The next day, the first thing I did was check my cell. Tristian had forwarded the restaurant address, and it was near my place. Today was my week off, so I took my time to get ready and left the flat. I reached the restaurant and was waiting for Tristian he came on time, and we ordered coffee, "Hey Gray long time", "Yeah it is", "So how have you been such a lame question after knowing everything sorry", "It's ok, yeah coping up with my new life", "It must be hard on you right falling from top to bottom", how they won't forget to add their bitchy words and I was talking with Tristian who was hating me for no reason, "Yeah it is if we accept the reality then everything becomes less complicated don't you think", "Well no idea, I really don't want to go through shitty life as yours no offense please I really like my rich lifestyle I won't trade this to anything", "None taken, everyone got their own perspective", "Still your parents' God how can they do such things I did my research Gray I know everything which was not published too, really you were not aware of anything or you know", "Trust me I was not aware of anything till the day Joshua revealed everything", The next day, the first thing I did was check my cell. Tristian had forwarded the restaurant address, and it was near my place. Today was my week off, so I took my time to get ready and left the flat.
I reached the restaurant and was waiting for Tristian. He came on time, and we ordered coffee. "Hey Gray, long time." "Yeah, it is." "So, how have you been? Such a lame question after knowing everything." "It's ok, yeah, coping with my new life." "It must be hard on you, right? Falling from top to bottom." They won't forget to add their bitchy words, and I was talking with Tristian, who was hating me for no reason. "Yeah, if we accept reality, then everything becomes less complicated, don't you think?" "Well, no idea; I really don't want to go through the same shitty life as yours. No offense, please. I really like my rich lifestyle. I won't trade this for anything." "None is taken; everyone has their own perspective." "Still, your parents' God, how can they do such things? I did my research, Gray. I know everything that was not published, too. Really, you were not aware of anything, or you know." "Trust me, I was not aware of anything till the day Joshua revealed everything."
"I feel pity for Joshua, and my hatred for you was even more. Sorry to say this, I started hating you when Joshua entered your life." "I was getting that, but I didn't get your reason." "Gray, it was obvious I didn't hide anything, and please don't tell me you didn't notice. I was trying my best to please Joshua and stay beside him, but he was giving his full attention to you, which was pissing me off. How the hell was he targeting his hatred at me, which should be the other way around?" "If I am not wrong, you are not gay or bi. Why this obsession over him? Any reason?" "Don't know; I liked him instantly, not like, your liking. I wanted to become like him—his confidence level and his spirit were so strong that he could achieve anything. When we won the football match, I became his number-one fan. My obsession over him was even greater if I wanted to be his boyfriend. I would have agreed with closed eyes, trust me, but you were his main priority for his own reasons. Don't mind. I felt very happy when I got to know he was using you from Day 1, nothing more or less. I partied till the morning after hearing the news—a strange satisfaction that I didn't feel when I heard your family was bankrupt. Trust me once again; I am really sorry for feeling this way, but I can't help it."
Wow, wow, such a blunt statement. I bet he was not the only one who was pissed over me; the entire college was cursing me and giving death glare whenever they could. I never minded any of it being ignored, as confidence was surging through me, and that confidence name was 'Joshua'.
We didn't speak for a while. I was not sure how to react to his blunt statement. I had my own intention of meeting him, but now I can conclude that this was a bad idea. I don't think he would help me, but trying my luck won't harm me in any way. "I am not getting how to react to that statement. I didn't know you guys were so resentful of me." "Common. How could you ignore us once you started hanging out with him?" "You guys felt that way because it was Joshua. If it was any other guy, you guys wouldn't mind at all. I would bet on that." "Whatever Gray, I don't know, so you called me for any particular reason." "I tried to reach everyone but no one called back." "You can't expect when your parents had done such things right." "Yeah I am not taking my parents side at least you guys should hear my side of the story don't you think? You guys can't conclude my side based on my parents doing." "When you are part of the family you need to welcome everything and you can't blame us for behaving this way." "Then I don't got any saying on this?" "No one really wants to listen your side when your parents are main focus." "I am not getting what to say for that, I called you guys I need help. I am in huge debt need to clear that, can you help me, trust me I am going to repay you back." "Money, hmmm why would I help you Gray as I am on hating team." "Tristian if it was not urgent I would not approach you please I need your help only this time can't you keep prejudice aside." "Well I am a businessman in everything I will see my benefit so how I am going to be benefited." "Are you talking about interest?" "I am not a cheap lender." "I am ready to do anything except illegal activities." "Really? Are you sure Gray?" "Yeah if you are ready to lend me money I am." "Ok. For a few days something was running in my mind and I was waiting for a right person. Let me be blunt once again Gray, I want to experience 'sex' with you I mean with a man so I want with you."
That was a shocking statement. Was he crazy? iI he aware what he just asked me? "Once again, please confirm me, are you gay or bi?" "Neither; I don't know. I want to explore new things, which include sex with men. I never tried with anyone, so I want to try with you. As you were with Joshua, I want to know what he saw in you aside from his revenge. He was bloody and always glued to you. That is another reason." Is he making any sense? Just because I was with Joshua he wants to have sex with me. What the hell with his obsession? "Are you really making any sense?" "It's none of your business, as I cleared what I wanted. Now it's your turn to decide if you are in or not. It's a win-win situation if you spend a night with me. You are not required to pay me back, and the amount would be satisfying. So, take your time, think, and get back to me. No force. I know what your answer is going to be; until then, goodbye.
I should have guessed out of all my friends when Tristian reached out. He must have an ulterior motive, but I would never guess this one. God, he wants to have sex with me, and his reason for choosing me was Joshua. Was he an idiot, or was his obsession over Joshua making him?
It's been 2 days since I met Tristian, and he has not called or messaged me, nor have I tried to reach him. I was in a daze, not knowing how to respond, whether to say 'yes' or just ignore it. Not to forget, I was desperate, which was only making me think over and over, trying to convince myself it was a one-time thing. Near my flat, one of the thugs would always wait for me just to confirm I was not going to elope like my parents, which started to creep me out. David had questioned me by seeing my worried face, for which I gave him an assuring smile, which he didn't buy nor try to pester me with more questions. I even thought of giving it a shot by asking David, but he had poured all his savings into this restaurant; if he was capable, it would never be enough.
So many out there have sex with random people. I am getting money in return; there's nothing wrong with it. I don't have a choice; I need to agree to this, and I don't have any other source to earn money. It's a win-win situation. Tristian is my friend, and expecting sex from me. I was not in a position to question him other than grab the opportunity, my desperation blindfolding me. The next thing I did was pick up my cell and forward a text to Tristian and within a few minutes, I got his reply: He had texted the hotel name and room number, with the timing. He was sure that I would agree to his offer.
I just agreed to something that I never even dreamed of in my life: I was going to use my body to earn money. It was an unexpected turn, and I felt pity for my situation, which was forcing me to take this path. And again, whom should I blame?
My parents, who couldn't face the situation, just made mine even worse. My sister, who is blaming me till today. My friends, who are not interested in listening to my side of the story, cut their ties, and the one who snatched everything with a valid reason, and I couldn't even blame him, but I can't help from blaming.
Should I blame my faith or the one who erased the previous one and rewrote it and vanished?