"Hey are you okay?" I heard a voice ask for I woke up with an ache in my back from sleeping leaned against a brick wall.
"Do you need an ambulance?" The voice said as I looked up at an elderly woman with a worried expression on her face.
"No, I'm fine" I said standing quickly and bowing to the woman.
"I'm so sorry if I worried you" I apologized bowing once again. I hurried and grabbed my things and rushed out of the situation.
I can't believe I actually slept outside his house. What could I possibly have been thinking? What if he would've found me sleeping outside his house? He would probably believe that I was a stalker.
I practically jogged back to the University with tears, forming in my eyes, being that class was going to start in 45 minutes. I made it to class with 30 minutes to spare so I just slumped into my desk and began to cry uncontrollably. My heart felt like it was shattering with every beat. It made my chest feel tight and my stomach felt like it had a large rock in it. the pain was so intense I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I felt betrayed, my world felt like it was crumbling on top of me and there was no escape.
My tears felt hot as they ran down my face. I continued to cry uncontrollably for a whole 10 minuets until my heartbreak began to turn into anger. I felt my blood began to boil and I started to feel feverish. The more I thought about the more I become pissed off at Jun-Myeon. I absolutely and completely understood that Jun-Myeon owed me no explanation or loyalty, but I still felt as if I was robbed. He doesn't even know who I am and yet I feel so livid.
Everything started to look dark and distorted. I felt this surge of energy that made me feel as if I was going to burst. My mind was racing from one topic to another. My Lazy ass perverted uncle and the way he treats me for something I had absolutely no control over was completely unfair. The way the drunk driver who stole my parents from me was never charged was unforgivable. Now the light of my life was now stolen from me by the biggest whore on this stubborn, stereotypical campus.
I felt like I was going to go off like a bomb, next thing I knew I was balling my fist and I punched the desk with all my strength. I felt as the desk collapsed under my fist.
I froze and stared at the desk underneath my fist which had started the bleed. I slowly unbaled my fist in shock and my hand began to tremble.
I had broken at least two of my fingers and bruised my knuckles badly. I slowly began to cry once again and just plopped back into the now broken desk. I ripped the bottom of my shirt and wrapped it around my bloody hand.
Great now how am I suppose to pay for this? I'm already paying off my uncle's gambling debt of $248,300. I'm never going to be able to afford to pay off a hospital bill. I released my hair from my ponytail and covered my face as I cried myself to sleep. I was exhausted.
When I had finally awakened class was 20 minutes in already. I had missed majority of the lecture. as I looked to the front I saw Jun-Myeon sitting just a few seats in front of me even though I was so angry with him I couldn't help myself but stare at him. even just the back of his head was beautiful, from his long Crimson red hair that just sat so perfectly along his back and his broad shoulders that just made him look strong. everything about Jun-Myeon was just simply perfect he was the light of my day and the only thing I looked forward to coming to this class but now I feel like I've been robbed of that joy.
I must have been staring at him for a long time because he suddenly turned around and we made eye contact. I hurried up and stood my book up and hid behind it for my face became flushed and my heart started racing. i don't care how angry I am with him he could completely destroy my life and he would still make me feel like a schoolgirl with a crush on the popular football player.
Class was coming to an end. Once again, I had failed at something. I couldn't even take notes for my class and now I may fail and be stuck living this disgusting life with my uncle and grandmother. I'm never going to make it out of this pathetic life.
I just quickly grabbed my belongings and tried to rush out the door.
On my way out the door I ran into something not quite hard but hard enough to bounce me on my ass. I grabbed my bag and looked up to see Ryan.
Why Ryan of all people? I was terrified and ready to cry. I tried to stand but winced in pain when I had put weight on my hand. Once I fell back to the ground, I looked at Ryan who was smirking. Just by the look on his hideous face I knew he was up to no good.
"I'm sorry Ryan, I didn't see you" I said gathering my things and began to stand when Ryan kicked me back down.
"I don't believe telling you could get up, plus you look a lot better on the ground with the rest of the trash" Ryan said staring at me with his two minions standing behind him laughing.
