I made love to Emma all day; we were so engrossed in one another that we didn't notice when Veronica arrived. We lost control and I unloaded everything inside her.
By the time we finished, I felt thoroughly empty yet satisfied.
Emma told me she'd have to go this evening to a pharmacy to get the morning-after pill since I was 'irresponsible' enough to ejaculate inside. This vixen, she's the one that didn't want me to use a condom. I thought she'd be prepared for something like this but then she told me she hadn't had sex without protection for years, she had only allowed me.
I coughed in pride and told her to go and get it only on this occasion, I didn't want her to take contraceptives as I remember Lana had a lot of mood swings because of them and overall, it was a bad experience for her; I didn't want Emma to go through the same when we could just use a condom, even if it doesn't feel as good.
She begrudgingly accepted and thus… our relationship escalated. I think we're going to be doing this very often. What I felt with her was amazing, even though it wasn't my first time in spirit; It felt like it.
And well... this is this and that is that. I had to somehow sort out this awkwardness.
"I'm sorry, Veronica, for putting you in this situation" I apologised.
"Don't worry~ you are at that age after all... if you have a girlfriend, it is normal, Ray" she stuttered with a smile but her cheeks were still so red.
It is understandable. She arrived at a home in disarray smelling of lust, the kitchen stained with Emma's juices and our sweat. I started to clean the place by myself but she helped me.
Having reached this stage in my relationship with Emma, with Jean also soon around the corner, it may be better to just move out of this house and become independent.
"No, it is not right for you to have to go through this. Since Emma and I have gone this far, maybe we could move–"
"You don't have to move!"
Veronica yelled really loud, and when I looked at her, it was like she was in the border of tears.
"…"
"You don't have to move, s-son…" she stuttered her last word, testing the grounds and seeing what I would answer. So I understood at that moment, that this woman had become emotionally dependent on me.
And that's not good.
"But still, Veronica…"
She approached me, turned my head and kissed my cheek before embracing me so hard, that others would think she was trying to suffocate me.
"I have so much love to give you that I haven't given you… I was so stupid, and I don't think I can ever forgive myself for that. Only now I have come to realise how it feels to be a mother. I know it is selfish. But please allow me to experience this a bit further. I don't want you to leave me, please".
I'm the last person she should be emotionally dependent on. Sadly, the way to end it is by slicing the connection, she would get hurt but I thought it would be better to get hurt now.
"Please, let me have you at least until you become an adult..."
I sighed, thinking... a few more years, I don't know what may happen, my life has become quite hectic but at the same time, I want to protect her.
"I want… I desire that by the time you leave this home. You will find it in your heart to call me a mother. I will do my best, only then can I truly forgive myself".
"I could call you mother now…" I suggested.
"Would that be coming of your heart?" She forced me to look at her, I cleaned her tears. Gone was that countenance that looked at me with disgust in the past.
I couldn't agree, not as long as those bad memories remained. I forgive but don't forget.
"I know what you are thinking. Don't worry, I'll spoil you lots" She hugged me again, I may have heard wrong... but I think she was sniffing me too.
"It is not something I view as my responsibility, Ray. I genuinely hope you will feel loved and appreciated, you're an amazing boy with a kind heart. That's why I don't mind if Emma is here, or about your private life, I don't mind as long as you are happy"
"That's not convenient for me, you shouldn't be living for someone else's sake" I sighed and hugged her back, petting her head too.
"If you just tell me, then I could come home later and not be a bother," She said with a blush.
"I don't want that… you don't need to worry, if it comes to that I'll just do it somewhere else".
She nodded in silence, and we remained in that hug for a while. It felt a bit awkward to have this kind of conversation with her
"W-What will you do to him? You won't go too far, will you?"
"I'll just teach him a lesson, he will leave you alone".
"Okay. If you want you can go ahead and take a bath, I will finish cleaning"
"That's not–"
"Be a good boy… good boys get lots of love~"
"…"
I don't know what to say. It would be a lie if I said I don't like the way she's behaving. I get that she's trying to redeem herself but now… the first round is going to start soon. I have put a lot of effort into becoming 'emptier' and my strength has increased by leaps and bounds due to that, I can't lose all that effort now.
As the water fell on my face, I stared at my hands back and forth, pitch black, swallowing every droplet. That is what I am, a monster that sucks light. Light is also something, and everything that is something shall eventually turn to nothing.
Before I realised it became my nature to take this form. Resembling a 'human' became secondary.
"R-Ray...?"
Something fell off and produced a stirring noise, I turned around and Veronica was standing there with a towel covering her body.
"Veronica? Why are you... here?".
The muffled mirror portrayed my human silhouette, but the fear in Veronica's eyes was evident.
"I finished cleaning and wanted to wash your back..."
"That's inappropriate, I am not a kid anymore".
"Even then..." She mumbled and closed the door behind her, "We are family, so don't sweat it".
She ignored my words and walked into the shower to begin scrubbing my back, Veronica had a smile but her hands were shivering. I sighed and turned around, taking her hand into mine.
She blushed a bit, her fluster somehow overshadowed her fear.
"What was that just now?" She asked.
"That was me, was it scary?".
"No... just unexpected".
She wasn't lying, in no time her hands stopped shivering and she scrubbed my back normally. I retracted back into that form and she wasn't scared.
"Now that I think about it, Ray..."
"What?".
"You don't need to sleep, eat, you don't need a shower... so you are just pretending...?" She asked in suspense.
"I guess... even if I am not human now, I was human at some point. Some things never change, I don't want them to change, but yes... those things are unnecessary for me"
Veronica smiled and scrubbed my soft skin, she liked that better "I always thought that you behave so much more mature than your age. Before being my son, you were something else, right?".
"..."
"I will take that silence as a yes. I'm sure you were such a sweet person then as you are now. Even if the current you were somewhat scary, I wouldn't see you that way".
"You're too confident..."
Once she finished scrubbing my back, Veronica hugged me.
'What's wrong with this woman?!'
I don't understand why she's going to such lengths. She hugged me like she was recharging. If it is just this I don't have a problem, but...
"Veronica... your towel".
Her towel had long fallen, I know because I can't feel it... what I can feel are two big soft and round things.
!!!
"S-Sorry!"
*RING!*
We heard the intercom ringing, Emma had the house's keys so it was not her. Veronica rushed out to answer and tripped on the towel".
"Aah!"
"What are you doing, be careful!"
I held her just in time before she hit the floor face-first, but my hand ended up holding her...
"I-I will go, continue your shower!"
The door closed behind her, I clenched my hand a few times, almost feeling the phantom palpitations of her agitated heart.
I put the shower in full-throttle and splashed all that cold water against my face, I needed it.
...
When I finished my shower, who knows how long after, Veronica was together with Jean, Emma and Annie watching a movie while eating some Chinese food the girls brought.
I ignored their giggles and walked up to my room to wear something while Emma's piercing glare stared at my back like she wanted to stab me.
'You had fun with mommy, huh?' She sent me mentally.
'...'
How the hell...! also, I didn't do shit!