Chapter 7
The Farewell And The Gifts (2)
"What are you talking about right now, Chronas?! Stop it! It doesn't matter, let's focus more on saving you! I can't let you die like this!" I grunt in confusion because she is opening up a nonsense topic right now.
Giving me a name? What does it do good in this situation, though? None!
Chronas smiled lame again at me, while looking at my eyes adorably like she is staring at a child that still lacks knowledge.
"Chronas, please tell me how I can save you! Please, tell me there is still a cure for the forbidden-poison casted upon you!" I cried out, because her under eyes keep getting deeper and deeper as time passes by.
She moved her head slowly, "M-Monster, just like what I said, there is no cure for this poison... it is a forbidden spell and borrowed from God. S-So please.... let me die in peace will you?" Her jokes at the time like this became my comfort and at the same time, became the personality of hers I hate the most.
Because what she is saying right now is unacceptable. How can I watch my first friend and the first family I called my own watch to die in front of me? This is a fucking torturing. I don't want it…
I cried in silence as reality slapped me.
Chronas continued to utter, "A-And just one more time, I want to spend my remaining time in this world with you, Monster. So instead of focusing on what we can't do, can w-we just please try to focus on what we can do? — Can you please do that for me?"
When Chronas said that to me. I didn't have the liberty in my system to answer her, that I can. Because what I really feel inside me is the otherwise. Though, as I saw the beautiful eyes of the first friend I can call my own, my own wall in my system breaks on its own as I see hope and longing on it.
That's why even though I will look hypocrite and a very big liar. I nod my head to grant her last wish.
"M-Monster... can I ask, how did you end up in this place?" Her voice in her first question at me became weaker.
I tried not to cry and to be as honest as I can, "I-I died in my past l-life... a-and... a-and... the system in my head brought me in this world i-in this form and i-in this place..."
Chronas nods and smiles weakly, "I-I see... now I know why you're more promising than any other beings I met right now. And w-why you are s-so exceptional of them a-all..." her voice became weaker and weaker. That's why I need to move my head closely in her mouth so I can hear every bit of her words.
And as much as I want to question her being knowledgeable about what happened to me and why she isn't confused about what I brought up about reincarnation- I tried not to. I want to let her know me more, as much more than she knows me already.
"S-So, Monster? Can you please tell me a little bit of the story of your past life? I want to hear your story there," She pleaded using her dying voice.
And also the small fire flies start to appear, indicating that it is night already.
I make a plastic smile to the pale woman that I know that has a glowing skin and beautiful face.
"It's quite chaotic and long. C-Can you... bear to listen to it?" I provoked her. And once, I saw her arrogant smile again plastered in her lips.
"Try me..." She said with full of guts.
I smiled and nodded, "So..." and later that, I started to tell the story of my past life to her. From how I was born to the unfortunate failed marriage of two beings — how I get beat up by my own mother everyday because she thinks I am the reason why my Dad broke up with her and left us to rugs — how I got beat up by my schoolmates and made my high-school life a living clown: I tell her all of it. All of the memories that I didn't want to remember or reminisce about already but also at the same time don't want to forget it because it's the fuel that keeps my purpose on this regression alive.
I don't know how many minutes or hours I keep my mouth working.
I just let my feelings control me that moment and tell Chronas how I felt helpless back then and how pitiful I looked to myself that time: I tell her all. While she is staring at me intently with comforment showing in her dark-violet eyes.
"-yeah, I guess that's my past life for you. Very chaotic and most of them are bad memories," I tried to brush off the very awkward and silent air that surrounded us when I finished telling my story.
Chronas didn't say anything after that. She just kept looking at me with her comforting eyes that didn't even show any pity on what she just heard. And I don't know why I find my past life struggle became so valid by just seeing how Chronas looks at me right now.
And I just realized… It's really good to vent to someone about those bad memories and trauma. This is my first time telling it to another being, that's why it's very unknown to me to feel very light and free inside me- like all of those bad memories wash off when I open it up to Chronas.
I smiled out of nowhere.
'Ha... so this is what it is to have a friend, huh?'
"M-Monster...?"
"Y-Yes?" I got back to reality as I heard Chronas speak. I look at her.
"I-I am..."
"Huh?" I move again my ears to her mouth because her voice keeps getting weaker and weaker, "What did you say, Chronas?"
"I-I am... v-very proud of what you've become..." When I finally heard the words that Chronas was trying to say, my eyes automatically cried. And once, I finally heard the word that I wanted to receive in my past life.
