I was experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions, I had a lot on my mind. I trained really hard these past two days for five hours each and I requested that Ben be fed and given water too. I didn't think it was fair to fight a man who had been locked up and starved for days. I wanted the fight to be a fair one. Yes, the fight has been the reason for the confusion and the emotional turbulence. I knew I was ready but then again I was scared, not because I thought I wasn't strong enough but because memories of childhood flashed back.