Why life is so sad and depressing ? Like why something exciting can never happen in my life ? Why everything must go wrong with me ?
Though I don't feel sad for not having a single friend and I already knew I could never have my crush as my boyfriend; but today he declared that he is Gay !
Why did he had to be gay ? I don't have any problem with LGBTQ, but I can never have anyone of them as my partner in my entire life !
Though, he was never gonna be mine; but my heart broke to know he was gay ! Let it be, what have I got I wanted till now that, I was hoping I will get this big of a wish come true !
I hope at least he finds his true love and won't get fooled just because he is handsome. May he find someone falling for his heart rather than his beauty !
Now what would I tell my mama who is eager for me to find a boyfriend ? I would have told her that I have a crush if not boyfriend, but my last hope too got crushed with his declaration !
I feel left out always, because there is not a single soul whom I could call my friend ! Because for that, requires two people who are interested in talking to one another and I have got none !
I have never talked to him him yet, but once we had encountered a moment between us and that was the first and last encounter we had till date.
And in next week the school is gonna end and I am planning on leaving London for graduation yet again after returning here years ago !
Few years ago, everyone was busy in the preparation for the annual function and the boys and girls were busy practicing the couple dance.
And as usual, I was sitting in the corner pretending to read some random book as nobody wanted me to be their partner and nobody was allowed to sit in the class alone while everyone was practicing.
Suddenly there was chaos in the practice room. I never had the courage in me to look up and notice things around me and so, I didn't looked up. But I could hear everyone shouting for getting some water for someone.
I had my water bottle with me then, but I knew nobody would want anything I gave them and so, I pretended that I didn't heard it and let my face hidden behind the national economy book !
Few guys brought someone and sat beside me, because that was the only empty and open area.
They were shouting,
" Call the ambulance. He is getting unconscious. If he didn't get the medical help immediately, he may get in a big trouble ! "
My anxiety rose to see who was hurt. I just hoped it wasn't Him !
And fortunately it wasn't him ! I don't know who was he ? I don't know who called the ambulance ? Or who went with him ?
I just knew whoever it was, he was sent to hospital and would be alright.
I still didn't gave up on pretending to be engulfed in the useless book for hours. Suddenly few girls came to me and started yelling at me.
" What a shameless girl ! How could you be so heartless ? Why didn't you gave him some water when everyone was screaming their lungs out for it and you had it ? "
" Are you too proud to help even a needy person? Exactly what are you proud for ? Nobody gives a fuck if, you are there in the school or not.
And now you got the chance to get liked by everyone for helping the needy one; you choose to shove your ugly ass face in god knows what book that is ! "
Everyone was cursing me and saying what not to me. But I guess I was really shameless or may be used to be treated as trash so, it didn't bothered me what were the talking about me.
But suddenly He came to my rescue.
" Why are you girls troubling her ? You have never helped her nor anyone else did ! And now when, she did same to you why are you getting all fussy about it ?
Remember, a few months ago someone pushed her knowingly and she fell on ground and her leg was bleeding, who came forward to help her ?
Fucking nobody !
So, now she did the same so why are you guys creating such a scene for that ? You all have been nothing but pure ass to her and expect her to behave nicely to you ? Just what are you made up of ? And who exactly is shameless here ? "
He said getting aggressive.
My heart started racing. I never expected Him to fight for me.
And he remembers my leg getting hurt ? Oh god, even I forgot about it but, he still remembers about it ?
God, this is too much for me to handle. I can't breathe properly and my breaths are shaky with excitement. I just couldn't help the urge to take a look at him and I slowly took my eyes off the book and glanced at him.
He was standing infront of me with his back so, I couldn't see his face but he turned around and leaned closer to me.
He was coming closer to my face. My heart started beating like crazy and I could feel it beating in my ears.
He leaned closer and closer and I shut my eyes close in anticipation. I waited for few moments but nothing happened.
So, I opened my eyes to see, he leaned closer to pick up the water bottle that was on the table behind my back !
I sighed in relief as well as in disappointment.
I thought he was gonna kiss me in that moment ! But he took my water bottle and drank from it by pressing his lips to MY bottle !
Oh god ! I am gonna die ! I drink from it by pressing my lips to it and he did the same so, we technically kissed in a way !
I am never gonna wash that bottle now, I thought; and I didn't washed it till date !
So, that was the first and last moment we shared together during our school time.
I am sure I am gonna score good marks to get admission in my dream college in China for my graduation in Computer science and cyber security.
I am gonna leave London once again. It's my mother's birth place. After she got divorced from Papa, she returned here from Italy, in hope of getting back in contact with her best friend, she long lost while leaving London !
But she haven't found her yet and she have lost her contact number soon after she went to Italy.
To be honest, I personally don't like London; except for Artur, it have gave me nothing but rejection !
And I don't want to go back to Italy, though my Papa continues to ask me to come stay with him at least till I finish my higher education. I have spent a lot of time with my Mama, he wants some too !
But mama is completely against it and I didn't like Italy either so, I have denied that by saying, I wanted to complete my graduation in China.
Though I have some other plan there, but the college is best for my selected category of course for graduation and something else !
I don't know when will I return back here and will I ever see Artur again in my entire life ?
But I just wish I could get his number before school ends and we part our ways forever !