He opened his eyes and all he could see was him,
For a moment he thought it was all a dream
Turned out it wasn't
He couldn't stop himself from drawing closer to him and burying his head in his chest
He felt the other circle his arms around him and drew him closer as though he were his nest
And what hurt him the most was how the other thought all his actions towards him were just ....
Just normal
Yoongi didn't feel just normal
He didn't feel just normal when the other cupped his face with his warm hands and looked into his eyes
He didn't feel just normal when the other hugged him so warmly, bringing back the warmth he was so eager to erase from his life yet too eager to embrace
He thought staying in his bed alone without the warmth he craved for would do the trick
Yet it had he on his knees begging for it like a worm
Begging for at least a calorie of that warmth
The acceleration of his heart beats whenever the other did any little attempts towards him didn't help at all
It took him years to digest the feelings he had for the other and his head felt too heavy to repossess them all over again
He just knew he wanted the warmth in his bed even though he shouldn't
"You up?"
He could feel the vibration in the other's chest when he let those words out
It always did the job to send shivers down his spine and erupt goosebumps
"Hey"
It wasn't normal
He couldn't bring himself to feel normal when the other's hand roamed soothingly against his back
He wanted to hug him tight and never let go and just keep him to himself
Only if there was a hack
"Yeah"
But he knew that couldn't happen
Not in his world
"Are you okay?"
"What?"
He lifted his head from the other's chest and looked at his face only to be met with the other looking back into his orbs with worry written all over his puffy features
"What's up with you man?
Look how skinny you've become"
He brought his hand to the other's cheek bone to caress it while his long fingers glided through his knotted hair unaware of the sparks he was setting in the other's system
Before his cheeks could get the chance to heat up, Yoongi quickly sat up with his back turned to the other
He buried his face in his palms and tried to clear his thoughts
"I'm fine
Don't wor-"
"Bro don't tell me to not worry about you
You literally turned into Jack frost with all that colour loss
And you don't even step out of your dorm no more
What are you?
A caveman now?"
He sat up as well
"Stop it hobi
I'm fine"
"well I'm gonna stop it
When I know my Yoonie hyungie is okay"
"Well I'm fine "
He sauntered towards his closet to fetch some clothes
Now that Hoseok had come over, he had realized how wretched he had been living
It had been days since he took a shower and weeks since he tidied up he place
I must be smelling like shit
He thought while he searched through his closet
Hoseok just let out a heavy sigh while his mind kept racing on what the other must have up his mind
He wondered why the other suddenly kept pushing him away
He just kept pushing him away
Not in the way he usually does
Did he not want to be friends with him anymore?
He watched as the other dug into his closet for clothes
"You're gonna take a shower?"
He questioned while walking up to the other
"Yeah"
Yoongi felt the other's chest hit his back while he tried to reach for a shirt as well
He did well to ignore his racing heart
"What are you doing"
He asked while he watched the other pick a shirt and a sweat pant and flung them over his shoulder
"I wanna have a shower with you"
The last time Yoongi agreed to have a shower with the other, he ended up with a boner with which he tried with so much difficulty to hide from him
And all he knew after that day was that he wasn't getting naked with the other in the same cubicle
Not again
"No"
He deadpanned straight forward as if he hadn't even thought of his answer
"Why?"
He quipped while he watched the other head to his bathroom
"I don't want to shower with you"
He responded
"Come on stop being grumpy
We do this all the time "
"No"
"Why did you shrink an inch or two?"
"Shut up
I said no"
Yoongi slammed the door to his face