This city was always close to my heart because I was born here. The memories of this house, these streets, the smell of the vanilla and strawberries they are all embedded in the memory of my all five senses.
This guy sitting in front is the only person on I've ever loved from the bottom of my heart. We've been married for atleast 2 years, his family had arranged our marriage on the same day as today. Surprisingly, he is not standing alone but with a lady tightly clenching her hand in his.
He is nervous and judging from the situation, I already know what he is going to say but I'm not ready for it.
"Sae-ju, Let's divorce", those words from his lips weren't just words. They were the direct failure of my efforts in our marriage and the end of love, the one sided love which was unable to bring my husband close to me.
"Okay", I held my head high holding back the tears while gritting my teeth.
"I knew it you'll understand my situation, Sae-ju we are parting on good terms, I'll provide you the share you are supposed to get during the divorce", he said with those eyes which were taking a relief.
This man was aware about my love for him and he had been fully aware of it since the beginning. But he wasn't in the wrong, his unrequited love is far bigger than my one- sided love.
A week later
The one-sided love which is probably never going to end but will continue to admire him from the far.
The divorce was confirmed, I will be given the alimony papers soon.
He was coming in my direction celebrating the victory of his unrequited love while holding her hand. He called for me and hugged me gently.
"Thank you thank you so much Sae, how will I ever be able to repay you? Thanks a lot, here are the papers of your alimony", He broke the hug and offered me the papers. I looked up in his eyes which were still searching for a single droplet of the love for me.
"I don't need them, you can keep it as a wedding gift from me" without looking back i stepped off the stairs, took a cab and left.
It wasn't easy, the fact that i had been preparing for all this throughout my married years with him. It still wasn't easy but the fact that it was just another wound on my wounded heart, i endured it.
"He wasn't for you, he was someone else's soulmate", I mumbled
Wasn't it obvious? It was hurting me but I was unaware of the pain. The answer to the unawareness is my life, my life and my luck has always been miserable. I never had any luck.
I'll be 24 this year, it was absurd to think I'd have a sorted life. Marrying Brian(my ex husband) was ironic because he was my crush during the graduation and his family had arranged my marriage with him. I thought it was all fated yet ill-fated.
Now, where am I supposed to go?
"Miss you should take a break, You look drained", the cab driver told me.
"Just had a long day, thanks for asking" I replied
Maybe it was too obvious to others but not to him or he pretended not to see.
The cab driver dropped me off at my in-laws. I made the payment and stood in front of the door. My hand moved to ring the doorbell but before that i paused and reconsidered my decision to visit them.
I broke my promise to keep Brian, they must assume that I cheated on him. Afterall I gave him that excuse to get out of this marriage.
I rang the door bell, somebody answered the door. It was Mrs. Partridge...