Standing in front of my door was no other than my new nightmare. He stood like a man on a mission his face showing no expression, his grey eyes fixed on me, anger and hatred burning through them. His eyes only mirrored mine after the initial shock of his presence weared off me.
"Denise who's at the door" my mum calls out.
"Nobody important mum, I'll be right in, once I'm done." I quickly reply.
"What are you doing here" I whisper yell as I quickly step forward and shut the door behind me. I did it so my mum wouldn't see him.
"Ah so you don't what your mum to know the evil you have done. Isn't that lovely, she's going to find out anyway." he steps forward.
"Look I have done nothing evil, it's not my fault that you don't seem to remember what transpired between us and it's fine, I've accepted my sad reality and I've moved on. Kindly do so".
"I'm so sorry darling that won't be happening. The moment you carried my child inside of you and I found out, that's where life got a little bit complicated for you. The intensity of his gaze made me stumble a little, my back now flushed against the door.
He takes a little step forward. "I just came here to let you know of the few changes that will happen little one. It's no longer going to be business as usual for you anymore. I like to handle my affairs myself that's why I am here. Now, you are not to speak to the press or anyone for that matter regarding our relationship nor say anything regarding my child, you are not to be seen anywhere without the guard I have assigned to you, you are to cut off any other romatic relationship you have with any man, I don't give a damn who they are to you". He takes another step forward destroying whatever little space that was left between us. My legs grows weak at the close proximity, I am unable to breathe properly. He stares at me intently to drive his points in before he eventually leans in, his breath fanning the sides of my face as he continues "Oh and lastly, prepare yourself we will be getting married". He steps away from me.
My brain immediately registers his words as he steps away from me. "Excuse me?,
"Don't act like a fool darling, I don't like to repeat myself",
"Yo-you, you can't make me do that" I stuttered. I will keep all your rules but I will not marry you". My heart is pounding in my chest as I try to defend myself.
He lightly chuckles at my attempt to resist."You humor me darling, you set yourself up for disaster the moment you carried my child. You will do as you are told, you will not test me." He says the last words slow and precise, his voice carrying an underlying threat.
I shiver at his words "Why are you acting like I did it on purpose". i sob, my heart shattering into a million pieces knowing that he will ruin my life. "I never wanted this, I never wanted to be in this situation".
" I don't bloody care, can you stop with the tears?, It isn't going to change anything, just brace up and get ready."
"You are just the devil" I sob harder.
"You should have thought of that before sleeping with the devil". With that he walks away without sparing me a second glance, he enters his Mercedes and drives off.
How am I supposed to marry a man like him, we are worlds apart. He is doing this to punish me, it's obvious, why else would he do this. I always thought I would marry for love but I guess that isn't in the books for me. I sob harder. I know he would pull through with the threat he has in mind just like what Patrick did to me.
I calm myself after a few minutes and wipe my tears away before I enter the house again.
"That was a long time you spent with nobody" Rosie comments as I step in.
My countenance is so dampened that she swallows down her intended snarky remark.
"It was the guy you owe money wasn't it?" She continues instead.
"No it wasn't, it was the father of my baby"
"Is he aware of the pregnancy?Did you tell him?."
"No Rosie I didn't, I think he found out the day I registered for the antenatal." My voice is small. We mistakenly bumped into each other, I had no idea he saw the pamphlet the doctor gave to me, and he ended up concluding the child was his. He wants to marry him"
"He what?" She exclaims. "Shhh… calm down, I don't want to alert mum" she clamps down her mouth with her hand.
"That guy is definitely sick in the head," she whispers.
"How could he say that," she looks me in the eye. "You're not considering it are you?,".
"Oh my Gosh Denise, No, God no, you can't do that, you guys are only having a child together, don't do it." She is aggravated by the thought of me even considering it.
"You don't understand, Ro, he could do something to me, to us. You didn't see him, you didn't hear him. He was dead serious, he could-he could, I don't know Ro, I'm scared. The look in his eyes, the tone of his voice "I shudder.
"So you're going to just give in?," She asks me looking dejected."What other choice do I have?" I say feeling sorry for my whole existence.
"When are you going to tell your mum because she needs to know and she needs to know fast before things get worse than it already is' '. She looks at me expectantly. "I'll tell her but not today".
"Tell me what mum blurts out from nowhere.
"Oh crap" Rosie whispers.
"That I haven't made any arrangements for the baby" I try to salvage the situation. I know my response sounds stupid but it was the only thing I could think of.
"No need to worry about that, we will do that in time. She stares at me lovingly".
God I need to stop lying to this woman all she does is love me unconditionally and all I do is lie to her.
"I need to head home," Rosie says, breaking me from my thoughts. She gives mum and I a hug and I see her to the door.
My phone buzzes and distracts me from my mulling.
"Long time no see sweet peas".