Things were about to blow up in this chapter,
Kahit mahirap mag English at tagalog ohaha.
-Love, tatakbo daw ako SK. I told her while I was hugging her.
Di ko alam kong gusto nya or hindi, pero di sya sumagot, she smiled and change the topic. Afterwards, she decided to get a couple tattoo and di ko sya tenolerate mag pa tattoo.
"If ayaw mo edi ako nalang!" That's what she said.
And di ko nakayanan, sinabayan ko sya. We got a couple tattoo at our wrists and ankles.
So wala na eh feeling ko binigay ko na buhay ko sakanya. Charizzz.
Some people thoughts rn (for just a simple tattoo binigay na buhay nya? tanga) Well, I still have plans to take the PNPA examination after I failed at PMMA medical exam. And I don't want to get any tattoo that time. Hmmmm.
"wag kanalang tumakbo ng SK love, what if may mga babae pag may seminars kayo then palagi kanang busy" a soft murmur from her.
Then she overthink a lot that time but my fam really wants me to run that position. So I decided to cancel, HAHAHA a lot of opportunities wasted. But still I don't want to waste her. Maybe others think that she's a junk but I love junk foods. Ohaa HAHAHA!
"Love papasok na ulit ako sa school, online pa rin naman malayo pa face to face." I told her gently.
She smiled again and said "If you really want to enroll, then give me two permanent assurance." I don't really know what would I do. Nag enroll ako then nag aral ako online. Then I think wala naman problema after that kasi mas inuna kuna sarili ko and I don't mind her if ayaw nya sa mga gusto ko.
December 6, My father was admitted at LIVING HOPE hospital in maasin, ako yung nag babantay then subrang boring wala akong magawa. I reach out my ex Drey asking if she's no busy, I just want to talk along with her. Then we've met napahinto ako and started to felt guilt.
"I know Im cheating right now, but I think it's worthy to try. well subrang ganda na ni Drey. If true to feelings lang usapan Drey was too easy to talked to, she's been asking me a comeback for at least 4yrs nyang ginawa yun after ko mag break up sa mga Exes ko. She's always the first one to asked me, but that time I was the one who asked her out."
A bottles of red horse toppled at the ground, talking about life facing in a great scenery of a wide view of ocean. The cool breeze, intermingled with the warmth of her touch, ignited something within us. Eventually, we chose to get a room, and it us led to a one-night encounter.
Nag mamadali ako bumalik sa hospital then took a bath after that, Elly is in the room already. I don't know how to react naalala ko na monthsary pala namin. But it all went well...
Bagyong Odette! Subrang nag alala ako kay Elly dahil malapit lang sila sa coastal area. Subrang lakas ng bayong Odette natakot na ako baka mapunta sya sa iba charis. Pag ka tapos ng unos ng bagyo, di na talaga ako nakapag hintay, pinuntahan ko sya sakanila, napakahirap nun, ang daming tumbang puno at poste halos di na ma daanan, nag lakad ako halos 2km para makarating sakanila. Na lowba pa cp ko subrang dilim walang ilaw kahit saan. Ganyan ko sya kamahal. Eshhh.
Buti nalang okay lang sila, I didn't even visit her I just asked her cousin "May" na nakita ko sa labas ng bahay nila then asked her if they're okay. Then I go home!
January nalaman na nya lahat about cheating then nag sisisi naman ako shempre sincere ako non. I even stab my self, binasag ko ang bottle of gsm and that's what happened. I burn my self with a cross to remind me that isa akong makakasalang tao. After it, I'm asking for forgiveness, she even want to broke up with me. My life after that was sh8. I fcked up!
Pinag sisihan kona lahat and I mean it!
I even tried to jump at the bridge but someone stops me. I really lost the respect of myself that time. Im always outside sa bahay nila every night, kahit malakas yung ulan di ako uuwi hanggang di ko sya nakitang hindi okay.
