His words tunnel through me like a jolt of electricity, my skin feels warm—tingly with the sensation of desire. Everything felt so hot, yet so wrong, but so good all at once. Theo's hands slide up, his fingers tugging away at the buttons on my blouse.
"Theo..." I gasp out, his fingers gently fondling away to unbutton my shirt. He has the first one done, and now the second. He's flawless with his actions, like he's done this before.
He never broke eye contact either.
"Yes?"
He's on the third.
My chest is exposed at this point, heaving up and down in an erotic way. I slid my hands from his face down to grip his shoulders. I feel like I could forget how to breathe any moment—Im on that path if he doesn't stop soon.
Stop.
Even I didn't know what I wanted at this moment. It was the first time a boy has ever shown me... Attention. Attention in a way that could make my eyes roll. His words weren't sweet, honey-coated, but they weren't sour either. They were too good to be true.
It was all so tempting.
My body moved on its own though. My hips began swaying softly, back and forth, directly onto his growing bulge. I could see his eyes soften in a needy way, his cheeks shift into a dusty, red color.
Theo leans back a little, moving his stare down to where our hips connected. He grabbed the hem of my skirt with his free hand, and lifted it to see my covered cunt grind onto the bulge of his pants. A soft whine leaves his lips, and he finds himself pressing his hips upward a little, pressing directly against my cunt.
I sigh softly, my hips trembling at the new feeling. "You're so wet." He nearly laughs, seeing a tiny wet spot appear on his pants from me. I clench the fabric of his shirt as I ignore him.
"Use me, Rose." He suddenly gasps out feeling me fasten my pace. "Yeah... Just like that." I wrap my arms around his neck and hide my face in his shoulder, getting a perfect view of the courtyard below me.
My eyes land on students walking around, giggling escaping their lips as they spoke freely. They couldn't see me, nor Theo, which was good...
But it all suddenly hits me the moment I see them.
I shouldn't be doing this.
Theo Partridge was a boy I just met. I didn't know him. I didn't know his intentions.
I needed to stop—my reputation is in the hands of a mysterious boy I know nothing of.
My body. My soul. My everything. It's in the grasp of his fingers.
His eyes are hooded, he can't see my face as it's hidden in his shoulder, but his grip didn't hesitate to tell me what he wanted. I've never been this close to anyone, his lips suddenly pressed against my chest, kissing where my heart is. I shudder at the contact.
Pulling away from his shoulder to look at what he's doing, I immediately lock gazes with him, and he's looking at me like he wants to devour me.
Theo suddenly closes his eyes, working on the fourth button.
"You're so uneasy, your heartbeat is going crazy." He laughs softly against my skin. He pulls away, I know he could feel my heartbeat on his lips, "I won't pounce on you, unless you tell me to." My body relaxes a little when he pulls away, a shaky sigh leaves my lips.
"I don't know what I want."
"If you want me, I beg of you to take me. My everything." He smiles cockily, leaning back once again so he could take in the full sight of my body sitting in his lap, my school uniform messily undone. "Your body is trembling."
I don't reply, I can only look at him with pink cheeks, and a nervous expression. I could feel Theo hard beneath me as I'm sitting on his lap, my movements stopped. My body wants me to drag against his own, merge with the sultry idea of Theo, and him loving me the way I need.
But my anxieties are back again, and won't stop nibbling away at my feelings.
I could get expelled for this.
I could lose the first friend I've made—Rin—if this got out.
I could push my reputation lower than what it started off with. The quiet new girl, who's secretly a depraved slut.
I'm far from such though.
"Im sorry..." I whisper out, my anxieties getting the best of me. I moved my hands up to quickly button up my shirt. "Im sorry for leading you on—just forget about this all. Forget about what I said, It was weird, I was talking only from my intrusive thoughts. Forget about me."
My words are low, and Theo looks at me amused as I do so. He doesn't seem bothered, which only makes me crumble more into my nervousness.
"... Thats impossible." He mumbles out, grabbing my attention. "I can't just... Forget about you."
I glance at him once, it was quick, before I continue on with my shirt. "Please, just try."
I'm finished at this point, and as much as I wish not to, I pull myself out of his lap and simply sit next to him. I grab the fabric of my skirt as I gaze down at my thighs, and harshly grip it.
I don't even know who I am.
Why would I let myself do this?
"I don't know you, Theo." I suddenly say, trying to blur out my mental degrading. "I want to know you, and I want to..."
"Fuck me?"
I shoot him a glare, shutting him up quickly with a simple glance. "Shut up." He takes the hint, and closes his mouth with a small nod.
"It's my first day here, and I've already found myself diving toward the lowest parts of myself. Parts of me that even I didn't know existed." I softly shake my head before standing. "We can be friends?"
Theo only looks at me, I can't read him, his legs are still spread freely, and his hair is messy from our recent... Whatever that was.
What is he thinking? What's going through that confusing mind of his? I'm not sure I even want to know, he's surely mentally spitting insults at me.
He suddenly smiles at me though.
Catching me off guard.
"I'm what you need, Rose... You'll figure that out soon enough." He pauses, his smile dropping slightly, "But, for now, If that's what you want, I'll give you time."
