I am Sorry
When days were passing slowly, Sammy thinks if he even tries a step it won't be letting him to see any positive way. After keeping him down to every single thing, in that age of greatness, he knows nothing is gonna happen. 'He has a GF---' That surety of his own vision also the reason to be turned over. Humbleness has him, so does Dwarshuis. 'Maybe it is a normal feeling and going to be alright, soon---' Sammy always gives him consolation for nothing but ignoring it.
Misfortune, Hard Luck, Difficult Path, Awful Situation are the company nowadays for Sammy. When his eyes cries, his mouth smiles. The tears isn't for Dwarshuis, it is for his own thinkings... Sammy Loves him never wants him either. He loves watching him with another, how he treats her, how he become happy all the time--- yes he feels happier to see him smiling. Yes, he wanted to become the Reason but Luck wouldn't let him. 'So what. Watching him happy makes me happy,' The consolation AGAIN...
Whenever BBL comes, he becomes happier. Watching him just a glimpse is the most happiest thing Sammy loves to do! After every Renegades match against Sixers, he rushed to Sixers dressing room and talks with him a bit. Dwarshuis, however, sometimes hardly noticed him smiling more with him. Ignores it, sometimes keep it.
One day,
- Hey Sammy. Don't you have friends?
- Yeah, why?
- No. Not a big deal just asking.
- Tell!
- Ah! Actually, whenever you come to talk with me, I mean it's okay that maybe you're trying to be GOOD with me or you're just passing time. But one thing I notice is-
- WHAT? [Doubts]
- Let me say.
- Say
- I notice your interaction with me is increasing-
- Isn't it good?
- Yeah. But not as a Friend
- WE ARE NOT FRIENDS
- [Shocked] What we are??
- More than Friends.
- Fine [appreciates]
- Then? [Eagerly]
- Like. I don't think you took me positively-
- Means?
- I mean. Sometimes I feel that you go out of LIMIT
- WHAT DO YOU MEAN Dwarshuis?
- I meant-
- You can't say like that
- Fine. Listen I MEANT, I think YOU HAVE INTEREST ON ME
- HOW?
- How? How means. As
- AS?
- As a LOVER [Clears]
- [paused] LOVER?
- Hm
- SHUT UP.
- I just-
- No Dwarshuis, I mean what. I-I wait. Wait a minute, I came here to talk with you as friend as well as a company cz I have no friend without Richie in here and You- you Serious? [Shocked]
- I mean
- I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN. Just let it go. And I AM SORRY! [saying that he left]
Dwarshuis tried to stop him bit didn't..
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When Sammy found the rhythm back to be a normal life, somehow someone appears to give him Company. No, he doesn't want it. But he is Sammys Best Friend. Thats why Sammy can't even ignore him.
"You can't let things go on its own, Sammy," Kane Richardson says. "I know," Sammy says. "So then What. You know YOU SHOULD GO," Richardson says. "Go where?" Asks instantly. "Go to him," Richardson says. "YOU KNOW I CAN'T. And the Cruel truth is He has GF. And he loves her SOOO MUCH, Richie," says silently. "Oh, Sammy. You know his Girlfriend is a Bitch-" "No Richie. He loves her so much and can't you see?" Sammy disagrees. "CAN'T YOU SEE? THAT HIS GF IS A BITCH," [shouts] Sammy looks at him says nothing. "You should let him realise-" "He LOVES her. I can't be a barrier please don't force me." "I ain't forcing you. I'm just helping you out and that's what you NEED to do now Sammy," Richardson says. "Oh! Richie. Your friend loves someone that doesn't mean he is gonna get him. He has his own life. I didn't know before loving him. I am sorry for what I have feel for him," Sammy starts crying. "No, Sammy. You are not sorry. It's your responsibility to tell, to show anyone what he deserves! It's better than be a barrier and you know the other thing? The other thing is, she doesn't love you the way you do. Yours ONE is better Sammy. Trust me, you are better," Richardson gives him support. He says nothing. "You know she is not GOOD for him. Maybe he loves her but IT ISNT CALL LOVE! It's just a Show-off. Do you understand?" "Hm," Sammy answers. "Now stop crying for me." "Hm," Nodes his face and wiped his eyes.
