In Reality Zachary was just a 21-Year Old Guy.
The only things really going for him were his slightly above average looks and his intelligence after that he was nothing
He was poor and in debt.
he also was laughed out and made fun of by everyone he was basically useless
and wasn't cared about at all no one even cared about him
That only made him feel more miserable
he thought of his life as meaningless
and cared less and less about himself