I stand from the window seat, not daring to look at him again.
"Great..." I shift in my step, "I had fun... And thanks for all of this, but I'm going to go."
Theo frowns.
I get the courage to look at him one last time, sending him a last smile. "Bye."
He doesn't say much before I rush out the door, hurriedly shutting it behind me. I let my back rest on the wooden surface before closing my eyes with a sigh.
I wasn't oblivious to the idea of hooking up... But Theo seems much more interested in just that.
I'm such a fool.
Maybe even—
"Oh. I was looking for you."
A sudden voice in front of me makes me open my eyes quickly.
I was met with a boy, who was much taller than me, leaning down to be on par with my expression. His hands were stuffed in his pockets, his hair was dirty blonde, and his eyes were a vibrant blue.
"Hi?"
"It's Rosie, right?"
I shift in my step, uncomfortably. Had I been caught? I pray to the gods up above, if they even existed, that this boy didn't hear anything. My shame was slowly being tugged away, and I felt my face heat up in embarrassment.
"Thats me."
He smiles, unexpectedly. His grin is crooked, and his eyes are closed while doing so.
"Xavier..." He takes a step back, "I came here to see if Theo knew where you were, I guessed he was done touring you..." He hums. "I guessed correctly."
That liar.
I was foolish to believe that nobody else knew of this place.
"Oh... Yeah," I laugh nervously. "We're done. Just got done actually."
He smiles down at me, an eyebrow-raising. "I didn't know this part of the school was included in the Tour. Awh. Don't tell... Has Theo already got his way with you?"
My cheeks heat up as a scowl finds its way to my face. "Shame on you for assuming something so improper."
I push past him, he grunts lowly as I bump into him. "I will report you to Mr. Wellsy if you spread such rumors."
Deny. Deny. Deny.
As I walk down the hall, he seems to follow me closely from the behind. This school seemed to be filled with people who can't mind their business. "Woah—woah. It was just a question, Princess. Calm down."
I keep my gaze ahead of me, "Good. Then let's leave it at that."
"You know..." He continues walking aside me. "You're pretty... Jumpy. What really happened in there?"
"God. I hate boys." I mutter under my breath.
He piques up with a childish smile at my unheard remark. "What was that?"
I turn to him with an innocent, sweet smile. Catching myself before I reply with something crude again.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I tend to mutter." I stop in my tracks to face him. "All I said was please don't worry about me. Nothing odd happened, I'm just a little nervous since it's my first day... Meeting new people and whatnot."
He buys into my act completely. If this is what it took to boost my name, then so be it.
"Ah. Don't be nervous!" He throws an arm over my shoulder as he forces me to walk alongside him. "Was it Theo who made you uneasy? He's just like that. Always murmuring with a scowl on his face, give him a chance, alright?"
I've done just that. And the Theo these people know seems to differ from the one I know. He really must like me to change his whole personality. Weird.
Intriguing though.
"Oh, Theo?" I say. "He was actually pretty sweet. I like him, we're already friends." I give him a sheepish smile, to which his eyes narrow at me.
"Really? Friends already?"
I nod.
"It took me all of high school to even get him to look at me." We start walking down the stairs, giving me the chance to finally wiggle out of his grasp. "You must be rather fascinating to befriend him so quickly."
"I wouldn't say that..."
He shrugs, stuffing his hands in his pockets once more. "You've charmed me, so I don't deny it."
I nearly want to gag.
What's with the boys here?
For what seems to be the millionth time today, I reply. "Please stop with the horrid flirting, you don't even know me." I awkwardly laugh, saying those words for what felt like the tenth time today.
"Flirting?" We both stop. He pulls his cell from his pockets before handing it to me. "That was not me trying to flirt with you, rest assured."
"Yeah, whatever."
He rolls his eyes with a playful smile before handing me his phone. "We're going out of town tomorrow, camping just down the road for the weekend. We already got Mr. Wellslys's approval. Wanna come?"
"Uhm..." I shift in my step. "I don't know..."
"Awh, c'mon!" He smiles, "It'll be fun. Rin is going."
"She is?"
"Mhm." He leans down, and whispers. "We're kind of a thing right now. She's been bugging me endlessly to invite you. Don't tell anyone, mkay?" He places an index finger to his lips, proposing the idea that it's a matter to be kept silent.
A thing? As in, dating? Messing around? I can't say I'm surprised—Rin looks as if she'd be a magnet for the boys. I had trouble fully understanding what that meant, but I shook it all away.
Maybe this was good though.
Maybe this is what I needed. To clear my mind, and put myself out there more.
A small, anxious smile draws to my lips. "Okay, okay..." I shake my head, grabbing his phone to enter my contact info. "Im not drinking though. This sounds more like a party than a camping trip... But It does sound a little fun."
Xavier smiles down at me as I'm entering in my info. "Not a problem. We'll bring juice for you."
I roll my eyes before shoving his phone into his chest roughly. "Dont tempt me. Now I might have to show you off."
I take a few steps away, onto the floor I meant to go before raising my hand with a small wave. "Text me the details!" I smile before running off back to my dorm.
Leaving Xavier to smile down at his phone, a single hand shoved inside his pocket.