Flashback,
1 year ago..
- Don't even try to show YOUR LOVE out, Sammy.
- You know-
- I KNOW YOU LOVE ME. Most of my teams players know, YOU LOVE ME [shouts]
- But Dwars-
- No Sammy. Its not like that. How can you even think I'm gonna- Ah Serious. Everyone knows, I am in a relationship
- But
- No! I can't consider. Please Sammy
- I didn't tell you to
- Yeah I know. In formality, Let me clear - Oh wait, I doubted also Sammy. But you, you disagreed.
- Yeah but Let-
- No. I was right it wasn't FRIENDSHIP. You were right ITS MORE... Sammy no. You can't do these types of things.
- But your gf isn't good, I know
- YOU KNOW NOTHING. You deserve better Sammy. You don't deserve a depressed person.
- But
- I am Sorry. I am so Sorry I ain't perfect for you Sammy. I AM NOT
- No
- Please.
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When Dwarshuis unfortunately notices Sammy in a restaurant, He went and sits in front of him after taking permission. They were just talking I'm a various topic including Professions... When suddenly Dwarshuis changed the Topic,
- Okay Fine. Can I ask you something
- Sure
- Are you okay?
- I am. Why?
- Are you actually Alright Sammy. I mean without me?
- [paused] I was always alright without you.
- Ah. Okay
- WHY DWARSHUIS?
- You even didn't Ask What I am doing here in Melbourne
- Cz I know
- [Surprised] YOU KNOW?
- You are here for drinking-- alcohol, throwing yourself I'm a corner of bar. That's why you are here
- [totally shock] how'd you know?
- I know everything about your depression Dwarshuis. Everything
- DEPRESSION?
- [laughs] THAT THING after you came to know that your pretty gf has another GUY. That is the only thing
- Yeah
- No Dwarshuis. Not 'YES'
- [Looks at him]
- Love isn't a JOKE for me. From Melbourne, what do think, one chilling out, treating out, playing out like your GF DO? WHAT DO YOU THINK? IM THAT?
- No
- NO. Nothing. I KNOW NOTHING.
- SAMMY. Don't be rude
- I ain't. Just watching you out, understanding you over how things have been changed so quickly after you know about the GUY!
- [Looks down]
- It's not your FAULT Dwarshuis. You just blindly TRUSTED someone, someone who didn't Deserve.
- [said nothing]
- I knew Everything. And I am sorry Dwarshuis that It was actually your personal matter. But trust me when Richie told me he saw you 3 or 4 times in a week on these dirty bars, you're drinking over, thinking negatives.... I HAVE TO KNOW!
- [Looks up to his marbel eyes; felt cry]
- You deserve better [sighs]
- [Looks down again with teary eyes what falling down] Don't you LOVE me Sammy? [Crying Tone]
- [Feels like someone has kicked him from 100th floor] WHAT?
- DON'T YOU? [says emotionally]
- [Looks beside, said nothing]
- [Deep breath] I am Sorry. I am sorry, Sammy. I couldn't understand you
- [holds his hand] It's not your fault Dwarshuis.
- No, I am Sorry.
- No! Your girlfriend didn't let you Just
- No-
- Yes Dwarshuis.
- Can you forgive me?
- I already did [sighs] I still LOVE YOU DWARSHUIS. Trust me
- [Looks at him]
- [Wiped his eyes] I don't like tears
- Sorry.
- No. I Just LOVE YOU Dwarshuis
- [Holds his hand with his, looks] I ALSO LOVE YOU.
- [Smiles like all the happiness God gives him forever; hugs him tightly]
- [Dwarshuis hugs him to and feels like he isn't having his past back]
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