was his mate, and he was having trouble controlling Blaze. I couldn't think of a way to help my friend, but he told me he had a plan. I never thought he would have Naomi there to help him with the whole thing."
I stared at the door; he planned the whole setup.
Naomi knew about me; what the hell?
"Rox, calm down," says Bex, but I knew she was pissed at what she had heard.
He might have had issues with Blaze, but why did Naomi...I didn't finish what I thought as Bex growled loudly in my head.
I stared back at her with wide eyes. "ENOUGH," she yells. "Your overthinking is driving me nuts, I don't want to know anything, and I know that the girl has an issue with us, but I need a breather," she says; with that, she places a block up on me.
I sigh; that's one of three times that Bex has ever done that to me.
I overthink every possible angle and every scenario, especially when it came to Alexander.
I stop listening to the conversation and walk up the stairs. I closed the door behind me once I entered my room.
I walked over to my bed and sat down, but not too long after sitting down. My door flies open to Jason barging in, "YOU WANT TO SPAR WITH LEX TOMORROW," he shouts. "WHY?"
I stared up at him and growled.
"You need to back off," I snarled at him and pushed him up off the bed.
Jason stares at me as I stand up in front of him. "Look, what happened at the training grounds was a mess, but that doesn't mean you need to take it out on him, "Jason says.
I scanned his face; Alexander must have told him.
"You need to get the fuck out of my room," I said through clenched teeth.
"Rox, we just want…" says my father as he walked into my room. But he stops as he looks at me. He looks at me, and I bet he can feel the block that Bex has put up.
I glared at them both, "you both seem to forget that I never knew Alexander was my mate; he knew about me for six years. I had only found out for two days," I said. I glanced between them and kept my eyes focused on Jason. "As for the training grounds, neither of you helped me. Hell, no one did, except Alpha Frank. I was left to defend myself on my own, and not only that, I had to be a good little she-wolf because my mate is too ashamed to tell everyone who his mate is."
Jason flinched.
He stares at me, "Rox, we…" he starts to say, but I growl at him. "I don't want to hear anything from you," I tell him. I walked straight up to him and stopped right in front of him. "You have no idea what I have been through," I said to him. His eyes searched my face, but I never let my emotions get the better of me. "Why don't you go and tell Alexander everything? You're good at that."
Jason's eyes went wide.
I smirked, "I heard everything, and to be fair, brother, I knew you would have told him. But you never found my true diaries because if you did, we would have a whole different topic," I said to him.
Jason looks at me confused, but I step back.
"How about you get out of my room?" I said to him.
Jason stares at me, but someone clears their throat. "I think we should let Roxie to her thoughts," says Uncle Keith.
I don't look at him as I keep my eyes on Jason.
Jason looked at me for a few moments, but he sighed. Without saying a word, Jason and my father left my room. Uncle Keith watches me as I watch my sibling and father go. My eyes moved to my Uncle.
"You think it was easy for me to watch all that on the training field?" he asks as he steps inside. "I wanted to kill that trainer and those two girls for you, but I have to admit I'm proud of you for not killing them. Plus, you held Bex back like a pro."
I didn't say anything to him.
I stared at him.
"Rox, I'm the only one that knows why you want to spar with Lex, and I think it's a good idea," he says.
He leans back on the doorframe. "I think talking about it might help, but it has to be with someone you can trust," he says.
That's hard; I don't trust many people.
My Uncle searched my face, but his eyes looked at the box in the corner, "You need to show someone those. I know I don't know half, but you can't keep it all bottled up. It will destroy you and maybe everything with Lex too," he says.
Uncle Keith stares at me, but he pushes off the doorframe and sighs. He turns around and walks to the door.
I needed to say something, "I don't know who I can trust," I said quietly.
Uncle Keith stops by the door and looks over his shoulder at me. "I can think of one," he says. He turns around, but he continues to talk, "I know you have never trusted many women before, but Sofia seems to have taken an interest in you and has even stood up for you. She nearly killed Jason when he mentioned reading your diary."
I stared at him. Did she do that?
"Yeah, she did," says Uncle Keith, making me look at him. "You should have stayed longer instead of arguing with Bex." I sighed.
"I need to think," I said to him.
Uncle Keith nods and turns to walk out. But before he does, he looks at me once more before saying, "Don't overthink, but you have gained a sister with Sofia and someone who knows what it is like to be alone, not like you, but she knows what it feels like."
I give him a small smile, and he smiles back. He turns to leave and heads down the stairs.
I walked over and closed the door. I looked around my room, but I could feel the block coming down from Bex.
Bex stares at me, "I heard everything, and I think Keith is right," she says. "We should talk to Sofia; she might be able to help you with the thoughts you have."
I stare back at her.
I know both Bex and Uncle Keith are right.
I never had anyone to talk to, especially a woman. I found it hard as everyone who tried to be friends with me wanted to get close to my brother and Alexander. I did have friends in my Uncle's pack, but I never got close to them to tell them my secrets. They only stayed close to me due to the fighting and my Uncle.
I walked over to my bed and sat down.
There was a knock at the door, and I glanced at the door as the door opened.
Once the door opened, there stood Sofia.
She smiles at me. "It's just you and me," she says. "We have the house to ourselves as the boys left for the packhouse."
I smiled. "You can come in," I said.
Sofia walks in and closes the door behind her.
I might as well start opening up with someone; I just hope she's ready to hear it all.