Casandra's POV
Today was the perfect definition of the word 'exhaustion', and I wanted to do nothing but sleep until the wee hours of the morning.
I sighed as I got cocooned in a warm blanket on my bed, and the thought of my boyfriend crossed my mind almost immediately.
I have a Beta boyfriend and in a world where werewolves are more desired than humans, I couldn't be happier that a werewolf was interested in me enough to date me.
We've been dating for three years and we both loved one another so much. It took about a year of dating for me to realize that he was the one for me.
The blaring sound of my phone ringing jolted me out of my thoughts and I fondly rolled my eyes on seeing my boyfriend's name on the screen.
I was literally just thinking about him.
I accepted the call and brought the phone close to my ear, a smile stretching out on my face as soon as his soothing, familiar voice washed over me, which somehow managed to make the exhaustion I had been feeling melt away.
That was something only my boyfriend was capable of doing. He makes me forget all my problems with his presence alone. It's one of the reasons why I'm stupidly in love with him.
The next words that echoed into my ear was so unexpected, it made me instantly sit up.
"What?" I cried out, while my heartbeat accelerated.
"What do you mean you're travelling in a few days?" I demanded again, eyes widening fearfully. I didn't even realize sliding off my bed to begin pacing around my small room.
My boyfriend had just called and broke the saddest news ever to me, and I was yet to fully wrap my head around it.
He had just gotten a promotion at work. This is an opportunity that rarely comes by, and I knew I was supposed to be happy for him, but all I could feel in my heart was sadness so deep, it clogged up my lungs and made it hard for me to breathe.
"I need to leave for Australia and it's really important that I go. You know I don't have much of a choice.." He explained, voice placating but it did nothing to elevate my sadness.
I already have my future mapped out, and he's in every step of the way with me. Him leaving for another country now would automatically put a halt to those plans, which was something I didn't want to think of yet.
"Do you really have to go?" I found myself asking in a cracked voice. I sniffed and hastily blinked a couple of times to stop any tears from sliding out.
"Aw baby, don't cry. I won't be gone forever, hm?" He murmured soothingly, but that only made me want to cry harder.
"Okay but can I come with you?" I proposed after a few moments,
"I'm ready to live anywhere with you and you know it." I hastily added and after a few seconds of silence, he finally answered.
"No baby, you can't." he responded solemnly and my heart sank.
"But why? Don't you want me there with you?" I asked again, and this time, I couldn't hold back the tears from falling even if I wanted to.
He probably just didn't want me there with him.
I tried my best to not overthink the situation but being an over thinker came with its own pros and cons.
"You know if I could then you'll be leaving with me," he answered, jolting me out of my thoughts.
"But, I barely know anyone around there and I need to settle down first. I promise that when I'm settled down over there, you'll join me immediately, okay?" He added and even though my heart still felt heavy with sadness, his reassuring words made me feel a little bit better.
And because he always keep to his words, I believed him without hesitation.
Living without being able to see my boyfriend physically and have him to hold me in his arms whenever I'm having a mental breakdown like he usually does whenever he's chanced, would be hell for me.
I wasn't sure of how I'd cope without being able to see him in person, but I refused to dwell on that just yet.
He'd already made a promise to send for me when he's finally settled down over there.
I guess I'd have to hold into that.
Although I'd really wished that he'd let me travel with him.
After the call ended, I sank back into my bed, feeling numb and cold at once. I wasn't feeling exhausted any longer, all I could feel was sadness and heartache.
Different thoughts of my boyfriend and I in numerous situations filled up my head at once and I let out a long sigh.
I'd never considered the fact that this might happen when I had been planning for the future with him in it.
Considering removing him from my future plans was out of the question because I loved him so damn much.
I guess I'd just have to halt those plans and shift them a few years ahead. Perhaps once I get to join him in Australia, we'd be able to implement those plans there.
Plans of settling down, getting happily married, having children… and the list goes on and on.
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I thought long and hard before coming to a conclusion which I'm convinced is the right one.
Which was to finally give him my virginity.
The plan was to wait till after marriage before completely giving myself over to him, because I was still old fashioned like that.
But now, I'd decided to give it to him because in a way, I felt like if I give my virginity to him before he travels, it would make it ridiculously hard for him to stop thinking about me.
Which is exactly what I wanted, because I wanted him to send for me as fast as possible.
I got out of bed and strode out of my room, making my way to the store not too far from the house. I shopped for the best lingeries and I was satisfied when I tried them on, ignoring how ridiculously expensive they were.
Red was his favourite colour so I picked it and paid before walking back to the house.
The thought of having sex was terrifying as hell but I was determined to do this.
It's a parting gift after all.