"I said I was sorry just let me go" I said sitting on ground as the other students started to gather around to watch and laugh at me as they always did. I'm just the laughingstock of the campus. I don't understand what I did to anyone to deserve to be treat like I'm less than a human being.
"you've grown takeru and yet I still look down on you." Ryan said, chuckling softly. His chuckle was like a bad omen ringing in my ears.
"What do you want?" I said sitting on the floor looking up at Ryan. I just had to run into him of all people. This guy has always caused me misfortune on every encounter.
"Hey…. Stop acting like you don't remember me." Ryan replied, yanking my head back by my hair. It felt as if he was going to rip my hair out.
"it's starting to piss me off" Ryan said.
"I could never forget you…. It's all your fault." I said, clinching my jaw and grinding my teeth. Did he think anyone could forget his ugly shit green hair? It looks like someone wiped their ass with his hair. This whole situation was pissing me off the longer it went on. Ryan suddenly looked surprised, and then more pissed off.
"What the fuck did you just say??" Ryan yelled, yanking my hair harder than before.
"Let go of me!" I yelled pulling away just to be pull back with a vicious yank. My neck felt like it was going to snap. My blood was starting to boil. I don't understand why I accept such treatment.
"Hey, I've been letting you have your freedom and your shine lately, but don't pass your place with me" Ryan said holding my head by my hair.
"Just say what you said again" Ryan explained.
"it's all your fault I fucking hate you!" I yelled from the top of my lungs in Ryan's face. I can't even have a peaceful school life due to this fucker. I wish he would just die. Why did he choose me to fuck with and torment? Ryan's face began to twist and change as he got more pissed. He looked as if I hurt his feelings.
"You hate me?" Ryan said, in a low voice, almost in a whisper.
"You're hurting me let go!" I screamed once again yanking at Ryan's hands that was twisted into my hair holding me to the ground.
"This is exactly why I can't stand you; you act so fucking weak and pathetic. It's actually quite disgusting." Ryan said pushing my hands away and slamming my head on the ground.
"If it wasn't for you, my uncle would've never found out I was being bullied in school! You're the reason that I'm living such an unfortunate life if you could've just left me alone!" I cried out as tears ran down my face. I began just throwing punches and kicks hoping to hit anything to get him to release my hair. I finally landed a solid hit which end up scratching his face. I felt joy for a second until I looked at Ryan's face who was now bleeding. He looked surprised but more pissed than anything. Ryan then slammed my head on the ground again and the students then started recording the whole thing.
"Ah! You piece of shit! How dare you hit me!" Ryan screamed slamming his fist into my face and everything went black.
When I finally came to, I was being dragged by my feet through a dark room. When I looked up at the person dragging me, it looked like me. except his hair was slicked back and he was wearing a black suit and tie. His eyes glowed and he let off an insidious aura. I began to kick and scream.
"Who are you and what do you want?" I yelled.
"Shut up you wretched whore, you are simply too loud" the unnamed person said.
"Let me go dammit" I yelled and kicking until he finally dropped me on the ground.
"It's funny that now you have a backbone and can fight for yourself, and yet you allow such revolting people to treat us like we are lower than the ground they walk on" he said sitting in a black and red throne in this dark room which looked more like a void than a room.
"Who are you exactly and why do you look like me?" I asked finally standing on my feet and fixing my clothes.
"You really are foolish. I am you, just stronger and more ruthless. I would have never allowed such treatment" He replied looking more annoyed the more I spoke.
"Well, where are we?" I asked trying not to piss him off. To be quite honest he scared me. His aura is so malicious its suffocating.
"We are in your mind you ridiculous child" he said in a calm but intimidating voice while crossing his legs.
"So, this is my imagination?" I asked confused. It felt too real to be fake.
"No, you preposterous fool, I am your strength and your anger. I am your independence and your will to go for it" he said standing and stomping towards me as if he was offended.
"Where have you been all this time if I had it all along?" I said taking a few steps back.