Umabot sa oras na suicidal na talaga ako, kunting away inom alak, attempt ulit hanggang paulit-ulit kong ginawa. Basag na mga kamao ko sa subrang emotional ko.
Idk if manepulative na ako non, she really don't care what will going to happen to me tho.
After she decided to broke up,
And she confessed everything about her ex.
That I'm not the first who got her, that our places are their place before. She doesn't know why I treated her like a princess before, she doesn't know bakit pinakawalan ko yung mga assurance na yon. Coz I really thought that I really was the first, and I don't want her to be with someone else forever and gusto ko na panindigan ko yung mga salitang binitiwan ng kanyang ama charr. After all sa mga sakit na nagawa ko sa sarili ko parang di na worth it lahat. Pero wala eh, mahal ko na! Tinanggap ko lang yung rason and ang di ko lang matanggap is why would she lie to me like that.
Face to face na ang classes.
She don't want me to continue kasi may trust issue na daw sya. Okay, Binigay ko yung permanent assurance na gusto nya. I even tried to connect sa Civil marriage, preparing for the requirements, and even tattooed her name. Hayst! Then she agreed. GANYAN PO TALAGA AKO HAHA. gagawin lahat para sakanya. Charr para makapag aral*
Di na tuloy yung civil marriage but we both have a rings. Baratohon ra c.e tag 700 ra.
Face to face na always sya nasa boardinghouse ko and concern lang talaga ako sa grades nya, napabayaan nya na yung pag-aral nya and I dont really like that.
I decided to broke up with her after how many months nyang napabayaan pag aaral nya and even pag rerebelde sa mga magulang nya palagi nalang naloloko magulang nya.
After how many times nya ako ma bugbug sa mga away namin that time, tinakot ko talaga sya I didn't even touched her, but I punched the door behind her because she's blocking the door, she won't let me go outside. Sinira nya mga gamit ko, tatlong sapatos, mga damit, pants. And di naman ako ng hinayang mostly bigay nya kasi yon. Tapos di ko na sya pinansin. Kinabukasan invited na ako sa bahay ni kuya esti sa barangay. Sinaktan ko daw sya, mayroon syang mga pasa sa kamay and even bukol sa ulo nya. Idk how did she do that all. Dahil lalaki tayo takot sa VAWCI humingi ako ng tawad. Di nag tatapos ang lahat, nag sorry sya tapos gusto makipag balikan, sabi ko ayaw ko na. Kaya nag change boardinghouse ako. I really thought ma ookay na ang lahat. After two weeks, surprise madafaka. Di ko alam panu nya nalaman new Boardinghouse ko kaya no choice. Talk ulit, then I always told her that, im not into relationship na, gusto ko mag focus sa acads. Maybe we can after kong mag aral. Pero pabalik2 talaga sya sa boardinghouse ko.
I blocked her on fb, after kong umuwi sa bahay namin galing sa boardinghouse nalaman nya na nasa bahay ako kaya pumunta sya. I thought okay lang yung araw na yun, nag vvideoke lang ako nun. Then the war started, that was the worst away naming dalaw, binugbug nya lang talaga ako nakahiga lang ako, I blocked her attacks then I tried to run but sh8 gumulong-gulong na kaya nilapitan ko then say sorry, binugbug nya yung dibdib nya tapos yung ulo nya kaya pinigilan ko then dumating na si mama kaya huminto na sya then umalis.
Pinatawag ako sa DSWD and san Francisco MPS, then ayon. Binugbug ko daw sya, then about shit post ko which is totoo inunahan kolang naman mag post kasi gawain nya yun noon pa. Kaya luhod ulit ako tapos iyak kasi panig yung Batas nila eh, isa pa wala kaming pera para sa abugado. Usto nyang kunin yung otg drive kasi baka daw ipakalat ko mga hot memories dun HAHAHA. Then settled.
Part 3 will answer all your questions.