I revealed my plan to Ana the next day. Ana is my best friend. She's a werewolf, but of a lower rank to my boyfriend.
Ana is an Omega wolf and we've been friends for longer than I can remember. She'd always helped me with things I needed help with and I trusted her so much.
"So, I plan on doing it tonight" I shrieked as I bit my lower lip and blushed while my best friend raised an eyebrow at me, totally oblivious to what I meant.
"Do what?" She asked confusingly and I sighed before pulling her to sit on the couch beside me.
"I'm going to have sex with my boyfriend and I'm thinking of doing that a day before he leaves since you know? It's kind of like a parting gift from me to him." I explained and she gasped as she raised an eyebrow before teasing me.
"Someone is about to lose her virginity soon." She cooed and I laughed before brushing her off.
"So, I don't know how to go about it in order to make it, you know, make it memorable and all but I got the lingeries already, I just need a little bit of help and perhaps some tips." I explained to her and she nodded in understanding.
"You know I'm always happy to help you with whatever you need." She assured me with a warm comforting smile.
We spoke for a while more as she told me how to act and what to do.
With Ana already in on the plan, I knew executing it wouldn't be difficult at all. The plan was to get a hotel room and make sure it's decorated before inviting him over anonymously.
And after that I was going to walk into the room with the lingerie I bought underneath my dress. Ana had told me all I needed to know about the art of seduction but I was still nervous.
The day finally came when I was to surprise my boyfriend and Ana and I drove to the hotel, she'd suggested we stay at the bar for a while.
Agreeing with her, we walked to the bar and ordered some shots. I looked around strangely before biting my nails and shaking my legs.
"Loosen up a bit." Ana said as she handed me a shot of tequila and without thinking I downed it all at once.
I couldn't ignore the tingling burning sensation at the back of my throat as I let out a slight painful wince.
I was nervous as hell. I've seen what Marcus looked like in his pants, and thinking of that sliding into me tonight was enough to make me get a panic attack.
"I have no idea of what to do once I get into the hotel room, or if I'll do it right." I cried out nervously. "I'm awkward as hell, I don't want him to laugh at my dumb attempts to seduce him.., I don't think I can do this.." I rambled on and on until Ana took my hands in hers.
"It's normal for you to be nervous, Cassie but you really need to let all that go in order to make tonight memorable for the both of you."
She was still talking when I took the second shot and drank it all in one go.
"Take it easy on the alcohol," she advised when I took a third shot almost immediately but I only rolled my eyes.
How was I going to be able to take it easy on the alcohol when I couldn't even stop my heart from pounding? I chewed on my bottom lip for a while as I mentally went over the plan for the hundredth time today.
I loved how the alcohol made me feel less nervous and more loosened up, which prompted me to keep throwing the shots back without hesitations.
"Like I said, remember all we talked about and the things I taught you and trust me, he'll be the most pleased man in the world." Ana said and I laughed nervously, desperately hoping she's right.
"Okay, I just hope I don't mess this up." I sighed and she assured me that I wasn't going to mess it up if I did as she'd earlier said and I nodded.
I watched as Ana left the bar and I was now all alone. I ordered more shots because I couldn't bring myself to stop drinking.
I was a very light weight. Unlike werewolves who could hold their alcohol effortlessly, humans were the complete opposite, and someone like me who rarely drinks, automatically makes it dosent take long to get me drunk as hell.
This is definitely a really bad time to get drunk, but being drunk made my confidence build up and I just couldn't wait for when I would finally get to give my boyfriend a sexual performance of his life. My head soon started feeling fuzzy and everything in the bar slowly got dimmer.
I didn't need anyone to tell me that I was currently extremely drunk.
The sound of my phone ringing jolted me out of my thoughts as I fumbled with my purse a little before finally pulling my phone out.
Shrieking, I explained to Ana how I loved the way and some other jumbled up words which I couldn't remember.
She immediately warned me not to leave where I currently was.
I couldn't help it, while waiting, I downed two more shots before she arrived.
"Your boyfriend is in the hotel room already." She announced when she got to me and I'd tried to stand but I staggered and almost fell on my face but Ana caught me.
"Oh my goodness, you're drunk as hell, Cassie." Ana sighed out as she held me firmly. I was grateful for her help, because if not for her now, how would I successfully make my way to my boyfriend's hotel room?
"I'm not drunk, I know what I'm doing." I lied, I had no idea what I was doing and I could barely see properly.
Ana took my arm and wrapped it around her neck as she walked with me to the room we'd planned on meeting my boyfriend– where my boyfriend is currently waiting for me in.
I was no longer feeling nervous, which is all thanks to the shots.
The last thing I remembered was being laid on a warm bed and my body softly colliding with a hard body.