"Locked in your outrageous mind in this darkness waiting until I could finally gain control and now that you have been incapacitated by such a disgusting excuse for a human I can finally defend us and show this idiot he can't just fuck with us and get away with it" He said revealing a katana from behind his back and stabbing me right in the chest. I suddenly felt as if I was paralyzed. It was strange because I didn't feel any pain nor was I bleeding but I felt like I could barely move. he then kneeled down and smiled at me running his hand through my hair then simply stood and started walking towards the void.
"You will stay here and watch" he said walking away into the void. I felt as my body was awake, and I could see everything, but I was not able to do anything. I struggled to remove the katana, but it simply wouldn't budge, and I began to cry as I watch this unknown version of me control me like a puppet. I felt useless.
I suddenly stopped crying and gripped onto Ryan's arm twisting it until he released my hair.
"You have grown taller last I saw you Ryan" I said tighten my grip on Ryan's arm.
"What…?" Ryan's said confused staring at me, I began to smile feeling joy.
"I am nonetheless than intrigued. Who do you think you are to strike me? Nobody has ever attacked and lived to tell the tale. I admire your confidence" I slowly standing while twisting Ryan's arm slightly. Ryan winced in pain and was completely shocked. I could tell he was slowly becoming more terrified of me.
"So, tell me, do you believe a pig like you has the right to put your disgusting hands on my face? Takeru has failed to put you in your place!" I said feeling my body becoming stronger. I haven't felt this strong or joyous in years. This felt amazing but scary. I was out of control, and I felt I just might really kill Ryan.
"Should I actually take your eye this time?" I said with the most sickening smile. I felt disgusted with myself.
"What the fuck?" Yelled a still confused Ryan. I had suddenly squeezed Ryan's arm as I began to bend it backwards.
"When I think about it, you need both hands to play basketball, correct?" I said in a low voice tilting my head to side allowing my hair to fall from my face.
"Therefore, I will just take both your hands and the rest will follow" I said chuckling softly.
"What? There's no way your still holding grudges from 9 years ago! We were children!" Ryan said trying to yank his arm out of my grip.
"No, you were a child. You had the privilege of playing games. I DIDN'T! It was my mother's death anniversary and instead of honoring my mother I spent it tied to a pole being beaten due to your irresponsible behavior 11 years ago" I replied horrifyingly calm. I had bent his arm so far; I could feel as his cracked in my grip and screamed in pain while dropping to his knees.
"I suffered that day because I refused to address the root of the problem" I said as I became more pissed off just thinking about how it felt to not honor my loving mother who only wanted a better life for me.
"You have no fucking clue what it feels like to be seen a nuisance in your family's lives. I really wanted to kill you" I yelled crushing his arm in my hands and I laughed as he screamed and cried for me to let him go. I have never behaved in such a manner since I was in middle school. My anger was like daggers in my chest, but his screams felt like music to my ears. I didn't want this, I'm not this person I don't want to cause people harm. I want a peaceful life and to not have to worry so much. I wanted this to stop but I couldn't make it stop I felt like puppet. I had no control over my own body.
"I will never forgive you. However, you know what they say. Play childish games and you'll get silly prizes. You need to understand your actions have consequences." I yelled in Ryan's face laughing feeling euphoric.
"Ahh!! Let me go your hurting me" Ryan screamed trying to break free. I laughed uncontrollably finally snapping his arm in two. The blood from his arm was the last straw. I couldn't allow this to go on further I was finally able to break free and remove the katana and drag him from out of control and throw him back. I began to cry as I watched him stand angrier than before.
"What are you doing? I was about to end him" He yelled at me picking up the katana.
"I don't want to hurt people! You enjoy it too much. The power feels amazing, and he may have deserved it but I'm not like you" I screamed as tear rolled down my face.
"You can't just lock me here I am your protection" he Said pissed off ready to stab me once again. I ran into the boy trying to escape him and I finally came to my senses and was once again in control of my own body. I can never allow him to do that to me again.
I looked around and was completely horrified for I was covered in blood, and I just got up embarrassed and I finally noticed jun-myeon in the crowd watching. I can't believe he saw do such a hideous thing. I grabbed my bag and ran out of the classroom as fast I can. I can't believe I did that.