I hug Chronas body as I fill the place with my loud cries again. It is like, the word that Chronas gives me is the lever for my trauma's that I've been hiding deep inside my soul and now released and free.
"I am proud, t-that no m-matter w-what you b-been through... you s-stay l-like this. K-Kind, lovely, and a d-dreamer. A-And I hope... that after this... you will stay like that and w-will never change so someone just like you i-in your past life in this world, can see you as their light in the midst of their darkness... t-this world needs someone like you, so it can change and be better... so please, stay like that. Be the hope of others... It will be the last favor that I-I can ask you..."
I cried very hard as those warm words came out from Chronas mouth.
I nod my head as I continue to cry out loud, "I-I promise, Chronas! I promise!"
And after that, the safe zone floor filled with my cries again. And it lasts longer than I thought, until I stop as I don't have any water in my body to cry out.
"M-Monster, there is no longer t-time for me, so I want to give you a name already..." Chronas dying voice starts to become whispers.
And as much as I don't want to accept this part- I must. It is the reality. That I must face.
And for that, even though I don't have any idea what Chronas intention is for naming me, I let her do it.
"O-Ok, name me Chronas," I said using my crack voice.
I sense her smile in my shoulder before uttering, "I-I name you Raylight, Monster. F-From now on, you will carry t-that name until in your grave... so all the beings in Livettia will know you among men and Gods. I-I will also give you my family name. C-Chronas. S-So from now o-on, you will be known among men as Raylight Chronas. Will you... accept it?"
Raylight, huh? Raylight Chronas...
"Y-Yes, I will accept it," I said without any hesitation.
[Alert! Intacting 'Raylight Chronas' to the soul of the host. Please wait for a moment. Kai!]
"W-What is this? What is happening to me??" I uttered out of nowhere when my body and the system in my head started to act weird.
"I-It is my farewell gift to you, Raylight... s-so even though I will leave you alone in this world, y-you will feel that I'm always by your side..."
"W-What are you talking about, Chronas? What d-do you mean- I don't get it-"
[Alert! All the gifts from the Sponsor will also be inducted to the host. Please wait for a moment. Kai!]
[Alert! The title: The Heir Of Chronas will be imprinted to the soul of the host. Please wait for a moment. Kai!]
[Alert! Due to the title of the host, The Heir Of Chronas, three unique skills from Lady Chronas will be added to the unique skills of the host. Adding. Please wait for a moment. Kai!]
[Alert! Due to the gift of the Sponsor. The chance to evolve is being opened. The host can now evolve to Demon Caterpillar to Demon Fairy King if the given requirement is absorbed. Kai!]
[Alert! Due to the gift of the Sponsor, the host will be having three new abilities. Adding. Please wait for a moment!]
[Alert! The 'Will Of Chronas' is added to the title of the host. Please wait for a moment. Kai!]
"C-Chronas, just what did you do?! What is the naming purpose for real??" I didn't help to ask a question because I can't really follow all the blubbering of the system in my head saying.
But one thing I know- there is a big change in my soul the moment Chronas gives me a name.
"I-I can't explain anything to you right now but-" Chronas wasn't able to continue her explanation as she continued to vomit blood.
"Chronas!!" I growl worriedly and hold her against my arms so she can face me.
She smiled at me, "I-I can't explain to you n-now, s-since I don't really have remaining time... my body is dying... so I-I will let your system e-explain to you everything..." She continued. And with that, all the confusion about what happened earlier has swiftly disregarded as I go back to the present that Chronas is dying.
"I-Is there no really other way to save you?! Please tell me, even though it is impossible, I will do it!" I plead again helplessly to the woman who only gives me her bright smile.
She nag her head slowly, "N-No Raylight... w-we don't have a choice b-but to accept it... though, please know that I-I am really happy to spend my remaining times with you..."
"C-Chronas..." I cried again.
"C-Continue your dream to see the w-world… s-so you can meet the people t-that will t-treat you like a family and their o-own... m-make a big change a-and d-don't change, Raylight... go... walk on the p-path that you wanted. I-I will look for you u-up there..."
"C-Chronas, no!!" I insisted and held both of her hands.
"L-Live young one... l-live... and make yourself and m-me proud…"
"F-Farewell… A-Ash…" Chronas calls me by my past life using her last breath and after that, she finally closes her eyes.
I hug her cold body and start to cry out loud again where my audience in the death of my first friend is the silent ruins of the past and the fireflies that give their condolences to me using the light they possessed.
"Chronas!!"
To Be Continued...
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