LOST FOR HIM

How could it ever remain the same? Or even go back to the previous normal? When he took it all away and left me with nothing but memories. 

They all felt like little here and there and in no time, all my eyes could see was a sinking heart ready to drown just FOR HIM. I will say, but he is always coming back, he wants me to…

His heart was far behind the heights I'd gotten to I couldn't even measure.

Sorry, I'm ranting.

I'm the girl who was left alone for crimes she didn't even commit. Not to sound defensive but how could he even walk away? 

Well, here is the story…..

Tee was the kind of guy who could take your breath away once he was in your neighborhood, the "prince charming" kinda guy right? He wasn't charming enough though, at least I wasn't charmed😊. 

I could walk past and not give a second look, of course what is there to admire, I wonder why the other ladies were head over hills for Tee, I'll always say. 

So this Saturday, I felt heavy and needed to shred some weight, heard a couple of you guys were going to the stadium and I thought to myself "A good time to mingle" but with who? 

After about 30 minutes of hugging and smiling, to me it was time to rest, I had no intention of breaking my bones from the fast-paced jugging our instructor took us through. 

Sitting down, headset on but tuned low, sipping some tasty chilled zobo maami had just made a night ago, a masculine, firm but very luring voice said: "Hello Dami".  I could take a second to turn right? But no I had to confirm what I heard so I acted "not available ". And there goes it again "Dami"

Oh, hello, Dami? Should I worried? I said smiling sheepishly. One look at him and I couldn't think of something else. We had our chit-chat, but I didn't let it last long, the girl has to be scarce😂, I said goodbye but I knew I so wanted to be here, well I walked home like it was nothing. No plans of ever seeing him again.

It was on a Tuesday, Tee called to say he was happy he shared in my moment at the stadium the other day, interesting as it sounded I wanted to hear more. He thanked me and said he found me on Facebook and had picked up my phone number from my profile. That was fine by me, he's got to work the work. Lol

Well, after a few days, we had our first 3 dates, and Tee became everything I wanted. I couldn't just imagine my dreams coming through. 

The tenderness of his touch, the willingness in his eyes, he makes me feel like he's been waiting for me all these years. I could mourn all day because, how could I not?  It was so intimate, so deep and passionate. I could only think of another time and another time and another time and another time and no time! 

He said his mother wasn't happy with the kind of life he was living, and apparently, "I was the kind of life she wasn't happy about". Mama needed a girl for her son, a house help, and an errand girl for herself, I couldn't be all that,  so I became the kind of girl. 

I had confidence in what we shared though, I knew he couldn't think of anything else, or rather, I felt I knew… 

So if Mama wants dishes done, then fine. If she needs to be helped pick up stuff from the city store then fine, Tee was willing to rub my feet after "mama's stress". At least, I'd solved that and we were all happy now. I was more, I had the best man for me. 

We made so many unforgettable memories, that now live rent-free in my mind and I was willing to make more even if it took me spending all the money Maami and I made from our food business because we kept waiting for all the deals Tee applied for to click but maybe again, I was the reason they weren't clicking.. 

After the admission list had been published, I couldn't wait to finally get into school, this is the experience I've desired for years now, maami always encouraged me to be patient and that my time would come. After many failed attempts, I finally got admitted! To study the course of my dream. 

It was a far ride from home so I had no fear about I and Tee, so I thought. It wasn't far enough for the vehicles but it was far for our heart to connect.

Getting to school and connecting was easy, I had friends, roommate, course mates and so many mates to get bored at any point. 

It started with calls, I'll call Tee from morning till evening, and finally get a "sorry I was busy reply at night", at least I thought you'd come to see me, you'll come check on you Dee to be sure she was fine, but he rather checked up on the other girl mama introduced few hours after I left. I'm sure Mama was the happiest when she head about my admission because she couldn't wait to bring in "her girl".

But Tee, you made me love you, you told me you loved me, you loved my body and my mourns, I loved the smile and the tender touch.. I gave my all because I couldn't resist. Couldn't you tell mama all that? 

Perhaps it was too late, Tee was expecting a baby from the girl Mama brought. 

How do I recover? Tee had my heart, the keys and the lock!